Checking in 5 years 2 months sober.
Quiet day, Sunday roast dinner and old movies.
Stay safe and sober peeps 
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You will 
And much quicker than you think, with consistency. Muscle memory is a real thing.
@Zse Congrats on the new job! So nice when you donāt have a long commute. Hope itās an easy transition for you 
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Thanks Laura 
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2y 8m 22d no self harm
day 6 in eating disorder partial hospitalization program
itās been a little overwhelming lately. i was diagnosed with PTSD. I mentioned this last post but now that Iām in a safe space all of my repressed traumas and feelings have started to flood in. but Iāve made some good friends. they saw I was doing bad yesterday and they took me to to target where I got Legos and some cute new pants. Iām really lucky that these people are here. I just wish i could handle myself better. my doctor hasnāt filled my fibromyalgia medication so Iām in so much pain.i was prescribed muscle relaxers but they arenāt helping. Iām just tired
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Day 63
Dealing with anxiety today. Tried journaling, breathing exercises, walking and meditating. I know worrying in advance wonāt change what will happen, still I worry. I am sure tomorrow will be easier. I just keep breathing. 
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im sorry to hear that - are you able to call and ask them to put a rush on it. Sorry that you are in so much pain.
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Keep doing what you are ā all things should help calm down that anxiety. I am sorry that they havenāt helped up to now. Are you able to try and nap? Maybe while listening to a meditation?
You are right - tomorrow will be easier and better ODAAT 
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Checking in day 328 AF
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Sunday afternoon hello.
Presently waiting for my daughter to fall asleep for her nap. Long, busy days this weekend.
Iām going to take an hour of downtime during her nap for the first time in weeks.
Not really looking forward to cooking two meals this afternoon and evening, but here we are.
Onward we go, fully present in every minute.
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theyāve been ignoring my calls Iāve been calling twice a week
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Thank you
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Checking in late on day 7. One week today, have had a fantastic weekend. Absolutely love to wake up sober again. Woke up early to watch F1, then spent most of the day doing some catch up at work and a good few hours preparing for a certification course tomorrow and Tuesday. Absolutely love being able to do this without getting stressed .Pretty tired now but happy. Very motivated to continue working my plan and make this work. Wish everyone a good Sunday!
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1567
Went out with some fellow foreign ladies last night. Some things have been stressful and disheartening lately, and I would be lying if I said the thought of drinking with the others who do drink didnāt pop into my mind. Actually, more than pop, the thoughts entered my mind and hung around, requiring actual logical refutation. A hazy escape from life for a bit would be lovely, but unfortunately for me, that would be a return to cravings, chaos and the struggle to get sober again eventually. Since I have been sober a while, ordering the ginger ale felt natural and I got cracking on the food. Soon enough, those drinking got loud, crude and clumsy. It was all very normie level, and totally fine, but I was glad to stay sober. Then they headed off to karaoke, I do not have enough confidence to do that sober, so headed home. That did feel isolating, but it just means I have to work on my self esteem, rather than drink to artificially prop it up. Anyway, I am extra proud of adding that one day at a time to my total. Day 1567, I earned you.
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Hey beautiful people 
Checking in Day 8
Iām realizing without the crutch of drugs or alcohol I have a lot of anger and sadness Iāve been burying for quite some time. I know these feelings will pass but very tough in the moment. I think Iām gonna head over to the store and get some xmas decorations to maybe get myself in the holiday spirit. Overall today has been a good day. I am learning to manage my emotions in a healthy way. I still donāt have cravings per se but i do know using would be an easy escape from this so maybe some logic is finally kicking in.
Hope everyone else is keeping strong today 
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Day 5. I Will attend to a SLAA meeting in a while through Zoom. I donāt want but I feel tired and old. My overweight is not helping at all. I must be patient with the whole process.
thank you @JazzyS
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Day 24. Itās been a bit of a stressful day but I havent considered drinking. The idea is there, at the back of my mind, but it hasnāt been hassling me as much. I hope everyone had a wonderful Sunday.
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Well itās been about two days since my last post and I got something new to bitch about so Iāll just let it out here.
Canāt hurt, right? 
So I mentionend a āfriendā of mine who is moving to england and has now officially left.
She did sent me something like a goodbye message today and now Iām emotionally stuck between anger and maybe a tinge of sadness?
Hard to tell really. 
I went over most of it in the last post so Iāll keep it brief here.
There was nothing of substance in it I hadnāt heard before so I just did what I had been planning all along.
Which is to say I told her good luck at finding what she is looking for, said goodbye and deleted her number from my phone.
I know that seems harsh but I told her multiple times about what constitutes a friendship for me and her behaviour during these last months was both insulting and a massive waste of my time.
I am allowed to ask for a higher standard of friendship.
Thinking about switching my number as well to be honest.
I ran until I couldnāt and I just donāt have it in me to care that much anymore.
Sure Iāll obsess about it some more but thatās just a trained reflex and not a real desire for connection.
Even without my āinfatuationā with her, this alone would be unhealthy enough to just drop it.
Iāve seen this movie before and let me tell you, the reviews were very mixed to begin with. 
Thatās it for now.
Not my problem, nor my business anymore.
For now I wish you all peace,
Jonas E.
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I would love to browse that vinyl collection!
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A person I care about passed away tonight and the first thing I did was pray, we all know what the first thing used to be, those that know me know Iām not religious but I do whatever it takes to stay sober and if it works for others then it can work for meā¦ So far so good.
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@positivethoughts Oh I do hope you enjoy your downtime. 
@sadmemequeen Oh that is total BS! Iām sorry friend. Hope you are able to get through to someone and get the med situation addressed asap!
@sticky Congrats on your 1 week of sobriety! Best of luck with your prep with your certification
Yeah you did ā totally earned the day and so proud of you. It is easier to forget how hard it was to start the journey as we gain distance from our day 1. I am glad that you were able to use logical refutation and remind yourself of how far youāve come.
@jp123 The anger and sadness are normal emotions to be feeling. In drinking we muted ourselves and it was hard to really feel anything. Glad you are finding healthier ways to deal with the emotions. Do you have someone you can talk with in real life ā help you sort through the feelings in a safe environment? Hope the x-mas decorations helped lit your spirts
@bomdhil 5 days is wonderful work my friend. I know that in the early days we need to utilize all the support and tools (especially when we are not feeling up to it). You just keep pushing forward and your health / weight will also improve. I know it does not happen overnight but do trust that with a healthy lifestyle we will see the results of our efforts. ODAAT!
@scaredsmol Glad you are not giving the idea any power and are protecting your sobriety. Drinking will not help the stress go away. It will not give you any comfort. Keep vigilant friend ā24 days and going strong
YES! Of course you can and you deserve a friend who respects you and your boundaries. I know that it will sting for a while but it will get easier ā especially with the distance now with her move.
@dolse71 Oh Iām so very sorry Paul. Sending hugs and condolences. I am glad that you are not going to old comforts and finding healthier ways to cope. Here if you need to talk or a shoulder to lean on!
Checking in on Sunday evening
704 days free of alcohol and weed
1119 days free of cigarettes
Did manage to get more done today than i had expected but less than what I had hoped if that makes sense. I am overly tired and having a hard time keeping my eyes open but do need to brush my teeth (really hope that doesnāt wake me up LOL).
Another sober day in the books so i consider today a success! Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day / evening - sending you all so much love 
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