And no need for a morning alarm
7:45 The rubber flap comes for food and cuddles
Havenāt checked in for a while but managed to stay on track. Iām on day 47 today and feel hopeful.
@Mtrav0040 Thank you so much for posting the pages about resentment from the big book. I think I will come back to this chapter a lot. I often struggle with anger and resentment, when I deep down donāt feel seen and not appreciated. Also had a huge argument with my husband past weekend because of it. I definitely want and need to work on that. It feels like relapsing into being the person I used to be, sometimes it even feels like being a child again. Your post is like a gift for me, an invitation to examine what is really going on. Thank you.
@GVLNative i was ruder than that haā¦ yes i will thank youā¦ have a good eve hopefully you get some restā¦
The lack of energy is what realllllly sucks. Iām not used to so much downtime from the gym, or anything else. Iām ready to get back to it!
No cigs and no drink.
Felt a bit shitty yesterday but that seems to have passed and Iām feeling pretty good again.
It feels good coming straight home from work and doing things in the house instead of supping my life away in the pub, itās also great getting up on a morning not coughing and spluttering my way to work like an old banger. Iām not quite purring like a Jaguar yet ā¦but I will be soon.
Everyone seems to be racking those numbers up, well done everybody.
Iām so glad it was helpful to you! Working on making it a part of my daily life too. Doing a step 10 as resentments pop up and journaling my step 11 each night is something Iāve incorporated into my day. Most days, Iām not perfect.
I meantā¦I meanā¦forget it
Thank you! Feels good.
Been running around crazy but my sobriety is safe
I got to talk to my dad and 2 sisters this morning and it feels good
Second check-in, Day 4. Today and tomorrow will be easy for me as theyāre busy work/ errand days. But Iām already experiencing some anxiety knowing the long weekend is approaching and I donāt have many plans to keep me occupied. Usually I would definitely buy a bottle of wine for myself on the way home from work Friday and likely go out late, but Iām committing now to NOT doing that this week. Iām nervous but canāt wait to hit one week. Itāll be my first full week without any booze at all inā¦ a long time.
Iām planning a long hike and lots of chores on the Homefront to keep me busy. Iām also seeing a new person and thus far weāve at least shared a bottle of wine each time weāve hung out. So also nervous about navigating that newness and the newness of not drinking as well. I think itās doable, but right now my sobriety and health are first priority. Okay, end rant!
Checking in. Feeling a little behind at work but I am going to ask for some time to catch up. Will try to get this monkey off my back and come back fresh in a couple days.
End of day 8,had a good day ,.watched my thoughts go by of old habits picking up after work,I remember fully the run up to day 1,and the years that have gone by. today Iām sober, gratefully ā¦ naturally tired.thanks.
Check in on day 35!
A new chapter is about to start in my life. Iām moving out of my parents house soon. Iām thinking next month or 1st of april.
But that means (for me) Iām closing a big chapter in my 23 year old life. Leaving behind the place I got drunk so, so many timesā¦ Now I can leave it behind and start fresh in my new home. NO ALCOHOL ALLOWD in my house!
I canāt and wonāt give up sobriety because then I risk losing everything I worked for. And Iāll probably have to move back in with my folksā¦
Thanks for reading!
Yaāll help a lot!
Thanks for sharing.
@Mno We havenāt talked here yet, but I want to let you know, that I really enjoy all the beautiful pictures of Amsterdam that you share. Keep them coming.
Day 38 check in just finished reading 100 posts on hereā¦ It takes a while now cuz I genuinely have begun to care about all of you and I know just one day of not checking in I could miss something important!
@Beardyā¦ Take deep breaths, become aware of your thoughts. I can see your mind is starting to say fuck it. Or it has already. Mine too. I have self destructive tendencies too. But damn going back to my old life would be awful. I see you have to wake up at 4:45am, are you getting enough sleep? I think that is my problem. I havent slept or ate in 2 daysā¦ so much anxiety I just cant. Ive just been trying to breathe. My plan is to go to the gym and run 5 or 6 miles listening to angry music till I cant run anymore. I feel a lot like you today and so I feel you. Just take deep breaths try to get through today sober, get some sleep, eat some food and then tomorrow is a new day.
What does the < mean in notifications??..thrown me??..it usually
Day 24. I have to admit, itās tough going from high functioning alcoholic to lounging around not getting much done alcohol free.
Iām an artist. In the past Iāve always used alcohol as my fuel. It motivated me, give me ideas, made me work harder and faster during the evenings. Of course there was a diminishing return, with the more I drink the less I can actually do or focus on. But there was a sweet spot in there somewhere. Now that Iām not drinking I find that sometimes I donāt even go into the shop or bother with the art, maybe just lounge around, take a bath and go to bed early, nothing on that day! But, the slower pace is OK, since what I am doing Iām doing booze free and hopefully with a bit more heart.
Day 60. So happy to be at this point. Thanks to yāall who send birthday wishes yesterday. It was a good day!
I think it happens when a previously deleted thread, that youāve posted in, reappears?