@Benadene.H Welcome to TS How are you today? What ressources are available to you right now?
477 sugar
341 UPF
215 gluten/dairy
Foggy and cloudy morning, had some trouble waking up. Night was ok. Had a great RecoveryDharma meeting as always. Grateful for that community.
Feeling rather tired and a bit symptomatic today. Going to take it easy. Want to do my seasonal review, maybe manage to take a shower. Chillaxing for the rest of the day.
Todayās picture is sunset over my city photographed from one of the viaducts of our phenomenal bike path.
When the withdrawal is finally over, believe me or not itās just a thought that remains.
Sometimes I think a cig would be nice but I know thatās just my history with nic talking. I dissmiss it with ease now.
The more time behind you the better it gets. Nic replacement therapy helps tremendously in early days. I prefer loszengs. If not loszengs, regular mints.
Day 1. Have to start someplace . I debated whether to get some days in before posting, but then figured posting is probably helpful.
Iāve been drinking much less, but want to stop completely. I had pints last night, tho woke up feeling great. And for me, I like the idea of trying to completely stop not bc I feel horrible, but bc I simply want to. And I really do.
Not many resources where I live, so will check out the online resources Iāve seen linked to in posts.
I live right next to my village pub, so the temptation is ever present, but perhaps not different than living in a city with bars and restaurants everywhere. So perhaps Iāve been using that proximity as an excuse.
One good thing is that Iām visiting family in the US next week for a bit, and I usually donāt drink or even have a desire to drink in the US. Bunch of stressful family things going on, but everyone has stressful situations, and Iāve no doubt Iāll deal with it better being sober.
I like the idea of checking in. Maybe not daily, but often enough. I once had 9 years sober, and not wanting to let the people supporting you down was always great motivation.
Easing into the days, coffee in hand watching as the night turns to day and the sun shows its face = living
Enjoying just about everyday like this has been the biggest upside I think to sobriety I can imagine. Clear headed, appreciating the little things. The clarity to get after what fills you the most. What a life.
Today I have an all over body workout planned then I havenāt thought much beyond that. Perhaps grocery store to pick up some more healthy fuel for the body. Maybe even a walk on the beach today with the doggos, if this -11 can warm up just a bit lol
Enjoy your day sober friends, whether you are at hour 1, or day 1000+ Good for you for just showing up.
Got my official adhd diagnosis papers out and next step is meeting with new doctor to make up a treatment plan and starting with medication.
I am happy i got the diagnosis but i am also feeling a lot of anxiety. Especially since I am still in the limbo, knowing what the issue is but not yet receiving the care for it. I have tried to start some things to support organisation in my life but any little distraction makes it rumble down. Also kind of coming to terms of being 30 and the psych seeing all the criteria from early childhood until now and no one ever batting an eye when i was growing up. Im not mad or dissappointed at anyone but still kinda sucks. Wish i get the doctors appointment soon. Also would love to just be able to vent about this diagnosis. Its not a surprise to me or anyone but it still makes a difference now that I finally have the official diagnosis and can get actual help for it too. Im feelings lots of things right now.
If you are looking for any meetings, the Everything AA app is a good place. It has a meetings section with links to meetings all around the world.
9 years sober is great, that shows that you can do this. I had a previous 10 years but I kind of coasted blindly through that time, didnāt do anything like seek help and I can say that this time around itās very different. This time it was a battle at times, and that was a real eye opener, the problem was obviously bigger than I thought and I found that so much of my thoughts were consumed with alcohol.
I find here to be a great resource, there are a lot of people with similar experiences and thoughts here that can help.
Thanks for the suggestion. I downloaded the E AA app. I do know there is an online daily AA meeting run from Newbridge. And if I can get a few days under my belt to prove to myself Iām serious, I will try to join that group as a start. When I did the 9 years (which ended when I moved to Ireland) I started in NYC, where the resources were amazing. But itās up to me to find additional resources to help me along this path, otherwise Iām just making excuses, so will look for other online meetings on the E AA app.
I am very happy to have found TS, think it will be a great help, and think Iām benefiting from it already. Iāve a smile on my face right now, not a frown, knowing Iām not in this alone
Morning check inā¦ 24 hours under my belt. Went to bed early last night, actually got some semi decent sleep. Still tired though. Another day alcohol free, and I actually didnāt have to utilize any of my medicine yesterday which was good. Sick of this underlying sadness though.
I hope you were able to get some rest. Itās good you feel bad about your relapseāstaying sober means something to you. But donāt get down on yourself. Thatās your brain trying to trick you into using when youāre down. All you need to do for today is stay alcohol free. Thatās it.
How are you today? What ressources are available to you right now?
. I debated whether to get some days in before posting, but then figured posting is probably helpful.
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) Meeting coffee and TS catch-up this morning. Did catch we have some new peeps. I love when people find themselves here. By far the most support Iāve ever gotten. Light & love all 