I can relate to ur post alot!! I too am on the side of anxiety. I used to struggle with sleep immensly bcuz my brain just doesnt stop lol (i brought this up to my dr and am now on medication to help me sleep, so this is not really an issie anymore).
But i love the point about communicating with ur husband when ur having an off day. Idk why i never thought of doing that before! I usually try to push thru my day as if nothing is wrong (when there is) and then my husband can certainly tell something is wrong, but im not communicating it. And i sometimes end up getting super irritable and snappy. Im going to try ur approach next time Thanks for posting!
How they managed all the situation was really incredible. It was smart move. Main event. Pay per view. Supertat totally wasted on drugsā¦ Getting late on stageā¦ Jeff hardy has lots of history of drugs abuse and addiction. He was always a big inspiration to me on how he started his sober life. What a show. People payed a lot of money to see a one of the best high flyers wrestler to almost crawl to the stage all wastedā¦
Hi. I always love seeing you here, but unfortunately I did read the previous message that you posted then deleted. Wishing you well with your recovery. Just be mindful of posting such stuff.
Checking in on day 98 clean time. Couldnāt be more grateful for the life I live now as opposed to just a few months ago! If youāre looking for help to see the good in bad situations try writing a gratitude list, itās helped me alot. Congrats to everyone and their clean time !
Yes thats why I deleted it. Probalby Jeff Hardy entrance is the best representation of where I am right now. Still Positive. I know all will be goodā¦
Day 6 - Checking In, feeling pretty darn tired, my sleep still hasnāt quite jumped back yet, but I know it will!
When I got my hair cut yesterday, my barber told me that he is over one year sober and active in recovery. It was so cool to hear his story and just run into someone in āthe wildā who gets why I am making the decision not to drink.
Anyways, goals for today:
Three whole meals
Gym
House cleaning
Christmas concert with my parents
Wishing you all some well deserved peace and happiness!!
Checking in 5yr 74days sober.
Been a very stormy day here, electricity on and off.
So its been a day of fairy lights and candles, which I love anyway, no Xmas in this house but fairy lights all year round
Just watching the reopening of the Notre Dame, been 20 years since I visited Paris but it was a very impressive place.
Hey congratulations on 1 week sober! The vivid dreams are a very common thing, especially in early recovery. I used to never dream when using or drinking. Since being clean and sober, i have some crazy vivid dreams, sometimes very strange ones lol
Gym, day out with the family with neice in tow too. Dinner at Nandoās which is an awesome place - fast food that is also healthy and not highly processed - one of the only fast food places I will eat at. It also benefits from having virtually no alcohol on the menu so no one drinks there. I think they serve one beer or one wine, basically āif you mustā. Always used to annoy me when I was drinking, now I love it.
London being lashed by a storm tonight but power is still on so going to settle in with a movie.
@laner all we can do is recognize it as not being healthy thinking and work on fixing it. I too wouldnāt be able to pinpoint when it began but do know itās been with me for a super long time. Wishing you luck with enjoying things you love guilt free @HiyaKat doing great work. Knowing the upcoming event can be tricky, a few things to consider. Do you absolutely have to attend, can you go separately so you can leave whenever you want, are you able to scope out alcohol free drink options available ahead of time or take your own (make sure to always have something in hand so you arenāt tempted and others donāt ask you for a drink,). Remember we are always here and sure is always active so you can reach out for support at any time. No need for a relapse if you are well prepared
Now I would be afraid to try the harder or more difficult ones! Glad you did it, had a good time and survived gorgeous view
So very true! Great work on getting back on track and utilizing all your tools to help you recover . You have come a long way! Keep it going strong
Oh Mira Iām so sorry. I totally empathetize with what you are going through. It canāt be easy to mentally put two thoughts together let alone take care of daily tasks, double duty and stay positive. Sending you love and loads of energy my friend. You have a good plan to shutdown the negative thoughts. Glad you arenāt feeding into it and working your way to stay afloat. Itās not an easy task and I want you to know you are doing great. Remember that you are not alone! I do hope you are able to make time for you keep the communication going Mira
You work on regaining that title . ODAAT @Refreshedperspective I love hearing about other peopleās sober journey in real life and find it refreshing when they talk about it with pride and openess @Millie_1987 yeah 1 week wishing you better sleep ahead. Donāt get discouragedā¦it does go through some insomniac loops and crazy dreams but it does get better
Totally sick of how normalized alcohol is and in all cultures all over the world. Grateful that we know that the poison is no good for us. We canāt like our lives with that toxicity.
Checking in Saturday afternoon
Wishing you all a wonderful dayā¦Iām enjoying some sibling time watching the 2nd Die Hard
I canāt shake off some extreme fearful thoughs about my kids today. What if one day somebody gonna hurt them. Really hurt. My brain is wandering in some very dark places today, I hate it. Or they gonna get seriously sick. Or Iām gonna die, they wonāt have me anymore. What if something gonna happenā¦
All day my brain is attacking and terrorising me with those thoughts. They come and go. And it leaves me mentally and physically exhausted. Iām trying to immediately think about something else but itās so difficultā¦ I have it sometimes, this sudden fear, Im sure all people do. But today itās just to much. Iām tired of it. I just want to fall asleep and wake up normal tomorrow.
Today Iāve been coming down from a massive spike in adrenaline from the past few days. Hopefully, tomorrow Iāll be able to get back to my work and study routine. Despite all the progress Iāve made, certain things do have a tendency of paralysing me. Not ideal with exam season round the cornerā¦
I spent the day watching The Madness on Netflix, an oddly appropriate title. Now Iām going to sleep. Thereās things to do tomorrow.
Thanks so much @JazzyS! Hubby took kids to see in-laws and I had a bath, made myself a sandwich, got some cmas cards done for my kids teachers and am laying in bed watching a murder mysteryā¦i messaged my husband to tell him how blissful this is! I go full steam all the time, and sometimes I just need to crash and be still and I am learning to allow myself to do this more as I get older.
Swnding you much love my friend
Thanks for posting!
had a day on the couch with TV and my cats.
gorgeous view
keep the communication going Mira
