Sending healthy vibes directly to you.
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Iām so sorry to hear this 
hope you are physically safe at the moment?
Iāve also struggled with self harm for many years in the past. NO you have NOT thrown anything away, that time is not erased - you did that, fought it successfully for years and so evidently you can do it. Donāt let one mistake tell you otherwise because itās all lies that our addiction so badly wants us to believe. Sorry for the long message but i believe in you, you can turn this around! Please be safe 
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Iām safe, thank you for the kind words. Everyone in my life is rather angry at me right now so itās nice to see some kind words
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Iām glad youāre safe. Iām glad you checked in. Iām not angry with you.
Concerned about you, yes. Caring about you, yes. Grateful that you are all right, yes. Grateful that you checked in, yes.
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@StacyAnn Hmm 
I can see where theyāre coming from, as my ex and I shared equally before I involved the courts, but no way itās practical in every case. The reason I went for custody was bc he started using crack and could no longer be a parent to our daughter, so 50/50 would never work. From my experience, it seemed like all it really came down to was what you can prove in court (which my ex did for me by being in jail for the settlement 
). I know this is a stressful time, but keep calm and consistent in court and theyāll see who you really are 
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I slept like crap, not able to relax and my cat hunting bugs at 3am. Then tried taking a nap right when my neighbor started using a grinder out backā¦for like 4 hours 
Put me in a rotten mood before work, but then I was okayā¦til the 24hr muscle fatigue set in and I crashed 
My forearms discovered an entirely new level of soreness from all that I lifted and carried yesterday. On the plus side, thatās all it is. No injury related pain 
Tomorrow will be a high calorie rest day to recover and prep for my 9am-12am Thursday shift 
I swear to God everyone else better be working as hard as I am this weekend. You need stamina to make it thru this marathon, but once you do ITāS OVER!!! 
Itās worth it. Anyway, gonna get that sleep I missed yesterday. Have a great 24!
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Day 1.
After 130 Days in my first real try to quit alcohol, I left my business and went on a vacation.
Stress and existential fear / thoughts let to the relapse. Also my focus on sobriety in the last 20+ days from the 130.
Yesterday was awful, sleep was shit. Sweating freezing and then a day with 5 sales calls that I did despite of the anxiety.
I binged / drank for nearly exactly 1 month. 2 weeks vacation and 2 weeks at home.
Ready for a second try - this canāt ruin my life anymore.
Trying to be kind to myself.
ODAAT.
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616 sugar
480 UPF
354 gluten/dairy
Mixed weather situation today, nice morning meeting to get me going. Its going to be probably the last day of working on my game before prep for summer vacation. The usual set of errands to be run later, and a rowing workout in the afternoon.
Peace and love always 
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Sending you a hug my friend, remind yourself what youāre here forā¦! Your very existence is infinitely lucky, special and filled with potential, you know that? Everything else, whether that be the past, present fears, external people or things, even a relapse, let goā¦ You are you, a conscious being, in this moment, right here, right nowā¦ See life as a test, youāve got this! Try this (no right or wrong way to do it btw, can take as long & be as specific or vague as you want):
Take a look around where you are right nowā¦
- What are 5 things you can see?
- What are 4 things you can feel?
- What are 3 things you can hear?
- What are 2 things you can smell?
- What is 1 good thing about yourself?
Value comes from within my friend.
Maybe note to yourself as many who, when, where, why, how & whatās as come to mind, good and badā¦ Google or watch youtube videos about SH to help you, and some lifestyle/habit changes to consider. And weāre always here, youāve got this.
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I donāt exactly have the right words to send adequate messages of comfort to you, but I hope you are ok and safe. You can build back up and strengthen your resilience. You didnāt throw time away. Please take positives from this set back where you can. Hugs 
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- I never knew that seeing Sarina Weigman and Burna Boy together on stage, singing and dancing, was the missing key/ingredient for joy in my life, but it was. So beautiful and genuine and magical I loved every moment
. Letās go, soberheads, onwards.
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Very similar situation. Holidays got me. We knew it was coming though didnt we, we planned it.
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Youāre right, the decision was there way before the holidayā¦
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Hey all, checking in on day 1872. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Same asā¦ ive thought about the type of holiday we went on and how it approach it next year. it will be a consideration next time.
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oh no 
iām so sorry. please let us know if thereās anything we can do to help you. i hope you are safe and remember to reach out to the hotlines if you ever need help
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starting day 5 today! I have a virtual appointment with my therapist later. so far sheās been super helpful texting me each day and cheering me on. canāt wait to talk about the progress. my last therapist ditched me and iāve been seeing this one for a little over a month and sheās already been so helpful and invested into helping. iām not going to let it go to waste. feeling very hopeful and motivated 
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Good morning friends, day 73. Not motivated but will push through.
Have a great day.
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Good morning 
still sober
In the process of thinking up things today
Iāll let you all know how it goes
Wish me luck.
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Hey everybody. Checking in day 9! I skipped check-in yesterday. It was a tough day with the lack of sleep but Iām feeling so much better today. Still struggling to sleep but grateful for the process. I am so glad that I made this decision. Catching up on chores before work because my weekend starts at 10pm tonight! I hope everyone has a great day!
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@SadMemeQueen . Iām sorry to read this friend. I know you have been hurting and dealing with a lot. I do hope you are safe. Please donāt see this as a failure and know you can start working in day 1 right away. You have built up great tools to help you in your journey. We care for you and are here for you. . Glad to hear that you are safe. 
@aMaverickSoul ugh I know that feeling well and unfortunately nothing at the corner store will make it go away. It may mask it but thatās not a solution. Hand in there friendā¦your body is cleansing itself and this take energy. Be kind to you and know this wonāt last. You can push through 
@Just_Laura must be something going around in the sleep world. Absolutely horrible night. Glad you have a day to rest and recharge before your crazy weekend. Sending energy and strength. 
@SoberOskar so good to see you posting. Iām sorry about the relapse. Vacations really are a downfall as we think we need the alcohol to relax and have fun. We think itās just a few and we can get back to our sobriety but Iām reality we have a bad relationship with alcohol and it doesnāt end with one or two. We have to remember that we donāt need it to have fun or to rest. Glad you are here and putting in the effortā¦letās do this ODAAT
@Noshame hope that process goes smoothly
@Jette Iām sorry for the rough day. We really need our connections when we are having those days. Itās remarkable how just reading and doing a check in can up lift our moods. Hope you have a better day today
Checking in on Wednesday morning
Slept like garbage and tweaked my neck. Again I was all over the place. Where is this restlessness coming from?
Starting to develop a headache so gonna massage my head and apply pressure then coffee so it doesnāt becime a migraine.
Got a lot of my work done yesterday so Iām gonna just make calls and chill today. I have been putting the calls off for a week ..gotta just get em over with.
Wishing everyone a wonderful addition free dayā¦ sending you all so much love
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