@SoberOskar Around 4 months sober, my anxiety skyrocketed. I was experiencing chronic panic attacks for the first time in over a decade. It pretty much sucked for a couple months, but I pushed thru and learned how to deal with things sober and they resolved after a couple months. I also cut out caffeine at this point bc I was still using the same amount as I did while drinking, but definitely didn’t need that much. Relax and try not to get down on yourself. You’re sober, so definitely not a loser
@justKaitlin Well done on 2 weeks (even moreso having that alcohol in your house!) Good decision to dump it out Proud of you for sharing for the first time
@bluekoolaid_88 Thanks I actually love my job…for the most part (might feel differently once the busy season starts ). And yeah, I like/need routine. It’s hard for me to structure my days when there’s nothing I have to do. Hope you enjoy your time off too
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I hardly slept the past 2 nights (I’m gonna partially blame the moon ), but felt fine. It was nice being able to hang with friends after work without worrying about the time for my daughter’s sake. But then, that meant my ex slept on the couch. No biggie…except for the other thing that kept me up
I used to be a serial snooze presser, until phones became alarm clocks and I was late too many times from pressing off instead of snooze My daughter’s father approached this differently Enter insanity:sparkles: Instead of risking a snooze mishap, he set 6 alarms 5 minutes apart! This started at 5am. I didn’t work til 8am. He slept thru them anyways and I turned them off. Nowadays, I found out he creates a new alarm every time he needs one and never turns them off! There’s like 40 set in his clock app! I heard one at 3am and had to shut it off bc it didn’t wake him up. When I asked what it was for, he said an office prank on his boss for April Fools day. Which means it’s gone off every night for 2 weeks and he hasn’t deleted it Just. How? How does one live like that?!
Anyway, sorry, I need some sleep Have a great 24 everyone!
Good morning everyone.
Day 57/58. Feeling good at the start of another week.
Went out for dinner yesterday and had my usual fresh orange and lemonade, which felt like another victory.
Had a dream last night that I stayed at @Mno apartment and he showed me the galleries in Amsterdam- thanks friend
Hope you all have a great day today.
I wish I had such a deep sleep… I wake up when a fly buzzes by!
Once I woke up at 3:00 am with 2 small bats flying in circles above me in my bedroom! That was in summer and the shutters weren’t closed 100%, somehow they both flew inside. I know they don’t do anything, but I freaked out a bit!
34 AF, 18 weed free. Dammit, another restless night and disturbing dreams behind, but I won’t let that ruin my day. I started my morning with coffee and some reggae tunes, and they lifted my mood a little bit. I have today my psych nurse’s meeting via Teams which is nice. Other than that I’m just gonna take walks and read books. It’s warm outside and sun shining, it seems that the spring has finally arrived. Have a great 24 everyone!
499 days
Took a little road trip to go pick up the kids. They left with nana to go stay with cousins out of town. We’re here for a couple days before we drive back in time for work.
Was great fun with the neice and nephews this afternoon, playing ball and generally having a laugh.
Kids are all pretty tired now and settled in with a movie.
Aiming to get a workout in tomorrow morning to get the day kicked off right
Checking in!
I woke up to a banging head… The weather sucks, like always during the Easter week. Never fails! It’s very humid, and rainy, the perfect headache weather for me!
I’m off today, but haven’t got any special plans.
Gonna cook something for work now, though I’m only working 2 days this week due to the Easter holidays! That’ll be a fast cooking session!
Later I’ll go for a walk, if it doesn’t rain too much, and do a workout (if my head improves a bit) Have a good one everybody!
@TS66 , Trey your in my thoughts man. She would be so proud of you, but you should also be. This is a tough time and you are handling your shit well. Keep it up brother!
Last nights sleep was not as restorative as I needed for another heavy session today in gym, but that said, too f**king bad body. We’re going regardless.
I have an upper body session that will run at about 80% plus two longer treadmill sessions, on top of my fasted one completed first thing this morning prior to coffee.
No Days Off!
Happily checking in on day
705 no alcohol
214 no form of marijuana
345 nic free
So I decided last month I’d take a 3 day paid vacation then have my 2 days off which would be 5 days off
I’m on day 2 and dayam being a stay at home parent like my wife is difficult.
It’s like chasing around a 1 year old keeping him healthy and alive 24-7. Always got to be aware
So to you stay at home mommas like @PrettySmartAndSweet (I think she’s a stay at home momma) good damn work. Kids are not easy
As for me I’m living and learning
I think a 5 day weekend was a bit much to take. I’ll help out and bond with the family this week
Checking in on day 109. Starting to get some anxiety about Easter this upcoming weekend. My partner’s family is coming here like usual and this will be my first sober family gathering. I’m really not sure how to handle this. I’ve always spent my day in the kitchen drinking while I cook for everyone and avoid countless hours of awkward small talk with his family and just making appearances periodically through the day. I know it’s DAYS away but I’m trying to also think of a bit of a plan here. I certainly don’t want to throw it all away because I entered this unprepared. I’ve tried to make some requests like someone else hosting this year , people coming later so I don’t have to be “on” all day. My partner has denied both wanting to stick with his usual “traditions”.The only one I’ve got backing on is absolutely no alcohol including wine ( because his family look at wine differently than other alcohol) will be here and he swears he’ll make that clear to everyone. Which I guess should be enough but I’m definitely nervous about spending all day with people uncomfortable and without my favourite coping mechanism.Anyways for now I’ll focus on today and make the most of my day off . I hope you all have a great sober day today.
Day 79
Some random anxious nerves driving to work this morning. Was able to address it fairly quickly since I was present and aware of the sensation.
Plan to have a wonderful day without using alcohol.
-Solar
Think about it like this. You have been signed up to run a marathon to support your friends, but have had very time to train. So when the start guns sounds, just take it slow and steady. You don’t have to be the best, fastest runner(best, most interesting small talker) Just your presence will be enough. And remember, sobriety is awesome!
2nd check-in. My Teams meeting with my psych nurse was really good. We talked about addictions and how to deal with them based on the principles of the dialectical behaviour therapy. We also talked how to regulate emotions and feelings. Much needed info. After the meeting I took a walk in the sunshine and ate some delicious food afterwards. Now I’m reading a book and listening dub. I’m feeling good at the moment, so gotta just enjoy as long as this feeling lasts. And oh, I watched a first episode of The Last of Us’ second season, it was really good.
(even moreso having that alcohol in your house!) Good decision to dump it out 
Proud of you for sharing for the first time 
I actually love my job…for the most part (might feel differently once the busy season starts 
). And yeah, I like/need routine. It’s hard for me to structure my days when there’s nothing I have to do. Hope you enjoy your time off too 
), but felt fine. It was nice being able to hang with friends after work without worrying about the time for my daughter’s sake. But then, that meant my ex slept on the couch. No biggie…except for the other thing that kept me up 
My daughter’s father approached this differently 
Just. How? How does one live like that?!
Have a great 24 everyone!
I wake up when a fly buzzes by! 
That’ll be a fast cooking session! 
folks. Sober of course
