Wow… i actually started feeling very anxious for u when u were describing the gas station. Its baffling how alcohol is sold practically everywhere now 
I am sooooo proud of u tho! U were in a tough spot, not having slept well, work didnt go smoothly, people were rude to u, and that addict thinking was trying to squeeze its way in. But u shut it down! Good for u!! I hope u sleep well knowing that u took the next right step and stayed sober 
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So very proud of you! I was just thinking of you today as I feel like I hadn’t seen you around. I’m sorry for the lack of sleep and shit work day. Grateful that you flexed them sober muscles and showed up for yourself. Hope you can do something nice and relaxing for you tonight and get a good night’s sleep.
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Day 1278
Evening Check In 
Still not physically feeling 100% I did however have a nice hot shower recently which helped my sinuses a bit. I definitly need a better rest tonight tho. Hoping for good sleep. The day was okay overall. Mood was a little funky lol idk probably bcuz im not feeling well. Will be heading to bed in an hour. Hope everyone has a good night!
Heres some thought provoking questions for those that like to journal. Thinking of giving these a try myself:
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Thank you @JazzyS 
You’re so sweet and thoughtful. 
@Butterflymoonwoman you as well…thank you all the encouragement and support. I appreciate you all so much.
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Day 13 Check-in ~ Apparently, I’ve been wearing too much moisturizer and I woke up to a rash on my forehead! I have ultra sensitive skin that’s very clear…so, I did some research and figured out that must be it. Plus menopause hormones perhaps. ACV & fresh aloe will clear it up in a few days. I didn’t go to group. I woke up and after I saw my forehead, I started rethinking everything. Suffice to say, I am going tomorrow for sure!
I’d like to lastly say that…I am BEYOND pissed that And Just Like That…is over! I’m just dumbfounded. SATC came out when I was 25/26 and it was such a huge part of my life. Seems weird, but I’m a latchkey television child of the 70’s and those mf’s are my friends, damn it! lol
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Whether I do a lot or very little, I’m exhausted at night. But when I don’t do much physically it seems I can’t sleep properly. Like this night. So let’s exert myself a bit today. Catching an early train with my gravel bike and riding some trails and dirt roads.
Had a meeting with a guy yesterday who’s writing a book on a friend of my parents, a guy I know from my youth. My dad will feature heavily in it too. Brought back a lot of memories, good and bad ones. After that I visited Luna’s grave. I can do that without totally falling apart now. It still hurts lots.
One day at a time. Going to make today as good a day as I can. Sober and clean. Love.
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Big hugs That’s a lovely grave. 
I know how painful that is. Stay strong.
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Checking in at the end of a pleasant day. Have a great 24!
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Day 1723. No Alcohol.
Day 19. No Lust.
Goodnight…
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622 days
Busy day at work, some training and a lot of driving. Managed to make it to the kids school, they were having a book character parade where all the kids come to school as book characters. Was awesome, the kids were so surprised when they saw me in the audience as they knew I was at work. I’ve been living off that high of the look on their face when they saw me all day.
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Checking in. Still sober and proud of it.
Thank you all for the immense support. It is highly appreciated 
His body has been picked up just now. I’m glad he doesn’t have to lay there any longer. I’m at work now trying my best to concentrate and to see working as a blessing for the distraction.. Trying not to cry every moment and to just work, but today I am happy to work in veterinary medicine: no one here will ever judge my tears.
This was not directed at me but just the words I needed to read today. Thank you my friend for being this wise
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Day 3 
I’m going through quite a busy period at work. The workload itself can be managed somehow; what’s truly challenging are the communication problems and having to deal with people of all kinds. That’s the most exhausting part. It’s essential to find ways to reduce stress. Today is my dear mother’s birthday… the second one without her. I hope she is resting peacefully in a beautiful place now. I miss her deeply.
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Hey all, checking in on day 1888. I hope everybody has a good one!
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632 sugar
496 UPF
On vacation. Too hot 
Peace and love always 
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I’m tired, tbh. My mom had eye surgery yesterday, so I had that, and trying to take care of my client, (wasn’t supposed to work), and today I bring my stepdad up for a cardiac appointment. Had a bit of a breakdown yesterday. Works overwhelming, but thankfully I got a job offer, possibly two. So thats a good thing. Parents are grumpy, so this morning has been super fun, they’re already arguing. Taking care of aging parents isn’t easy, especially when I don’t live super close. I’m staying sober, utilizing my anxiety med, and just taking it day to day. BF is doing okay, but was definitely not easy being away from him last night, since some detox symptoms kicked in the other day. Feel like I am taking care of everyone else, and no one even asks how I’m doing, so thank you. I’m going to pull through, being an adult, and adukting can be a lot. Guess I can say it’s been a very long year.
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Checking in on day 252
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@Moriah AJLT is over? Oh man that sucks but I get it. I too grew up with these ladies. Sad that the show is ending.
Omg… priceless. Love the concept of dressing up as your favorite book character…how fun is that!
@Marit so glad the words hit home for you. That is the beauty of this community as we are all on a similar journey and can learn from each others experiences. Big hugs my friend. 
This is what I felt like at the beginning and I know many others did too. I don’t know if it’s the universe or somehow our subconscious working to create that perfect storm for us to return to our vices. Glad you were able to couch surf and found a spare key in the morning. Keep going strong…it does get easier 
@StacyAnn man you’ve got a lot on your plate. So grateful that you are there for everyone but please remember to be there for you as well. I do hope you get some down time for you to recharge. 
Checking in on Friday morning
I feel like I slept and that is why I feel like extra shit,
. Weeks of little sleep when caught up make you feel more dead than alive in the first day imo.
Fighting a migraine and usual ailments but managed to get some errands finished. Hopefully will get a swim in and that may be the only PT I attempt today which is ok.
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day- sending you all so much love
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Yep 
Last night was the series finale. The show runner thought it best to not tell anyone ahead of time. I think he was right. I’m going to miss it so.
I hope you feel better today and get in a swim.
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Good afternoon all.
Friday evening in my part of the world..im headed to a family celebration which will be held in my sister in laws house. Quite a boozy one but the only thing on my mind. I want to get home doom scroll, watch Netflix and eat a slice of cake i bought earlier today as a Friday treat 
Ill enjoy the festivities, im in no real danger of slipping up, happy to go happy when I slip away and ill be happy going to bed sober tonight 
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Day 1279
Morning Check In 
These days when i have to wake up at 6am to relieve the ft overnight nurse is killing me lol Idk… i can get up for work at 6am on the weekends and Im fine, but during the week, it makes me so tired. Its 10am now and i finally started moving and getting up.
Todays agenda consists of going to Booster Juice again. Hubby gave me $$ for lunch 
And then Im going to do some cleaning. Dishes, mopping the floors, put away laundry, take out the recycyling, and tidying up my sons toys. I think thats good enough for today lol.
Hope everyone has a lovely day! Much love to u all
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