It’s incredible how much this forum helps to keep me accountable. Its such a great outlet for all the daily frustrations and successes. Thank you for all of your experience, strength and hope everyone!
I feel like the changes I’ve made in my relationship and my lifestyle and mental health care routine are really helping me to let go of all the boyish coping mechanisms. There’s a strong tie between emotional distress and lust/fantasy for me. So instead of focusing on the issue of addictions, I’m building a life with less self imposed distress and getting help from a doctor or therapist for the things that are out of my control.
Checking in day 261. I am so tired. Gave too much last week so I need to recover. But I am staying kind to myself and allow myself to just go with the flow of this weekend, doing only what I feel like doing another free day tomorrow and next week is not as booked as last week so it’ll be all fine!
Sobriety is strong, really wouldn’t want to make myself even more tired with poison
Great to see how busy the check ins are. So proud of you all!
Checking in on day 28. I’m feeling good today, especially now I’m home from work.
I’ve got all the tomatoes stripped from the greenhouse, so it looks like I’ll be making a couple of jars of chutney tomorrow.
It will be a pretty laid-back evening and a little reading on here. I have been listening to The Exorcist at work today, and may be having a bit more of that tonight.
Definitely not drinking and no desire to.
Hope you all have a good evening.
Day 1322
Morning check in
Been spending a lot of time lately creating! Im currently putting together a photo book of my son, a custom photo puzzle, and 2 photo fridge magnets. My husband and I recently purchased my sons Grade 4 school photos, and came with it was a promo code for Shutterfly (an online place where u can create lots of fantastic items with ur photos). So i thought why not start Christmas shopping early?! The photo book is for us though. The other items will be for family.
A lot of emotion has come up going thru the tons of images I have of my son. Mainly gratitude for my recovery. Some regret of wishing I was more present at times. But seeing my son grow up and have all these adventures and all these different “firsts” really made me soooo darn grateful for my recovery and how I am a better mom bcuz Im clean and sober. I absolutely would not change this for the world.
Today I prayed on the way to work. Now Im working until 4pm. Will go home afterwards and really spend quality time with my family. We have a new nurse coming for our son for 2 nights. We will have to orientate her ourselves. Feels like weve been doing a lot of the training lately, which isnt ideal. But its better than not having overnight care.
Hope everyone is having a fabulous Saturday! Love to all!
@Leveller Excited for ur 30 days soon approaching! Hope u have a great evening! @Mtrav0040 WOW!!! Huge congratulations on triple digits!! Ur self awareness has sure helped u overcome this by the sounds of it Way to go! @Von100 Great job pushing that demon aside!! I have had that happen also, where i get the craving or urge to use, and then ill see something or someone acting a certain way and Ill be sooo grateful for my recovery in that moment. Its like a reality check lol @DogLoverForever77 Hey friend, welcome back!! Stay close to us Dont let this hiccuo in the road, effect u too badly. I know its hard not to feel down about it, but focus on what u can do today to stick to ur recovery. Get right back on track @Dolse71 Hey Paul!!! Congratulations on 5 years!!! This is a BIG deal!! Love what u wrote. Glad ur still around checking in! @JMS19 Congratulations on day 10!! @Lucalds Congratulations on 1 month!!! @DresdenLaPage WOW Josh! 7 years free from heroin is a HUGE deal! Congratulations to you!! Its good to see u checking in! Sounds like life is going well for you! Im happy to hear that @Mno Happy 10 years being cigarette free Menno!! What a big milestone @Bomdhil Hey Thomas… sending u big virutal hugs. What seems to be the barrier when it comes to recovery? Are u able to point that out?
Good Morning. Checking in on day 37. Not a whole lot going on…. a lot of huge milestones @Mno@Lucalds So many more I am just a bit unfocused at the moment… shocker I know lol
Checking in on day 68 THC free. It’s been a good day. I’m a bit tired but I’ll make it. I took a spill at the dog park this morning. The pups got feisty and knocked me down. I’m ok aside from a scrapped knee. Besides this, I’ve just been catching up on house work for the week. Vacuumed, cleaned the bathroom, swept and mopped. I didn’t want to do it but now I feel better knowing that it’s done. Fighting for my Sundays at work again. I just added a religious accomodation to my complaint with HR. I know all will turn out well in the end. I just going feel like they’re taking me seriously. My boss is a non believer so there’s that. To each their own but I do have the freedom to practice my faith. Work later this afternoon, picking up the slack as usual. One of our new people keeps calling in sick or having to leave early, which means that morning shift was short handed this morning. It’s going to be a good day .
Mid-day check in. It’s shaping up to be a good Saturday. This morning, I read and did some work on my laundry room. I went out to a discount store with $20 of rewards cash and found a framed print of the title page of Moby-Dick, an all-time favorite, for $15. This afternoon, I am making a Tuscan chicken soup. I’ve also spent about an hour logging my library into the Handy Library app, so I can keep track of what I have. Actually, my memory is pretty good, so it’s more an insurance thing. I have 400 movies and probably 10 times that many book, so I’m taking my times logging everything. Fortunately, it’s only scanning bar codes. Later, I’m planning to watch TV with the dogs because tomorrow I need to grade papers.
another free day tomorrow and next week is not as booked as last week so it’ll be all fine!
Hope u have a great evening!
To 30 weeks next 
