GIRL you are one of my favorite people to read from on this forum, and I remember specifically a time you respinded to me with exactly what I needed to hear (maybe 2ish weeks ago?). But thats not to say dont interact more 
it doesnt really matter what you say, just that youre here.
I also like following your sober time because you make it seem attainable. I dont know how exactly or why. But i feel like if you can make it 1000+ days I can too.
I LOVED PB falcon it was so unexpected and heartwarming, had no idea where the plot was going to go but i absolutly cried.
Im trying to think of another movie similar to it to recommend and cant honestly think of anything its so unique!
Checking in at the end of day 7. Today I went to the store and sat in the parking lot for a while trying to overcome some urges. Nothing was really working so I just took off without going into the store. It was for the best as I didnāt trust myself not to buy alcohol. Whatever I needed at the store can wait until I am stronger again.
Love this community and reading everyoneās experiences.
Have a good evening/day
Great decision @Jeanine flexing your sober muscles will help your recovery
End of the day check in. One week under my belt. I left work early and went to a meeting with a friend of mine. Havenāt been to a meeting since 2013. It was good. Came home, said goodbye to my friend and her kids. Read my littlest a story. Let the dog outā¦ Who then proceeded to go after a skunkā¦ Glad she comes to voice commands BUT she definitely got ahold of that momma skunk, and needless to say my whole house stinks to high heavenā¦ pretty sure the skunk tagged my car too, so thatāll be a fun ride in the morning. All I can do is kinda laugh. Like OF COURSE this would happen today, lol, thatās just how life works. Dog is washed up, and with her favorite blanket in her crate, usually she sleeps in our room but that is not happening tonight. Sheāll probably need another wash up tomorrow when I get outta work tomorrow. Poor pooch. As for me, Iām good. Decent day, definitely should not have drank that coffee at the meeting, cuz Iām wide awake, but it is what it is. Hope everyone here is well. Oh and to add no I did not wash the dog in water.
@Hazy congratulations on your 3 weeks 
@Mira_D I would listen to your gut. A motherās intuition is always spot on. I do hope you do reach out for help and practice some self care 
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@Mindofsobermike been a while since youāve checked in. Iām sorry you arenāt feeling so well. I started some dizzy spells last month when I got sick and they really have not improved. Neck strengthening exercises (I found some on YouTube) help a bit. Hope you are able to get it looked at quickly and start feeling better soon
@Butterflymoonwoman big hugs Dana. Just by posting here you are giving back. Your love and support for this community is felt and your check ins help so many of us. We see you kicking ass each day and itās impressive with all that you got going on. I know some days we just canāt find the words and thatās ok. 
Hope you get that referral . Great work on starting your journey and working on day 2 
@sober26 love the drawingā¦thanks for sharing. My go to was leaning into my addiction when I got upset or had an argument. Hopefully you are able to lean into healthy coping mechanisms to help you process 
What an amazing decision! Good for you ā¦flex them sober muscles friend. Another urge conquered
Checking in on Sunday evening
809 days free of alcohol and weed
1224 days free of cigarettes
Been a lazy day. Did manage to get my blanket finally completed (only took 2+ years to knit).
Rest of day just dealing with same ol. Hopefully tomorrow is more active.
Ready to go to sleepā¦ sweet dreams
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day/ eveningā¦ sending you all so much love 
Me too! I was a complete water works the second zac and tyler met!
Skunked dog is the absolute worst. Iām so sorry youāre dealing with that stink. Been there. Done that. Twice 
My poor Minnie got it right in her nose. It smelled forever.
Congrats again staying sober through it all.
Oof, that sucks Hope it heals quickly 
And congrats on 60 days! Around that time for me started some crazy emotions/discoveries/anxiety 
Adapting to sober life is tough sometimes, but push thru. Takes a while to even out.
@sobernow 9 days is pretty early for consistent sleep, but an amazing accomplishment nonetheless 
(and my favorite number 
) Idk what vitamins youāre taking, but I learned to take certain ones at certain times. Like B vitamins in the AM or else they keep me up or magnesium before bed bc it helps me relax. Just a thought 
@Butterflymoonwoman You have so much to offer and do! Just being here everyday with your ever climbing number would be inspiring enough 
but I see you as a very active member. I do understand the feeling tho. Sometimes I want to give more support, but either donāt have the time and forget to go back, or spend too much time on a response that I end up deleting (I did that alot a few months back, idk why 
). You always seem to find an answer for what troubles you, and thatās bc you do your damn work, girl 
We can all see that! Youāre an inspiration
I was going to say anythingās better, but I know of worse things. For some of us, it takes going thru hell to get here, and what can feel like going further, to stay. Stick it out
@StacyAnn Congrats on a week! Skunks are the worst, the poor girl 
My boy never learned and was sprayed probably 10 times in his life! Iāve heard of treatments at groomers, but I could never afford that stuff back then, so it was tomato juice, vinegar, and baking soda. It fades with time.
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Well, here I am at 1am bc my body thinks itās midnight 
Today was pretty good tho. Slow afternoon, then my ex took our daughter. I was so close to taking a nap, but decided I better buy cat litter first, before they closed. My best friend from work (who lives 2 towns over) happened to be there, so we caught up in the parking lot for a while. When I went home, I fought the urge to look at my phone or turn on the tv so I would clean. And I did 
I even ate a snack standing up bc I didnāt wanna risk getting stuck on the couch 
I guess it was nice having extra sunlight in the evening, but Iām sure Iāll take that back in the morning when itās dark 
Better lay down to start adjusting to it. Have a great 24!
Thank you for sharing, Laura! Good to know and I will be ready for it.. I want to experience emotions in a healthy way! Never too old to learn, I think 
Checking in, still day 60 AF and I think day 36 nic-free.
Feeling much better after a good night sleep. Thankfully, my hand doesnāt look that bad and not worse than yesterday! Iām confident with good wound care this will heal just fine 
Going to have a nice easy day today. First: coffee.
Have a great day/evening/night everyone. I appreciate you all 
6.31am on day 22, tidied garden yesterday and did my back againā:weary:, its better this morning so now im thinking i must finish varnishing some floorboards and know its gonna make my back stiff but ffs who else is gonna get the work done?! Iām peri meno and have definitely noticed joints and body aches, doctors just wanna put me on hrt or give me antidepressants for the pmdd which is just a plaster and really crap patient care if Iām honest. been looking up supplements but its a minefield and conflicting ideas on whether phytoestrogens or progesterone is the best way forward when I just want a doctor to actually know their craft and help me!!! besides the point however as Iām sober and gratefully soā¦ however it is dealing with the hormone cycle sober (which at 3 weeks i am very conscious of for the next couple of weeks). thanks TS
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Glad I looked at my work schedule last night. Turned out Iām not working today as I thought I was. So here I am having my coffee taking my time waking up, reading around a bit here and going to journal in a moment (or more like write down some random morning thoughts). And make today the best day I can, as I expect from all of you friends. Sober and clean or nothing would come of it.
I do need to work on myself and my life. I have my substance abuse pretty firmly under control (but never losing my vigilance, odaat it is and stays). Itās with other aspects of my life, aspects that both caused my drinking and drugging and were perpetuated by it, that I really have to put in more of an effort. Socializing, doing more productive stuff I like, meeting some new people in real life. Work on my connections. I will. Spring weather has given me some hope and incentive. Letās do this. Pic is from the growers/grocers yesterday. I could have joined in there, lying in the spring sun. Love.
@Butterflymoonwoman Please know how much of a steady positive influence your presence here is to so many. To me for absolute sure. You give more than enough friend. Thanks for being here with me for so long now.
@Marit Glad your handās OK friend. Have a great day.
@Lile01 Glad ot see you here, glad to see you sober and taking steps towards a better life Indi. One day at a time for all of us
@sober26 Sorry for the fight. It happens. Sober we can learn how to deal with it instead of running away from it abusing our DOCās. Hope today will be better friend.
Proud of you. Here for you whenever. Donāt hesitate to ask if you need support
Morning check in
Woke up early this morning so decided to jump on an online meeting. Itās one Iāve only been to once before but I quite like the vibe so am going to attend more often. I can always attend another meeting in the evening or am then free to take an evening to myself if I need it.
My daughter is struggling with anxiety about going to school so Iām helping her with that this morning. We did a gratitude meditation together and sheās doing a bit better now.
Chatted to my wife over the weekend about how it makes me feel when she doesnāt do the things that she promises to do. I try to be as understanding as possible but sheās a major procrastinator (almost pathological IMO) and itās a real trigger for me. However, whereas I might once have let this fester, I now initiate an open conversation and state how the situation made me feel. Iām aware that Iām a ādoerā and my wife is much more comfortable to āgo with the flowā and always takes this into consideration. Iām much better at this than I was before trying to get myself spirituality mature. However, Iām also rubbish at resisting the urge to just do everything myself. When that happens, I just end up becoming resentful and tiring myself out because Iām trying to do too much.
Have a great day ST peeps. Keep on keepinā on. ODAAT 
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Up early to get a workout in. I had the day off so could workout anytime, but my wife wanted to workout before work so I said Id get up and workout together. So I set the alarm for 4am.
Alarm went off. I got up and went downstairs to make a coffee. She evidently rolled over and went back to sleep 
so I worked out alone haha.
Kids to school, dinner organised, kids picked up, kids to the gym. Home. Good day
@apes2020 I randomly/accidentally watched that movie a few years ago, hadnāt heard anything about it beforehand but was agreat movie. Might have to give it another watch
Hi , almost neighbour lol, your in NZ? Im in Melbourne 
so almost neighbours lol.
Yes also i accidentally found it/watched it too , it was on you tube for free so yay 
Is that short for " in my opinion "
@Bearos I switched from and evening to a morning meeting some time ago and really like that, and also like to have the evening for chillaxing. Itās a great way to start my day.
The situation you are describing at home sounds very similar to the one at our home. My partner is the doer and me Iām the flow person. I donāt consider myself a procrastinator. I just do the stuff at a different time. And it is soooo important to talk about that and your feelings. I have no way of knowing how my partner may feel. I am not a mind reader after all. And if we have different ideas about when something needs to be done, we need to talk about that. Otherwise itās resentment all around.
@Mno These are some bad ass pigs
@Hazy Congrats on three weeks 
I feel you on the peri. I have been going through that fun for a few years now. HRT helps definitely, but it does not make all those crazy symptoms go away. Totally feel you on the aches and pains 
@Marit Congrats on your two months Sending healing vibes for your injured hand 
@JazzyS Did you share that blanket of yours somewhere?
@StacyAnn Great job on that first week. This is the hardes time. You are a hero I am so glad we donāt have skunks around here 
@Jeanine Yes! One week is great. You made it through the hardest part 
And I really admire how you delt with the store situation. Great job
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Due to the switch to dalight saving time in the US and us in Europe switching at the end of the month only, I had my morning meeting an hour earlier. But I was thankfully awake and could participate. Good sleep, good morning, good meeting, good day.
Now the sun is up and I get to get to work at least an hour earlier than I usually would.
I want to work on my gamejam submission today. We have an appointment at school about our daughter at about noon. She missed so much school and is having a hard time socialising and we want to get some help for her. Chores and rowing exercise in the afternoon. But I am not going to miss my chill time nap in the sun 
Todayās picture is a fantastical animal I drew in the fall a few years ago.
Peace and love always 
