Day 1,687 clean and sober, 7th day for gym I made it a week!!!
Had some moments of very strong urges to drink yesterday due to feeling some heavy, thick, dark emotions but I know that the 35 seconds of relief that comes from a drink is not worth the years of me being caught in the cycle of active addiction again. I don’t fear using and dieing, I fear living in active addiction, homelessness and hopelessness. Not worth it. I felt I needed some type of relief so I bought myself a piece of chocolate pie Whatever it takes to get through the moment. Usually I can navigate these feelings without using something else other than my coping skills but yesterday was tough, still sober though
I’m sorry you’re going through so much right now @Butterflymoonwoman and I hope you find the right fit for your family, hugs
Another 24 hours under my belt. One of my park district special needs martial arts programs starts back up today. I love teaching these classes! My students are such awesome people.
Checking in on day 20. Going out with my mom to help her get a new phone. This should be interesting lol Now to get some coffee and TS time in, knock out today’s challenge before the madness commences 🩷💜🩷
@sarah_bear Welcome back! That sounds like a solid plan to start ODAAT
@lastry 78 days and back at the gym! Hell yeah. Heavy breakdowns and vocals that fuel us
@tragicfarinelli congrats on the stats!!! I was also one that would do the cry with every issue to pave way my excuse to use. I don’t miss it
@finn sorry you’re still not sleeping well. Maybe the longer walk (seems more normal for you guys) will help. Try and have a good day and we’re always here as you know. Love and light🩷:purple_heart:🩷 The deer are beautiful
@JazzyS I love that everyone has been so active and feels safe enough to share here as well. How ya feeling this fine morning? We’re up to the teens lol HEAR WAVE:joy: 🩷:purple_heart:
lol, I checked your profile. I just like to see where folks are at. It shows your sober date as Dec 16, 2025… I’m not even sure how that’s possible. Haha
And yep, 385. It’s been a good journey so far. Challenges and struggles but more positive overall by far.
Day 1077
Thank you to everyone that took time to respond to my post last night. I really felt supported
I feel a bit better today mentally. I got some sleep and woke up feeling not as stressed or overwhelmed. @acromouse Youre absolutely right about giving my worries to my HP. Thank you for the reminder! I will be doing that today as that has always helped me in the past.
Today consists of work and laundry once i get home. I will be taking time to pray on my way to work and will let go and let my HP take control. Have a great day everyone!
I really enjoyed my free Saturday taking a hike and then relaxing with a friend over tea. It was a good time to talk and laugh but also be able to tell about some things that’s been on my mind. Future plans I have and things I want to do but have felt stalled in being able to move forward with. It was good to share these things and talk about them. I think over the past year I’ve been able to do a lot of healing and I feel in a better place to start acting on some of my plans. It was good to talk it all out. To feel listened to and understood.
Happy sober Saturday to all my sober family after a very windy day on the north west coast of England yesterday, we actually have some…blue sky after my weekend job of being mum taxi, I’m hopefully going to take a flask of coffee out on a walk in nature…coast or woods…cant quite decide @CanadianGirl congratulations on 30 days you got this @Rockstar24777 nice work on 7 days at the gym and a slice of chocolate cake to quiet the thoughts and urges sounds perfect @JazzyS I recently had to give in and have an OT assessment for aids to support me in the house with my CF. I now have perching stools to help me with cooking and ironing etc, and a shower bench so i can sit down to shower. I didn’t want to get them and I felt defeated. I didn’t want to let this condition ‘win’ as i was always so active and loved to hike and excercise. As my OT said though, taking effort/pain out of the mundane tasks, so you can have some energy left to do the things you want, makes sense…i feel you Jasmine and am always here for you
Have a good Saturday everyone
I’ve just seen your post about the changes to your son’s care @Butterflymoonwoman i hope everything will go smoothly with it. You’re right that worrying until then won’t help and would just mean you are already frazzled and less able to deal with the situation when it arrives. Come here to vent whenever you need
@Lastry yeah to joining a gym. Making all sorts of positive changes . I love it…I’m sure you will love it @Tragicfarinelli hope the extra dose of vitamin c helps flush this out. Have a wonderful time with your friends visit @Noshame sending warm vibes and strength…you will conquer today @CanadianGirl you should be proud of yourself. 30 days is amazing work and you chose to listen to the harder voice each day. That battle is real and exhausting and you won! It does get easier so keep pushing forward @sober26 I look forward to hearing about your cooking successes. I’m sure your wire won’t use this one time as a reason to keep you out… although you may hear about it often … This is one way we learn…trial and error
Oh I’m so sorry for the heavy darkness my friend. Big hugs and love your way:heart:. Grateful that you knew not to give in for the temp fix. A chocolate pie sounds like the perfect solution. Hope you enjoyed it. Here for you if you need to talk…you are not alone. A huge congrats on 1 week at the gym @Finn oh they are beautiful. Thanks for sharing the pics of your reindeer @CR84 heck yeah 20 days!! That’s what’s up. Have a wonderful time with your mom today. I’m feeling cruddy but alive …this bug seems to be latched on lol …I’m sure it’ll pass soon enough
All options sound lovely…hope you enjoy! Maybe a pic or two . Awe thanks love …yes I am working on taking the pain out of tasks but also don’t want to be seen this way and not allowed to do things just because they hurt (if that makes sense). I don’t want my mom picking up heavy items just so I don’t have to it putting that burden on someone else to do all the errands cause it’s too much for me … Still working through it lol… Thanks for understanding and I’m here for you also. Glad you have stuff around the house to help eliviate the pain.
Checking in on Saturday morning
Not much sleep and been dealing with dizzy spells. Had a few yesterday that I dismissed but last night was intense. Felt like I was falling and my head was so foggy. Wonder if my sodium is low. I didn’t faint but lost balance and was like at the verge of it if that makes sense. Will keep alert if this …hope it was just a passing fluke maybe from the over stuffed head lately…this bug has my ears stuffed too so could be throwing me off equilibrium.
Ready for coffee… wishing you all a wonderful addiction free day… sending you all so much love
Whatever it takes to get through the moment. Usually I can navigate these feelings without using something else other than my coping skills but yesterday was tough, still sober though 
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ODAAT
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after a very windy day on the north west coast of England yesterday, we actually have some…blue sky 
i hope everything will go smoothly with it. You’re right that worrying until then won’t help and would just mean you are already frazzled and less able to deal with the situation when it arrives. Come here to vent whenever you need 
. I love it…I’m sure you will love it
… This is one way we learn…trial and error
. Awe thanks love …yes I am working on taking the pain out of tasks but also don’t want to be seen this way and not allowed to do things just because they hurt (if that makes sense). I don’t want my mom picking up heavy items just so I don’t have to it putting that burden on someone else to do all the errands cause it’s too much for me … Still working through it lol… Thanks for understanding and I’m here for you also. Glad you have stuff around the house to help eliviate the pain.