Day 285
What the hell is going on in my head at night? 
Then in the morning everything is like, cool, fine, ya, ok.
Iāll clean. Arenāt you supposed to clean before Christmas? Or is that after? 
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Happy Tuesday!
Its a great day to be sober and hangover free!
MAKE IT AN AWESOME DAY MY FRIENDS!
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Checking in on day
580 no alcohol
89 no form of weed
220 nic free
Iām tired
But
Iām allowed to get tired as long as I go to work
Right now Iām just drinking water
Maybe get myself a energy drink later
I left work 1 hour early yesterday
Wife needed some rest so I helped with our baby boy
Iām kinda stressed I think because of Christmas and the cold weather
I woke up early
4:45am to be at work for 7am
Iām happy I did that to get the momentum to get to work
Strange dreams about drinking last night
Maybe feel down Iām fighting a craving for alcohol
Clocking into work
Be back in a bit
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@JP123 Thank you for your kind words. I did a few minutes on the rower and then some stretching. It was more than I expected to be able to do, but also somewhat discouraging compared to what I was able to do a few weeks ago.
@Lighter There are different answers to your cleaning question. My mum would say: Only if you really have to, and only the part of the house the guest will see. My mum in law would say: Cleaning!? Where!? Sign my in! 
@SoberWalker That is a badass modern arts style angle there. Fits you perfectly 
@s_unrelax Looks like you are doing well in early recovery. Most of us find out that we tend to switch one addiction for another one. Mine was food bingeing first, work later. Until you find a way to be in the world and with life without the constant need to run away from it.
384 sugar
248 UPF
4 months gluten
4 months dairy
POTS symptoms are somewhat stable. I feel like last nightās sleep was slightly more restful than the nights before. At least I felt more energetic this morning. I managed to do a modified morning yoga routine and some meditation. I also tried a very light coffee. Iām not sure if this has any impact on my symptoms.
There is not much planned for today. Iāll try to do some simple things around the flat. I have some POTS-adapted strength training planned later. Yesterdayās rowing went quite well. It was frustrating to see how I could row for 30min straight just a few weeks ago, and now I can do 3min slow as a snail. But as we all know: One day at a time.
Todayās picture is some colorful streetart from Ghent in Belgium from last year.
Peace and love for life always 
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Checking in day 828. Mood has been improved the last few days. I finally got back to the gym Saturday after over a month away. Exercise really is one of the cornerstones of my emotional wellness and sobriety. Iām mostly checking in this morning to set the intention that Iāll be back at the gym after work today. Getting back into the routine is the hardest part, but once Iām in the swing of it, it becomes second nature.
Wishing everyone a terrific sober Tuesday 
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Checking in day 267. Have a great week everyone.
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Good morning im Good. Not. Sure how i feel about much of anything last few days i am thinking about leaving again in a few weeks if the price is right then why the hell not im not trying to get depressed and start thinking about suicide again because i know that is where my mind goes i dont think about that is just the way life is. I blame my self .knowing is half the battle lol wish everyone a great day.(Odaat)
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Day 696.
Today is a good day. Last year, we had a serious mould issue in the apartment. Itās an old house the previous owner built with his own hands at some point in the 60s. For some reason (mainly the diy insulation) the place gets humid as fuck. Humidity leads to mould. Drying our clothes indoors during the winter made the situation worse.
So for this winter, we bought a tumble dryer. Yesterday it arrived. Todayās a good day. My new domestic toy doesnāt just help prevent mould, but I also really really love the smell of tumble dried clothes. We usually use laundromats while travelling and the smell of fresh clothes was always my favourite part. Now I have it at home.
I mean, we still plan to air dry when the weather improves. But for nowā¦ laundry just got better.
Yes, Iām very sad. Iāve just spent 10 minutes writing a whole post about my excitement for a household appliance. 
To my defense, this whole domestic interest Iām showing is purely a side effect of sobriety. My old flat used to look like crack den. Without the crack, but with itās powdered sister and red wine stains everywhere.
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Its a pretty nice ride
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Day 1,643 clean and sober today. Rehearsal went awesome last night because the drummer stayed sober YAY!!! I had a talk with him about his playing when he drinks and he agreed to not drink during practices or before/during a show. Iām really glad he took the advice.
Have a great day everyone, love you guys! 
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Tuesday morning hello!
Yesterday I fulfilled my goal for the day of completely avoiding complaining, anger, resentment, and anxiety about the to-do list. Not even one second of those stayed. My wife is still adjusting from 4 straight long overnight shifts, and was cranky and grumbling, but I told her I was going to stay in a good mood. It worked.
Iām going to do that again today.
Have a great day everyone.
Be kind to yourself.
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I love this. This is also my goal too! I need to also get back to swimming!!! That used to be my Therapy!!
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Day 9 - Checking in, fighting a head cold, so being mindful of taking things slow! Still working and have a couple low impact plans tonight, but going to take a break from the gym today.
Snowy day here in my city! Itās beginning to feel a lot like Christmas! 
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Hey all, checking in on day 1640. I hope everybody has a good one 
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Deleted yesterdayās romantic post.
I am a complicated person.
I freezed during work.
Feeling super unsuitable.
In this world.
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Feels good the day after donāt it. I know it did for me on my first birthday without a drink.
Looking back; Thatās when I knew I was going to make it.
Good for you man.
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@Kareness your evening sounded lovely and relaxing.
How is your day starting off?
@Just_Laura my goodness that sounds like a super busy day and you got way more accomplished then you set out to do. I know it sucks when the original items on the list didnāt get done but remind yourself that you actually were busy all day and tackled many things that need attention first. We tend to set goals for ourselves (big or small) and then beat ourselves for not getting it done. Not thinking or congratulating ourselves for what we did accomplish or remembering that our original plan may have been unreasonable. Hope today is easier 
@s_unrelax yummy custard! I love hot fresh custard. 25 days is amazing work 
. Glad to see you stacking up the days. I totally get the fear of taking on a new addiction while trying to leave another. Are you able to cheer gum or fiddle with something when you feel like smoking? Have you checked out Grumpy A-holes (quitting cigarettes/ nicotine products) (Part 2) thread? Many great ideas and tips here. ODAAT . Iām doing well - thanks for asking. Just chugging away trying to make it through the holidays.
@soberwalker love the pic and the imagery of the wings. Having the pool to yourself is my absolute favorite thing. Super excited for you ā¦2 days and youāll be plaster free and have a fully healed footā:heavy_heart_exclamation:
@Noshame it sucks being tired and having to push through. Hope you gain some energy today. This is when we have to stay in guard cause our addiction knows we are tired and may not resist as much. Remind yourself of how far youāve come and that alcohol will offer no comfort. Keep fighting the good fight
Donāt let this discourage you. I know it sucks. You have just gone through a cycle and are getting back to feeling like youā¦you will be able to get you time and range back. Just remember tintake it slow and be gentle with yourself. Glad you got better sleep
It definitely is. You do what you feel will help you the most. Your mental state and sobriety are first priority. Maybe write out a pros and cons list to help you decide and see the benefits of each place?
Nothing sad about thatā¦I was getting excited for you as I was reading 
. Absolutely love the smell and feel of clothes right out of the dryer.
@Refreshedperspective hope the head cold feels better soon. Sending healing vibes 
@Juli1 sorry love ā¦we do go through our ups and downs. I used to hate going to work cause the temp would always be insanely hot or cold. Never knew how to dress. Had a space heater and a small fan ready to use 
. You are suitable for this world. You are worthy! You are beautiful! Hope your day improves for you my friend. Donāt give up on your goals 
Checking in on Tuesday morning
Didnāt sleep great and feeling a little sick with a migraine. The migraine could be the cause for the Iāll feeling. Donāt want to stay in bed so gonna attempt to move today. My phone calls may not get done today ā¦will play by ear.
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day - sending you all so much love
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Thank you for being so nice for so many people here Jasmine
I will send some healing vibes your way 
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Thanks Claudia . Appreciate you and this community.
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Day 10:
No shopping
No binge eating
No Grubhub
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