Sorry you’re having such a a rough day. Mental illness is so hard to deal with, glad you’re here sharing!
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Been a tricky few days so not been posting, journaling or attending meetings. With predictable outcome 
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Sounds like lots of people are having a hard time too so sending love and hugs to everyone 
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First off I command you to stop feeling like a Loser. Your presence here is 1 precious part of my day. You matter to me. Past is the past. I know you are struggling today and you are getting help. You have many more days you will make a difference in my life.
What would I do if I can’t share my kooky pics with you?
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Good for you! Suggest removing the blades from your reach if you can.
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Sorry to read you’re struggling so bad, David. You should stop the negative self talk, since it has a very strong effect on you and your subconscious. You’re certainly not a loser! You’re working hard on your recovery and a brighter future. Give your self some grace!
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Checking in! 
Day 107
Tomorrow I have to go back to work. I’ve just had 3 days off, and I had a nice time.
For my standards I socialized a lot: excursion with my hiking group, coffee with my mom, lunch with my friend, and then I met with another friend this afternoon. Yesterday I spoke to another friend on the phone. If I’d still be drinking this would have never happened. I was an expert isolating!
Today I finally had my paella at my friends place!! 
Off to bed soon! 
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Edit
11 pm
Scrolling and scrolling.
Never finding what I am searching for.
What am I searching for?
Waisting so much time to scrolling trough YouTube is shit!
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day 8 no weed. 
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You should be proud, Juila. That’s a win! Every time you make that decision, you are honing your tools for a healthier life. 
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It sounds like you feel off because you’re sick and tired. Try to get some rest and get healthy. That will improve your outlook alot.
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I did!! Thanks so much!!
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I’m wrapping up day 17. Other than getting the dogs groomed and a little fill-in grocery shopping, I haven’t done much today. Of course, somehow these errands involved three back-and-forth trips to the same shopping plaza about 3 miles away. It wasn’t planned, but that’s how it worked out. It was mildly frustrating, but I recognized I can’t control things like that and managed to roll with it. Not an earth-shattering victory, but I avoided getting upset in a situation that might otherwise have set me off, so that’s a win.
Read a little quit lit this morning. I’m still reading the anti-anxiety book, Don’t Feed the Monkey Mind. It’s short and easy to read, but I’m trying to take my time with it.
Had a big lunch, so I’m planning a light dinner-snack and an early sober bedtime.
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Hi, Im Kaiden, new to this so forgive me. Im 3 days sober (kinda proud of that) and recovering from knee surgery (I had on feb 14th) at the same time. Funny enough the injury to my knee was because I was drunk at the time. After my surgery Ive thought a lot about the damage my drinking has done. Not only to my body, but to every type of relationship in my life. Ive decided enough is enough. So hears to that. Out with the old, in with the new. Happy monday everybody
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Welcome to the community @KaidenJames and congratulations on 3 days 
Checking in on day 587, super sleepy so i will leave it there for today 
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Back at day 1. I don’t even know if I want to count days anymore because it’s too depressing.
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Checking in, which I see I have not been so great at these last few days…will do better to connect each evening as I know I am going to need the connecgion over the next month.
Things are going forward wifh the trial. Been very busy in that regard. Work is good, kids are good. I am just distracted and in a place of strangeness with the trial looming. Sometimes it feels like life is a bit of a movie. I am not sure how I feel, but my feelings are likely simmering somewhere. Grateful for work and my children. Looking forward to taking thrm to see my mom and their cousin over March break, and then it begins. My husbands parents are coming home this week from Ecuador so it will be really nice to have them home. Here we go. Love you all stay strong and keep me strong xo.
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Hey, Lauren. No one says you have to count days. Honestly, after the first week, I have to check the tracker to be sure of my numbers. Sobriety isn’t a competition. Treating it that way (and I’m not saying you are doing this) makes it about impressing others rather than improving ourselves.
Don’t beat yourself up over a slip. The addicted mind is a tricky bastard. It gets us to drink, then makes us feel awful about drinking. You slipped. But that’s in the past. What are you going to do going forward?
FWIW, my wife retired recently as a drug and alcohol counselor, and she used a lot of SMART recovery, among other tools. One idea that means a lot to me is that if you relapse, you don’t necessarily need to reset your clock. This isn’t meant to say relapses don’t matter, only that we are humans struggling with a disease. If we slip, we need to get right back to our program. We might need to examine why we relapsed. But counting days only matters if it’s a motivator. If it brings you any distress, forget about it. We all need to listen to other addicts’ experiences and wisdom, but your sobriety is your sobriety, and only you can decide what that looks like.
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Good evening friends, finishing up a successful day 37 at a meeting. Had more than enough people in my day today. Looking for a quiet moment.
Have an awesome day!
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Welcome. I can’t wait to see you succeed 
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I was thinking about you all morning. I know how you’re feeling. You know I do lol But as we’ve told each other before we will learn from the mistakes and win this fight. I understand not wanting to count. I hesitated this last time. Then I realized I won’t acknowledge my success and therefore setting myself up for failure. That’s just me personally. I’m really good at my own tear down. Not so much the build up if that makes sense.
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