Quick evening check in!
My first day at work was hectic! Lots of stuff to catch up! Tomorrow I’m going a bit sooner in the morning, because my new colleague has to open, and she’s still not too comfortable when we are very busy. I’ll give her a hand with the morning rush hour of check-ins.
Tonight I decided to watch “Days of wine and roses”, I was looking for movies and it showed up on my search bar, I know it’s a classic, but I had never seen it. As most alcohol related movies, it really hit home.
Off to bed now, I only have 7 hours left before my alarm goes off! 
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I’m glad you see it as romanticizing through rose`-colored glasses. I have often imagined that I’m more outgoing, charismatic, and interesting when I am drinking; in reality, I am an a$$ who thinks he’s charming.
I’m sorry you’re so busy. I’m the monotony will lift. I enjoy boredom at times, finding it gives me time for reflection.
Good luck, Mischa.
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Day 1262
MRI is complete and we are home. Was surprisingly able to get my sons xray done beforehand, which was requested by his pediatrician. We arrived an hour early to the hospital which turned out to be a good thing bcuz i unknowingly had a few things to figure out before his MRI. So glad everything worked out!
I ate horribly tho. I over-caffeinated and ate too much while i waited for the MRI to finish. Emotional eating? Idk. Im tired of my eating habits. Ugh… Anyway, Im having a decent day despite that. Feeling grateful!
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It’s a fantasy, like Trey said. That everything was fun and exciting and interesting while drinking. The reality? I’m sure you walked through that, but just in case you have not… I have a question: how interesting are drunk people? When you’re completely sober. For me, I reflexively want to get away, now. I have yet to meet an interesting drunk person. But still I sometimes engage in the fantasy that people are somehow the best, most amazing versions of themselves while drinking. It’s the strangest disconnect! (Actually they’re a bunch of childish, arrogant assholes..).
Thank you for posting about this! You’re quite cool and interesting, by the way. 
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Boring is better than drunk/hung over. I think you are very inspiring so keep on punching 
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Checking in on day 4. Not surprising after a long work road trip I am pretty drained and had the thought of taking a drink. Learning how to be new at this all over again. A bit of meditation and some quiet time to let this thought pass.
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It’s been a minute…
Day 15, y’all! Yee yee!
The past few days have been a bit of a rollercoaster. I wish I were more even-keeled, but hey—I’m a woman, so I guess emotional whiplash is part of the package, right?
Anyway… I may or may not have eaten an entire row of lemon Oreos yesterday (oops), and woke up feeling like garbage. 
BUT I still managed to squeeze in a solid workout and ate pretty healthy today.
Unfortunately, I made the mistake of downloading a calorie tracker (just for shits and giggles) after lunch—and let’s just say, I now understand why the scale’s been creeping up. Looks like I’m fasting until breakfast tomorrow. 
Mystery solved. Maybe I should stick with it 
On the bright side, my energy is starting to improve now that I’m being more intentional with my eating (minus the Oreo slip-up ). I finally folded and put away the laundry mountain that’s been mockibg me from the corner of my room since last week, and got the house back in some kind of order.
Feels good to have a little momentum again. Really hoping this time it sticks around. I think maybe my drinking was masking some ADHD and depression symptoms 
Anyway, just a weird, random update from me.
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@Mtrav0040 I am sorry to read about your suicidal ideations. Sending you hugs positive energy. Grateful you are not acting on it. You are still in the middle of a divorce and at the beginning of your sober journey so in my opinion it is best to focus on yourself and your journey. Most say it is best to not get in new relationships and not make major changes / moves for the first year of sobriety. This is fair as we are learning so much about ourselves and working on setting up new routines / habits.
@butterflymoonwoman Oh wow - that is some interesting insight and think you are onto something with your body / mind protecting you. Sending hugs friend - hope all went well today with the MRI. Hope you get the results back soon 
Grateful the MRI went well and luckily you got there early for all the other stuff. Please give yourself some grace. I would be eating everything in sight from all the anxiety. You are doing a wonderful job and holding it all together. Sending oodles of love your way!
@amelie YEAH to day 12! Great work on your sober time. I do look forward to seeing your checkin’s and the rhymes you come up with 
@lighter Girl stop - you made me laugh. I refuse to get old LOL - embracing aging with style and grace 
You are wonderful Marie!
@Raspberry I get that - Some days just be that way… glad you are taking the time to calm yourself and do some deep breathing. Hope you have a wonderful evening.
@Christophe Oh lovely drawing classes. I am excited for you. Hope you will share your work with us when you create it - we have a wonderful art thread here. The Art Thread
@mischa84 Cause you are so dang busy you don’t have time for yourself and what you enjoy. This does not make you boring. I am sorry that you are dealing with this at the moment. Hopefully the monotonous lifts quickly. As you know - drinking was never cool and did not make you seem cool - it only felt like you were as it has the effect to lift that layer we are so afraid of others seeing. When we were drinking we didn’t give a fuck. This did not make us cool. It also made us outspoken and loud - also not fun as you can witness when around drunk people. I know I cringe at the thought that that used to be me. Keep kicking ass my friend - I am always in awe of you and all you do. 
@michael2 Great work on day 4. It is hard to come home exhausted and not instinctively grab a relaxing alcoholic beverage. We did this on a regular and our brains are wired to think this is how we relax. Part of our journey is to rewire our brains and associate not drinking with our every day habits / tasks. I found that keeping myself super busy for the first month and changing up my routines helped me with this process. You keep pushing forward ODAAT 
@Morganic Congrats on your 2+ weeks ! Keep up the amazing work. Do you have someone to talk to or discuss the symptoms that are creeping up now that you are sober? It really is crazy how functioning we appear when we are deep in our addictions and all that we keep sweeping away. Hugs friend. It does get easier
Checking in on Tuesday evening
951 days free of alcohol and weed
1366 days free of cigarettes
It has been a interesting day. Woke up feeling blah but was happy to have enough energy to bake up some goodies for my bro and his friends. Weird how my coffee tasted off today as I didn’t have all the beans for my special blend. Today’s third batch of coffee actually made me crave cigs… that was so crazy and off putting. I am glad that by then I was well caffeinated. 
I got to spend some more time with my cousin and her kids. Was lovely hanging with the new born. Such amazing energy
Got my errands run and caught up here. Hope to do a manicure and some accounting and then call it a night.
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day / evening - sending you all so much love
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Day 100!
So thankful to be sober, to believe in my life, to have this pocketful of friends, and trust in AA.
I just finished a tough 12th step discussion with my good friend. He is circling the drain, but sees my path as some hope. That’s all I can really do.
No alcohol for me today.
-Solar
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Day 28, feel ill at the momebt. Hopefhlly will feel vetter soon
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Huge congrats on your triple digits! Way to go friend. Keep at it
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Hope you feel better soon Look forward to celebrating your 1 month with you in a few days!
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Congratulations on 100 days!!!
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Day 1707, no Alcohol.
Day 3…
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Congratulations on 100 days of sobriety!
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0d no self harm
I’ve thrown away 3y 4m 27d
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Day 4 here. Step by step.
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Fully back in a faily work routine after 2 weeks vacation. Its been a tough few days and im busy but i can hack that.
Today i will eat well, drink plenty of water and exercise. I’ll spend some head space on trying to figure out why i glamorise drinking, that can be an achillies heel for me.
ODAAT
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Welcome back!
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