Day 15, feeling much better after 6 week relapse around Xmas. No excuses.
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Hi, welcome back, I am happy to see u. Ur post sounds so full of pain, I really feel it. U say u are not sure if u want this but then talk about how great u felt those few months u were sober, u want that again right? Then u have to swallow the bitter pill of disappointment, and get back on it. Donāt let external things like ur wife trigger u, ur sobriety must come from within u. This is very hard for me also, I react so much to my husband, it is ridiculous.
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What a cutie!
Day 324. My only goal today is to not lose my shit and blow up at work. I will give it my best.
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Rough night with my youngest daughter
At least Iām sober. Now to work on my addictive eating habitsā¦
You appear to be my clone
What was the trouble with ur daughter? Mine has had low grade fever, tiredness, on and off for a few days. Just canāt seem to kick it for good.
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Awesome numbers!!! 
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She has some anxiety/depression issues and last night had a full blown panic attack around 1am. Took me about an hour to get her calmed down and in bed. Sheās 14 so she has hormones too. Iām thankful Iām sober so I can be present when she needs me. But nights like last night are ROUGH. 
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Today the nurse took the stitches out and the doctor told me about 1 more week with the scooter/wheelchair concurrent with 6 more weeks with the walking boot; then 2 weeks adjusting to shoes and walking again.
Ran into my friend (sheās a nurse) at the clinic. She wants to come pick me up on Wednesday and show me the house she just bought and I was eager to get out of the house but visiting with her usually includes plenty of wine so Iām now thinking about how to handle this. First of all Iām taking Metformin and around 2000 to 3000 mg Tylenol a day, so I should avoid alcohol.
Secondly Iām pretty fat and prediabetic so I should avoid alcohol. Thirdly, Iām doing this new alcohol free experiment for at least a month or two to see if my mental health improves and the fog lifts and it has been!!! Maybe itās time to reread āthis naked mindā or watch ā28 daysā with Sandra Bullockā¦
Any other ideas??
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Nearly end of day 20ā¦ grateful Iām sober, grateful for doing yoga Tonightā¦pleased,calm, peacefulā¦
ā¦ (reply 2000)!
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That sounds hard, indeed. My girl is six, just wants mummy when feeling grotty.
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You have CHOICEā¦
and if you write CHOICE on a bit of paper and hold it upside down in a mirror,
,it will still read CHOICE back to You
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I like you, you should of said earlier. 
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Congratulations on 500 days @aircircle Ariel. Thatās a huge number 
I hope your anxiety gets better
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BEARDY. Finally I can wash again and try to regain some self esteem.
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Aww! Thanks I like u too.
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All our paths are different on this journey. Some of us will stop off on the side for a break, some will go back to the beginning, some will storm off at 100 mph only to stumble at the final corner but NOT YOU or anyone of us is destined for an early grave because of this illness, YOU are here because YOU dare to live, or at least give it one hell of a try, God loves a trier as they say.
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I remember those daysā¦ Now when sheās sick she just wants to be left alone.
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Just finished day 129.
I am reading āThe Sober Diariesā and loving it. It is well written and the author and I have lots in common. Her doc was wine, mine was wine. We were both in our forties then we stopped drinking. She has children, I have children. She has a wine belly, I have one etc. Great book.
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