I would say this and any negative, numb or hallow feelings are so very normal in early days. And hell even sometimes this crops up after years of sobriety, for one reason or another or sometimes for what seems like no reason at all. But in the early days feelings like this can be SO STRONG and LOOMING, and it may leave you feeling like something is wrong with you or even temp you lean back on an old crutch to sooth the shitty, listless feeling. After all, didnt we always have a crutch or little helper to sooth us when we felt somewhat off or downright shitty?
Its a dicomfort that comes from allowing the feelings in. And when we no longer numb it or shoo it away, its just there and we have to face it or go through itā¦so much of sobriety is getting used to and working through feelings of discomfort. Alls to say, very very normal. Maybe its something that requires you to dive deeper (at some point i am not saying right now), or maybe it is something you just need to move through. These days will get easier to manage because youāll grow in your learning of how yo handle these feelings (i
E., understanding a shit day or an empty feeling is just that and shall pass; knowing what activities to do or people to talk to or even what work on self could perhaps be done
Life gets easier when weāre sober not because its just a barrel of laughs at all times, but because we learn how to deal with the tough shit. We learn to trust ourselves and our ability to get through these feelings and tough days.
One day at a time my friend. And as my dear old mentor used to always remind me (sometimes with a good chuckle!) āThis too shall pass!āā¦fuck it didnt feel helpful to hear in some moments, but its true.
Hello my dear sober family
Hope everyone is doing well I am home here on this winter day with my little one as he has the gastro thats been going around. Hope it doesnt take our whole house down, but very much enjoying the time with him. He is so happy to get to watch some TV, and just cant believe he is getting to watch some of his shows and its not Wrdnesday or the weekend LOL. I imagine i may get a report for him once he is perfectly fine that he is still sick and must stay hpme to watch some more hot wheels
Getting ready for Christmas and almost there. I have another cart full of things to order and then I am all done. Getting paid tomorrow and thata going to be so nice. Ran the budget of our expenses and our income, and once we get going we will be I HOPE comfortable. Man the cost of living is a real kick in the arse and you know i have come to deeply appreciate the Boomers who recognize how costly things are for our generation! Its no joke out here
Keep pushing forward people and have a great 25th hour
Xo
Day 1033
Did the awake overnight last night with my son. Wasnt too bad i guess. Once my son went off to school, i went to the gym and then came home to tidy up the apartment. My body feels tired but my mind doesnāt. And I dont really want to sleep during the day bcuz then my sleep tonight will be wonky. It dawned on me today actually how i havent thought about drugs in quite some time. I NEVER imagined that i would be able to get to this point, where drugs werent on my mind. I feel really, REALLY blessed today. Hope everyone is enjoying their day!
Checking in Ā¹,ā¹ā°ā¶ days alcohol free
Long week of hospital appts.
Did a bit of baking yesterday.
Workmen didnāt end up turning up to do a few house jobs and Id sat like a lemon waiting most of the day, so annoyingā¦ that led to a meltdown and I spent a while descalating my very stressed autistic son because the plans changed
Hopeful for a quiet evening.
OMG ā yeah I totally spaced on that part. My whole body just seized up LOL. I get the shakes with a cold toilet seat in the house ā going outdoors is unimaginable in those temps. I donāt know how you do it. Grateful you are safe and warm inside now
So true. Iām sorry they are hassling you or making you feel bad about your decision. No obligations in life my friend. You do what you want and the rest can just FRO
Oh I love this and am happy for you. Glad you managed the overnight well and sending energy to get through the day ā hope tonight sleep is blissful and restful. @littlemissl Oh man Iām sorry about the workman not showing up ā that is so irritating and I know what you mean about waiting . Day sounds super stressful ā hope you are able to relax and unwind now. Week of hospital appointments? ā hope everything is ok
Day 11 - Big accomplishment today, was getting through the office Christmas party without a drop of alcohol. I was able to keep my hands busy with some pop and explained to a few people Iām taking a break from alcohol this holiday season.
I was actually a bit surprised by how hard it was in a corporate setting to avoid drinking, but I did it! even when the beer was FREE and cold.
Anyways, that was a victory and im going to rest for a bit now before hitting the gym.
In bed, tired but with smile on my face. Productive day at work, and pleasant time spent with my friend in the evening. Life can be so joyful and pleasant without alcohol. Good night my friends
Later day 3. Awful day and dreading tomorrow but im more committed to momentum than I used to be. I went to the library and got gone girl and another novel, and got take out at the place with the best fries in town. If i spend 35 a week on take out rather than alcohol ill probably be better off.
Work tomorrow will suck. Ill have leftovers. I have a broccoli stem i need to do something with.
Not too bad a day. I had my daughterās parent teacher conference and it wasnāt as bad as I imagined. She just needs to concentrate on what sheās doing more. Her teacher gave me a packet to do with her over break to keep her focused on working.
Work was easy. Iām glad, bc the next 3 days are gonna be crazy! From 4pm Friday to 4pm Sunday, Iāll be working 25 hours Hope itās worth it bc I need to get shopping for Xmas, stat! I really hope to get everything wrapped before schoolās out next week so I donāt have to do it quietly, late at night. I need to eat something before bed and move the damn elf that took me 20 minutes to find last night. Canāt wait til Christmas day! I wish I could fast forward thru the next 2 weeks Happy Friday everyone!
2920
Work has been challenging this week. Work bonus came and was less than Iād hoped for but thatās okay. No fancy vacations in store for us this year though.
Life is going mostly well. Iāll probably have to work some this weekend. And Iāll be getting my hair done. Then going to my usual meeting on Sunday. Friday night I will volunteer with the youth group. And also on Friday my son has an orthopedics appointment to talk about foot surgery. Hope everyone has an awesome 24!
Picture is of our tree. I still need to put ornaments on it.
ā Day 2277
Worked my first day without the plaster around my feet. It went well, but my feet has to settle in a bit. Have to walk at sturdy shoes so still longing for my Nike Jordans, but they have to wait.
Longing for walking too and that has to wait eather. Itās been 4 months now and thatās a long time. But I have many days in front of me I hope. So my walks and crossfit will be back some day.
Today? Decorating the Christmas tree, some house chores and goldsmith class tonight.
Have a good day ore night all
Good night my friends 
Hope itās worth it bc I need to get shopping for Xmas, stat! I really hope to get everything wrapped before schoolās out next week so I donāt have to do it quietly, late at night. I need to eat something before bed and move the damn elf that took me 20 minutes to find last night. Canāt wait til Christmas day! I wish I could fast forward thru the next 2 weeks 
Happy Friday everyone!
