Day 282
Good morning. Fitful sleep that I just had to stop. Maybe I can start it again. But first, some coffee with you.
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372 days
Good sunday with the kids. Swimming for the eldest then did some grocery shopping for the week.
Have had to have a few days off training with the sore back.
Back to work tomorrow hoping for a easier assignment tomorrow
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Storm Darragh doing itās damage
Trying my best. Should be 110+ days but Iām on day 1 again. I so hate this time of year.
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We should do a live watch party one weekend!
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ā Day 2273 
Havenāt been on the scale for a while but I feel I gained a couple of extra lbs/kiloās.
Curious how much it is, but noticing my pants sitting more tight.
Thursday is my first morning without the plaster so I can weight myself again.
Today? Some little house chores and cook a fancy dinner for my friends tonight: carrot ginger soup and gnochhi with mozarella and tomatoes
Topping it off with cake ofcourse.Have a good day ore night all
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Thanks @Mno It is good to know that what I am feeling is part of the process, even though it is not pleasant.
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Checking in day 265.
Mad panic attack today, really overwhelmed with everything we have to move and do before next weekend. Unfortunately having ADHD, being under pressure is sometimes the only way Iāll actually get things done. I canāt relax until everything is done and there is absolutely nothing left to do. It sucks but it can be super productive. Bosses have always loved my work ethic lol.
Speaking of, Iāve applied for a new job today too. I found it online and applications closed this afternoon so it was a nice little boost to get it done. New house with new job in new year is the goal.
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382 sugar
246 UPF
120 gluten
120 dairy
56 mindful eating
Every day I feel a little bit better and I am very grateful for that. But patience is not my forte. So I want to feel much better already. I want to feel ānormalā and healthy again. I want to get out, walking, running, biking, visiting friends an family. I want to do Yoga, strength training. I want everything. But as always: One day at a time.
Today there is not much going on. I am going to cancel a few appointments for next week. Everything that expects me to leave the house is still too much.
Other than that itās going to be mostly stuff around the flat, lots of chilling, and maybe 10min of Yoga.
Today is the second Sunday of the Advent season. So instead of a picture you get the probably most popular Advent hymn in Germany: Macht hoch die TĆ¼r. Perfomed in the very famous Frauenkriche in Dresden.
Peace and love for life always 
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Day 338 AF
Hitting gym today for third day in a row, and 6th day this week. I think thatās how I hope the flow will go, 3 on, 1 off, 3onā¦
Got called in for OT shift tonight (first day back in a month) for a 7pm-7am snow removalā¦ I think itāll get cancelled as it looks like rain, but perhaps weāre in regardless in case it turns??? Dunno. First year doing this. If I did work OT tonight, tomorrow for my 7am-3pm shift Iād be sent home with pay as we canāt work that many hours straight, so Iām hopeful it sticksā¦ lol. 16hrs of banked time for tonight and 8 hours to go home for one shiftā¦ gov work eh!
Anyway, sleep has been great. Exercise is helpful I think. Body battery has been recharging fantastically lately. So I think this routine works. My weight, body fat has been same over entire month, so thereās thatā¦ letās see how I spit out in the spring. Thatās when there best be some changes.
Enjoy your Sunday TS kids!!
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Sorry to hear youāre at day 1, Indi, but glad youāre BACK here straight away. One day at a time is all we can do
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Happy Sunday!
Yesterday my daughter & granddaughter were rear ended. Being sober I was able to get to the hospital and br there as dad when I was needed. I was even able to be there for my ex during all this and be the person I needed to be for everyone.
Another busy day today. No day off this week there is a Martial Arts tournament. So off to get ready and support my students. They will have coffee and doughnuts in the Masters lounge so that will help haha
MAKE IT AN AWESOME DAY MY FRIENDS!
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Sorry to hear that Frank. I hope you and your daughter are ok.
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@Rockstar24777 thank you 
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@JazzyS thank you š©µ
@Just_Laura thank you š©µ Iām glad you enjoyed the orchestra 
@Seizetheday congrats on 11+ months 
@Ccn31 congrats on 90+ days
@MrMoustache congrats on 2+ weeks belated happy birthday 
@GOKU2019 sorry youāre in so much pain 
@JP123 congrats on 3 weeks
@PositiveThoughts congrats on 3+ weeks and for making the right decision when temptation called.
@Philipwithonel belated happy birthday I hope the new job is going well 
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@MrFantastik belated congrats on your year 
@JonasE congrats on 8+ months
@Refreshedperspective welcome back itās good to have a clearer understanding of your addictions.
@Lighter congrats on 9+ months
@Bomdhil thank you š©µ congrats on 2+ weeks
@Sunny11 congrats on 30+ days
@TeaCosy Iām sorry you were unwell I hope youāre feeling better now š©µ
@Mischa84 sorry about your fall I hope your injuries are healing okay also sorry about the intrusive thoughts
@zzz itās good to see you posting again
@Sabrina80 wow, thatās so rude! Intrigued how the meeting will go 
congrats on double digits for no gaming
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@Butterflymoonwoman belated happy 40th birthday Iām sorry your son is unwell, I hope he feels better soon š©µ
@Jesile Iām glad the excursion went well 
@Lastry I hope youāre feeling a bit better by now š©µ
@Nesh1029 welcome congrats on your days so far
@acromouse sorry about your diagnosis I hope it does improve like the other times š©µ congrats on 8 months no UPFs
@Laner congrats on 8+ months and wow, you were above the clouds! 
@StacyAnn congrats on 2+ weeks
@BillsMafia13 congrats 90+ days now
@Heretohelp welcome to the checking-in thread congrats on your days so far
@Noshame congrats on 7 months nicotine-free sorry about the phone scam 
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@Rookie congrats on 60+ days
@Davey95 welcome congrats on your days so far
@Tragicfarinelli congrats on 60+ days THC-free good luck for Tuesday
@SoberWalker 
Iām sorry about the way things went with your dad though
@Chevy55 congrats on 11+ months
@Mindofsobermike proud of you man š©µ
@Jaybeeem welcome to the checking-in thread congrats on your days so far
@tailee17 glad you and your cat were safe 
@MooseTracks congrats on 27 months and passing the exam 
@LittleMissL congrats on 1900 days
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@Dilettante congrats on 500 days
@james83 congrats on your week+
@mxelle sending you strength š©µ
@Sissychris39 congrats on your week
@Millie_1987 congrats on your week
@Seb congrats on 300 days
@BrownGecko congrats on 3 weeks
@Lile01 welcome back
@Whereswaldo sorry for the overwhelm causing a panic attack but good luck with your application
@Frank68 I hope your daughter and grandaughter are both okay, glad you could be there for them š©µ
1581 days no alcohol.
1046 days no cocaine.
59 days no vape.
7 days no binge-eating.
So itās been 8 days since I last caught-up and checked-in! I keep intending to keep up with it but I just feel so overwhelmed lately.
I have not been doing well addiction-wise, I relpased on takeaways after 141 days on Thursday last week, and havenāt been able to stop yet. So I donāt feel like myself mentally at all.
I am completely off my first medication now, Thursday was my first night without it, this part of the withdrawal is the worst so far, along with the migraine and nausea, I also feel freezing cold and boiling hot at the same time and keep hot and cold sweating. Iām also barely sleeping.
I will finally be speaking to the diabetes nurse on Tuesday, so hopefully that will be one thing taken care of. She hadnāt even requested bloods, so I was assertive when I went for my testosterone shot on Thursday, and explained whatās been going on, and I do get on well with the nurse that does my shots, and she agreed to do the bloods. Hopefully the results will be on the system by the time I have my phonecall appointment.
Two days this week I spent helping my dad with his invoices for his VAT for last yearās tax year. I will help him again next Tues and will get it finished.
I thought Iād met someone on a dating site, but after 4 days of msging it turned out to be a romance scam, I was a little disappointed because it was quite nice to think someone was interested after 7.5 years of being single. Nevermind though, I still donāt think Iām ready or stable enough to be thinking about relationships of any kind.
I accept that this is a very difficult time of year for me, for a multitude of reasons. It was this time in 2021 when I relapsed on cocaine aftrer 459 days.
Iāve got zero self-respect at the moment and I am basically living like an animal. I take care of my cats, but severely neglect myself. I donāt know why but I just seem to get worse not better.
Everything just feels so overwhelming, thereās so many things I used to do as part of my daily routine, I just donāt feel like Iāve got the energy to do any of it. I donāt know how to go about trying to build things back in, and more.
I hope youāre all having wonderful sober weekends.
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Try not to beat yourself up @Lile01 today is a new day, fuck what āshouldāve beenā youāre doing it now and thatās what matters! And for the record, I hate this time of year as well lol we got this though. Iām rooting for you, you can do this!!! 
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Day 1,641 clean and sober today (I think) lol. Usually I see @Nordiqueās post and I get my count from his 
Rough day at work yesterday but I got through it. Clients are awesome but just like anywhere you work sometimes you have a shitty, self centered asshole boss. I practiced gratitude for the job I have and all the little things that I enjoy about it to try and bring me back to center. It was tough.
Have an amazing day everyone. I am super proud of you all, love you guys!
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Awwww we love you @CATMANCAM, Iām sorry youāre having such a hard time! Itās amazing to me how you can have so many kind words for others when you are going through so much pain yourself. I see you, I hear you and you are loved! Proud of you for always continuing to fight to get better man, youāre an inspiration. Much love
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