Day 1076
Got some news this afternoon that Im really not happy with. Its renting space in my head and ive spent a good portion of the night thinking about it 
One of our overnight nurses (the full time one) is being replaced by another nurse from a diff agency beginning of March. Eventually our part time nurse and floater nurses will be replaced as well (when… idk right now). Im fucking tired. Im really trying to be positive about this. Hoping that maybe she/he will be a good fit for our family. But history has shown me otherwise so idk… im feeling a little doubtful. Everytime we go thru changes in nursing for my son, its a battle. An exhausting battle of sleepless nights and tons of advocating. Often times i have to do overnights as well bcuz the nurse they pick is falling asleep and whatnot (which means we don’t want them to be working overnight in our home). This change is about a month away and Im not ready for it. But i cant let this ruin me mentally and emotionally. Like i just cant be stewing over this day in and day out, worried about who will be caring for my son overnight in the future. I am sooo tired. I dont even want to go into work tomorrow bcuz im mentally tired. But i have to. Just needed to vent and get this out of my head. Thanks for reading this looong post lol
