Day 788.
Today I’m doing this thing I’ve been thinking of doing for days: just sitting down in a coffee shop by the water for a coffee with my dog. Just me. Alone. Well, me and the dog. Drinking coffee.
I struggle to do anything outside the house without my husband, so this is pretty huge. And it’s nice. I feel like an achiever now 
@SoberWalker I thought Gouda was our cheese city? 
My hometown!
Checking in! Tried to read through all the new posts, but there were 179 so I missed quite a lot! Hope everyone is hanging it 
I am very busy. Last few days for the big move to France and I am anxious as f*ck. Still sober though!!
Probably not as much around as normal to take care of all the last things before the move and then off course I’m going with him and stay in France for a week. A friend is coming with me and we’ll both stay sober so it’ll be absolutely fine.
You’re considerate, a good person, so thank you. Its not that deep, just want to think of our brothers and sisters with this recovery. 
Yes and not ignore them or try to stuff them away!
Hey all,
Bit tired here as son was up again last night. Absolutely jt seems everytime we come to see my mom he gets sick or my daughter. It ALWAYS happens when we visit! I am happy to be here though and feel very blessed. I am also so glad for the fact that we left on Monday before he got really sick, because im not sure if i would have wanted ro do that drive with him being so sick on Tuesday and my mom and daughter have tickets to go to the theatre and it would have just side railed everything! Just going with his flow, when hes up he likes to go for walks and we did get to the park for an hour yesterday…and then he dips down and his energy goes.
Also nephew is coming tomorrow and i am so excited to see him!!! It feels very weird being at my moms here without him here bc when we come we are always all together. Cant WAIT to squish his face, Thursday I have to drive out of town to get our new truck and Friday if the kids are down I want to go to our old neighbourhood 
Its the apartment in a home where we lived for 5 years from just before Noèmie was born until Micah was 5 months and then my sister and her son moved in and she just loved it there. I havent been back since we left and I would like to go be there and I know the kids want to go see it.
Go with the flow, allow your feelings and know that just because everything isnt going right doesnt mean everythi g is wrong xo.
That’s another cheese city Marit As you know we Dutch have many…many cheese cities 
I live in a mill did you know that? And I wear wooden shoes every day ofcourse! And I sure love tulips 
Ps but you are moving out to France? Forever? Trading the Gouda cheese for the camenbert? Why? 
Hahaha, we Dutch people LOVE our cheese, it’s our trademark
No, my horse is moving to France (retiring). I’ll stay in our small country for now with visits/vacation in France
Aha, France is lovely for vacations ànd cheese 
But it must be difficult for you to let go of your horse. I wish you strenght for the moment of goodby 
I guess the was no place available in a pensionada farm for horses in the Netherlands?
Thanks. I appreciate your bringing it to my attention and not assuming I had ill intent. I’ve deleted the post.
Of course not! Also, you can call me Mrs. Flag, I used to get flagged left, right and center. Also, some of my memes are disgusting, well, used to be more disgusting.
I’m getting a lot of walking (for me) in between my morning classes, before it gets too hot. I don’t know how you runners do it. I’m envious, but I can’t manage the pain. Guess I’ll be satisfied with the walker’s high.
@lile01 Glad your first day went well. I’m sure there will be a learning curve as you have been out for 1.5 years. I’m sure you will get in the swing of things in no time. Treating yourself to donuts to celebrate was a yummy treat – those look so delicious 
@icebear Way to go Drew – another month in the bag 
you are doing impressive work 
@hazy hope you were able to get back to sleep. The monthly cycle is hell. I do say fuck it for greasy pizza or chocolate / ice cream. Stay vigilant and connect and keep reminding yourself that drugs / alcohol will not offer any relief. You are kicking butt on day 24! 1 month milestone is right around the corner and I am looking forward to celebrating this with you
@sarahbear So grateful that you did take the time to sit with the ugh feelings. You are a rockstar for making one more day – congrats
@mno Congrats on getting through the triggering stuff. A great feeling when you finally finish the tasks
Ooh that is exciting – i’m sure it won’t take long to get back into it (kinda like riding a bike as they say). 100% agree that AF wine is total trash. Grateful that I gave up trying to find a replacement (wrong reason to give up drinking lol).
@leveller Sending good luck vibes – hope all goes well for your wife and her scans today 
@seb glad to hear that you are doing better today. Gym sessions are such a blessing
UGH! Those suck but you are crushing it with 2 weeks under your belt. Keep pushing through – they will not last and you will be stronger in the end. Sending you comforting hugs my friend. Hope you start to feel better soon
@noshame Way to go friend – 6 months is amazing work! So grateful that you are on this path and that you are putting in so much effort into your sobriety. I know it is not always easy but your body and mind will thank you for staying the course 
That is a great goal – you know that you gotta hydrate and push through the cravings. We will be right here along side you. One moment at a time
@chevy55 You are cracking me up – i do hope you got the right appointment and spot figured out for next week. You will get these labs done my friend. Glad you did treat yourself to a yummy meal with your son.
Checking in on Wednesday afternoon
812 days free of alcohol and weed
1227 days free of cigarettes
I did not sleep well at all last night. Grateful that I was able to try and swim this morning. Didn’t get more than 1/2 hour as they had a aerobics class happening.
Managed to get some work done and now just resting and catching up here.
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day - sending you all so much love
@JazzyS thank you for your support. I slipped, and I’m not beating myself up over it. I’m like okay, I may not have reached being sober everyday, but I’m definitely NOT drinking everyday and that is progress in the right direction. Going from being an everyday drinker for over 2-3 years, to taking weeks off at a time. Progress. I’m thankful for that.
Day 4 AF, going strong. Hope everyone is having a great day x
Checking in day 75.
Have a good 24
Checking in on day 5. Just a short one today as I’m exhausted, and it’s only 18:30!
Went for a good two hour walk to clear my head. Had a call from GIG Cymru (NHS) whilst out about my GDAS re-referral… apparently they’ll have a meeting on Monday about it.
Have a good day or night all. Think I’m going to have an early night x
Thank you!
Awww thank you! I know that you can do it too whenever you’re ready. Hell yeah 
That’s fantastic, great job!!!
Checking in 379 Days
I have a story… Where hubby stays while working he has had a conflict with a neighbor. Recently the neighbor came to him and said he needed to make amends. As the two of them ironed out the details of course my sobriety was brought up to the neighbor regarding my 1 year achievement. Per hubby the neighbor emphasized that being a major accomplishment and that my husband should let me know how great that is. The neighbor is a long term " soberite " from narcotics and belongs to NA. What I find interesting is #1 my husband really boasts so much of my sober accomplishment to everyone he meets (strangers, neighbors & family) but to me I do not get the grand applause. I feel I must accept this and know validation will come from with in. #2 Interesting thought is how much my husband is learning of recovery programs without me explaining them to him. My sponsor has said as I change definitely for the BETTER my mate will have to conform some to stay connected. I do see the relationship becoming something it was not while I was Drunk All The Time. I believe there is hope of a stronger and happier relationship blossoming. The good shit will happen sometimes slowly and sometimes quickly.
Stay sober today my friends. I for one am excited to continue my sober journey.