Another sober day.
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Checking in 15 days sober. Took a 2 hour nap late this afternoon so I hope Iām able to sleep tonight. Hope you all have a great evening 
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Yeah, it would be nice if we could always be rockstars. But sadly that is not the case, or maybe itās for the best. Who even knows.
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Alllllllllllll the difference!!!
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Checking in, almost 2 weeks no alcohol. Watched a lot of Netflix again. My son drove me to the store and I ate too much! I may need to keep track of weight and calories as I recover from surgery.
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Ughā¦ let myself slide off into some bad weekend habits. Iām done now and back on track. Day 1 here.
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Just checking in before bed. Roller coaster day and not sure if Iāll be able to sleep.
I got a call a few hours ago that a friend passed away suddenly. They think complications of the flu or a heart attack. We should know more soon. I donāt process death well, soā¦ Iām ok now. Broke down earlier, but numb now. My heart is breaking for her brother. Theyāve been through a lot. Their dad killed himself when they were little, their mom died a little over a year ago and they are still devastated about it, well, I guess just the brother now. Heās all alone 
no one left. Heās very sensitive. I wish I could do something.
On the flip side I got a call that Iām getting paid on something out of the blue. Long boring story but man it helps. May be a few months.
I get very depressed over the weekends and never have a desire to even leave my bedroom. I feel guilty because all I do with my youngest is watch movies. I should do more, get her outside, something, anything. Soā¦ I found a little weekend desk job and applied for it. Itās definitely not for the money but to force me out of bed on the weekends. Unless Iām actually required to be somewhere, I just have no motivation. Sigh. Then Iāll be up and maybe more motivated to do stuff with her when sheās actually here 
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Iām so sorry for your loss Beth. Very sad. Iāve been thru a few deaths over the past few months and know exactly how youāre feeling. Just keep allowing yourself to feel all the emotions. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. 
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Wow! 74 Kevin thatās awesome!!! 
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Checking in at 46 days sober. Every year for the past 4 years I have participated in āDry Januaryā hoping that it will turn into āDry Lifeā only to fail by my Birthday in March every time. Well, my Birthday happens to be in 2 weeks from Tuesday and I feel no pressure to drink. I truly believe this time is the final time I quit and finally be successful!
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Day 42, wife talked me down from having a beer.
I was greatful.
Almost to 46!
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So very sorry for your loss. So hard when itās sudden like that. Please take care of yourself and feel all the feelings that come along with grief. Be gentle with yourself as you go through this. Hugs
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Glad youāre back. Keep going. It gets easier. Promise.
Checking in. Doing OK. Working the program as much as I can. Still sober.
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Day 469. A difficult day, with feelings in it.
I suppose I should elaborate. Today just continued to stir up a lot of thoughts and emotions I am still learning how to navigate and find acceptance for. I am angsty and tired after it all. My mood is still quite low, and though it doesnāt come with a desire to drink, I am certainly getting the āfuck itā feelings. I hope tomorrow is different. Sober is the way through this.
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I hope you wake up in a better mood & tell the āfuck itā feelings to fuck off. Youāve come too far and worked too hard to give in to that. Keep fighting. Youāre worth it. Iām rooting for you!
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37 and 5. I feel like I am drowning in depression, self pity and lack of motivation. I need to find a way out of this situation (Is it PAWS?). To make things worse I am out of a job and almost broke. I am a web designer. I had my own company, employed 12 people, till I screwed up and lost everything. Now I am trying to survive by freelancing, but the freelancing market is very competitive, rates are quite shity and projects are hard to come by. I have been considering a career change, as a content writer. But I am scared. Starting from scratch, all over again, seems so overwhelming. Do I have to energy to do it? Motivation is in short supply. My wife is very supportive, which makes me feel guilty that I am not trying hard enough. I feel like a loser. Someone that the world has forgotten.
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Day 47. Tomorrow I will be faced with temptation as I spend time with friends, one of whom I know will be drinking. I just have to promise myself and all yāall that my sobriety is important enough to me to resist.
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Day 67! Actually had a pretty good day. Lots of ups and downs but had some downtime and got too sleep in so that was nice.
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Jeez! thatās darkā¦wasnāt sure about liking that!. 