Not a whole lot to report today, another doctorās appointment for my wife where we had to fight tooth and nail for basic care. I donāt even wanna get into the details cause Iām just gonna get mad all over again. The positive thing is, after arguing about why she doesnāt want to be on antibiotics for the 10th time in the past year, we finally did get the doc to order a CT scan for her ear/sinus troubles. So hopefully we will get some answers, treatment and relief.
When we got home I was able to get some more studying done, and got an 8/10 on my final quiz on multiplying fractions. Good enough for me, better than 2/10 the first time I took it Iāve moved on to brushing up on algebra and Iām amazed at how much that is coming back to me. Feels good, love feeling accomplished. Khan Academy does a little of confetti on the screen for correct answers and 100% scores on quizzes and I wonāt lie it feels like getting perfect scores on a video game
Tomorrow I have some phone calls to make in preparation of the week ahead but past that it should be a pretty chill day. So glad itās finally the last freaking day of January!
Still day 32.
I will become a grandmother in the summer. I am proud that I raised my 3 children without violence, even though I come from a violent home. I was brought up very strictly and was the only one who rebelled, so I got the most beatings.
When I had my children, I was already very concerned about violence. I never wanted to beat my children. I have managed that.
Since 2 years I no longer have any contact with my parents, who are still alive, but I have loving contact with my grown-up children.
And soon a little baby will join our peaceful family.
This is a miracle and I am very grateful for it.
Love you guys
Seems like a day with some sunshine is about to begin here. And since I donāt have to work today or therapy to go to, I might as well try and catch some of that . And dream of spring. Letās have as good a day as we can all friends. Sober and clean or nothing will come of it. Love from my hood.
Checking in to maintain focus.
Was at the gym last night and walking out on the parking lotā¦ I deeply felt how much I need this physical activity
Have a day off today and cooked a 4h ticket in a thermal bath with lots of saunas and so on. Maybe get something nice to eat afterwards. Or make my own at home. We will c.
Morning all. Truth be told, yesterday was a mixed bag for me. Went out with my partner to pick up some storage units, and just the feeling of other people milling & being around me set me off - Iām not sure what it was, but I just felt āoffā all day. I was moody and all I wanted to do was go to the pub for a pint. Drinking is cultural here in the UK, so itās extremely difficult to stop the urges when it is so readily available and everybody engages in it.
Nevertheless, we went home and I just kept telling myself ODAAT. I know this isnāt going to be easy; it was never meant to be, but it can be done. Nothing good comes from the urges Iām feeling, and my entire life is riding on this (I would lose everything, including my partner if I continued). Nevermind, today is a new day and Iām over halfway to a full week.
Intending to head out in the car for an hour or two today. Also planning a takeaway, probably pizza for dinner with my partner once she finishes work. Have a great day everybody.
426 days
Dropped the kids to school then took the dogs on a bush walk.
Saw an IG reel about geocaching. I had heard of it before, never done it and kind of forgot it existed.
Anyway I downloaded the app and explained it to the kids, so tomorrow we might go for a bike ride and see what we can find
Good morning Iām still here day 2 now and on my way for a long weekend with my partner (planned months ago so couldnāt cancel) would normally be spent in the pub so itās going to be tricky but Iām planning nice food, shopping and sightseeing. Also checking in here quite a bit and getting onto a couple of online meetings. No need for my recovery strategy to go by the wayside
Yesterday, I had less craving to drink again. I worked a lot and ended the day relaxing with my girlfriend. Today is Friday, which is a day I used to always drink. I will focus on staying active today and making sure I stay strong at the supermarket while having a relaxed day.
Cleaning the apartment, grocery shopping, cooking something nice, and maybe taking a bath. I will stay strong and remind myself to take it one day at a time.
Iām thinking about writing a page where I list exactly why I stopped drinking, including all the bad things it has done to me and the negative consequences it has brought into my life. That way, I can remind myself why it makes no sense to go back.
That is a great idea Oskar. Plenty people have such a list in their wallet. Whenever cravings hit them theyāll read that list. It often helps. Should you feel like the urges are too much, connect with sober people. Share with us, join an online meeting. Whatever helps. Youāll get through this. And then there is the Friday Thread #3 @Blondie75 Sounds like a good plan Sarah. Stay away from difficult places and reach out when you feel like your sobriety is threatened. @MrFantastik I have to ask: What is a bush walk? Like in the woods? I did lots of geocaching back in the day. It was lots of fun. When your kids are the right age, this can be a great adventure for all of you. @AEGFletcher The early days are usually difficult mood wise. Your brain chemistry needs to rebalance itself and that takes quite a while. There is nothing wrong with you, your body is healing. Keep yourself occupied and maybe join an online meeting. They help me a lot. Have a nice sober day today. @Juli1 Iām a bit late to the party love, but here it goes: Congratulations on your year! Herzlichste GlĆ¼ckwĆ¼nsche! You did such an amazing job! Enjoy the spa, indulge yourself. You have earned it! @Mno The sun has aparrently decided to reach to us aswell. Enjoy your day. Fill up on sunshine. Tomorrow weāll be at half time to the spring equinox. @1in8billion Nice to see you @Joyce19 Such a wonderful share Thank you. Itās so nice to hear how you managed to break this cycle of violence. Best luck for the parents to be and your whole family. @handoferis I hope your wifeās scans will go well and bring some answers. @GVLNative Best of luck for your exam tomorrow!
436 sugar
300 UPF
174 gluten/dairy
Had a wonderful morning meeting. We discussed the idea of acceptance in detail. It is a difficult topic for me. But I loved this quote: āAcceptance has two parts. It involves both a surrender and and empowerment.ā
The home help is here. He already did the groceries and is no doing the laundry. I am very grateful for that help.
I will do my monthly review today, some rowing in the afternoon. Thatās it.
Todayās picture is a zen koan about acceptance that got shared in our meeting this morning.
Slept well. Not feeling good still. Would be nice to wake up happy and motivated about the new day but i always feel like āthis same shit starts all over againā.
My dad died on Tuesday morning, out of the blue. Well, not entirely, he was in hospital with another infection picked up through alcoholism.
I used it as an excuse to get completely drunk for days. I had already been drinking as some kind of grief masking for 3 days.
This is it. Iām done. If Iām not done then Iām going the way he did, and I donāt want that. Iāve just dumped the rest of the booze and been honest with my wife.
I will come back tomorrow and every single day after that.
I am very sorry and thinking about you during this hard sad time. Iām glad that you have the positivity and the commitment that you do to stay sober. Again, thinking about you during this sad time.
Iāve moved on to brushing up on algebra and Iām amazed at how much that is coming back to me. Feels good, love feeling accomplished. Khan Academy does a little of confetti on the screen for correct answers and 100% scores on quizzes and I wonāt lie it feels like getting perfect scores on a video game 
. And dream of spring. Letās have as good a day as we can all friends. Sober and clean or nothing will come of it. Love from my hood.
Enjoy the spa, indulge yourself. You have earned it!
Thank you. Itās so nice to hear how you managed to break this cycle of violence. Best luck for the parents to be and your whole family.
