Morning check-in.
Work is getting overwhelming thank goodness. I am so used to a high level of stress that the lull in work was more stressful than work stress. (Hopefully that makes sense). Busy work day, SMART meeting tonight, dinner, work, then bed. Exciting I know!!!
Relapsed after 45 days. Around Christmas and New Yearās. Then my birthday was Jan 11. Day 2. Still feel horrible about myself. Realize I have to be here on this site daily.
16 days smoke and alcohol free. I should be doing somersaults, my enthusiasm seems to be waning.
Had a shit nights sleep never slept at all that could explain why Iām feeling lethargic.
The weather here is crap as well today. Iāve had sleet, snow, hail, rain, wind and a tiny bit of sunshine.
Sorry for being a whinging moaning bastard especially when I see that a lot of you are having a tough time of it lately. You lot are keeping me strong and by coming on here Iām less likely to press that 'Fuck it button".
Catch yous later.
This is my first check-in here ever Iām checking in on Day 3, finally feeling better after a two-day hangover. Iāve been ātrying to cut backā on drinking for a looooong time, but this is my first time ever committing to outright stopping. But I really, really need to stop. Going 3-6 days without is easy for me, but then my brain switches gears and wants (meaning convinces me I DESERVE) a drink. Already last night, as the two day hangover was in its final stages, I was watching a show where the ppl were drinking champagne and my immediate thought was āoooh, I want one of those.ā And today day 3 Iāve already had thoughts like, āmy problemās not that bad, I was just hungover after Saturday! No big deal! I donāt need to quit!ā But Iām just going to keep trying to identify these addiction-fueled thoughts and remind myself of all that awaits me in long-term sobriety. Iām finding this community very inspiring
2,5 hours away from a full 7 days sober ,my day 1 or 2 or 3 wasnāt a hangover this time,it was a alcohol detox and it wasnāt pretty,it was very hard to get thru those days mentally and with a shit load of kalms tablets to get me through the anxiety,I have to remember day 1,2,3 most of all and say to myself I cannot stop if I start drinking alcohol.i donāt have control of myself when drinking alcoholā¦I tried the āhangover,must stop drinkingā,that didnāt work for me,I drank on the hangover on top of the hangover and on top of the anxiety until I stopped drinking and got here,to day 7. Grateful for another sober bedtime,