Good afternoon friends, day 13. Got busy this morning and forgot to check in.
Doing well today.
Have a great day!
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@jette that is good news â Grateful you didnât get written up. I am happy that you are looking into other work opportunities. Do hope something pans out for you soon 
Life works out sometimes like that. WOW- Puerto Rico? That is awesome. What a wonderful way to celebrate your 50th! Remind me of which day your birthday is on.
@mno Oh that is a beautiful view. Thanks friend. Sleep isnât my best friend these days. It will get better soon Iâm sure. @lighter â speaking of crap sleep â hope you are doing well and getting some restful nights. Missing you friend
@sk213 Oh man our addiction really is a demon. Glad you are here posting. You donât need to let this lapse hold you hostage. Get right back to your recovery. Work the tools and stay connected ODAAT I am sorry that you donât have the support at home. That does make life harder but the sobriety is your journey and for your own health. Stick with your program and donât do this for anyone other than yourself. I know culturally the family (even extended family) can be in uproar about talking about home stuff outside of the home. We really can not be fixed to this way of thinking. Others will have to come around. Others will have to understand. This is part of your healing. It is up to you on the details for your posts but the connection is the most important. Stay connected to your sober tribe. We know the struggles and can be empathetic to the journey. It is smart to take a step back from the YouTube public eye⌠this does not have to be forever- just till you get your footing and some sober days stacked up.
@supermassivedarkstar 40 days is awesome! Sorry that you had to reset that self harm counter. Be kind to yourself. Be safe and know that you are loved⌠this phase will not last. 
@bomdhil Hugs my dear friend. I am so very sorry for your breakdown Great work on your almost 1 week milestone. Hope you are able to take time to rest and recover. It does get easier and better. Hang in there Thomas. So lovely to see your name pop up 
@KevinesKay WHOOHOO! That is awesome â great milestone Kevin! Congrats on your 1 year 
@cr84 Much love Cass â A huge congrats on your 3 months
Checking in on Wednesday afternoon
Still lacking sleep - got a on / off 4 hours of sleep. Made it to the pool and got in a good swim with no drama LOL.
Got some work done and now going to finish up with some accounting and errands for work. Hoping to get in a pedicure / manicure in today.
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day - sending you all so much love
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Iâm glad youâre here. Fighting for another sober day. The past is just that. On we go friend.
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Hey 3 months is epic! So pleased for you!
you said about 81 days ago âweâve got it this timeâ I think you might just be right 
Ive just had to google diamond painting thatâll certainly keep you busy. I can not start another hobby 
. Well done Cass 
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Checking in on day 81 and all is well in soberland.
We got our first snow today, its due to freeze tonight but we get on with it.
Hot dinners, hot baths, coal 
and a read on here make working in snow bareable.
Cosy night feet up job done.
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I know right? Yea,my parents moved to the states, NJ, when they were young. They had met on the island and remet on the mainland,.got married and had my sister and I. My mom always said that she would move back after she retired and she did. My dad passed away in 2004 and she moved back to Puerto Rico after she got all of his affairs in order. Iâm grateful to be able to visit her at least once a year. I have a lot of family there and here too, just not in this area of Florida. Anyway, my birthday is on 12/16. I was in active addiction when my dad died and I wasnât by his side like I shouldâve been. I did go to his wake even though I was high as a kite. Iâve made an ammends through my mom and Iâm trying to make sure that I see her as often as I can. She just turned 81 this year. I was in PR for my 40th birthday, I wasnât quite sober at the time, but managed to keep it together for the visit. I went down hard after that until I hit rock bottom in 2018.
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Day 1375
Morning all! Just checking in. Not much to say today. Feeling a little disconnected from support stuff and recovery stuff. Im at no risk of using tho, just feeling âoffâ today. But congratulations to anyone celebrating a milestone, anyone coming back, anyone who is new, and everyone else that is still on this addiction free journey! Much love to u all!
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Just a quick one since itâs a busy day. Had a good day. I got distracted a lot in the beginning but just strolled across the winter market and am now getting a new book. Keep it up everybody!
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This had me laughing Jazzyjazz! A bit of a pampering day. You do right.
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So pleased you for Jason.
Your enthusiasm radiates out from your posts.
I can feel your excitement to get out there. Im excited for you and better still you are doing it all with a clear head.
An inspiration to all mate.
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This is inspiring, congratulations!
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Jesus is King, is the answer, @mxelle lol
But, @Smitty97
Yoo, this blew up in March, I was working at the Hotel and people from Idaho, Arizona, California where coming here.
I read a news article, about the treasure and its crazy I had forgot about it.
Did you hear about it?
I went in on it for weeks.
Thought iâd share.
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Day 2 AF.
Well I guess I wasnât quite done was I?
Went to a Meeting Yesterday and I am now reconnected to my old group which is a great safety net.
Still unable to manage my daily life and I am mostly depressed and in bed.
I am beyond pissed of at the fact that I relapsed for so long and basically upended my own life.
Could be worse of course but honestly I am just bored of all of it.
Maybe this time I can actually find a reason to commit to sobriety other than:âYou need it to be functionalâ
I donât care about being functional. I care about having a life outside of drinking. Canât have that while shitfaced.
Sorry for rambling but to be honest I really dislike having to do all of that âlife is full of opportunities if you are soberâ-shit again.
Guess Iâll have to gaslight myself into liking it?
Honestly doesnât sound quite bad if I consider the alternative.
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Welcome back
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Checking in on day 94. One day at a time. Sober.
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Thank you, deep down I know itâs for the best
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Quick evening check in. I am grateful for what I have.
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Glad you are back and working on your sobriety.
Wishing you luck with that. I was functional (most of the time) but realized that I was slowly killing myself and I was losing so much potential and time cause my life revolved around the drink and hangover cycle.
It still floors me that our addiction minds know itâs pure literal poison and yet still crave it and mourn itâs absence. Just shows how cunning this addiction can be.
I am glad you are back in your journeyâŚdo what it takes to remind yourself if why you want to be sober.
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Checking in
I donât have much news, other than that I spent the day sober. Work was fine, but not as productive as yesterday. I sometimes realize Iâm being bitchy or sarcastic at work, thatâs something I need to work on. Iâm ready for a holiday, I have 25 workdays left to take until the end of the year! 
Right now Iâm just watching some TV, itâs getting colder by the day, soon heating will be a must! 
Off to bed soon! I hope I sleep better tonight than last night! 
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192 AF Feeling pretty good and happy that im going to not just 1 Christmas party for work but 2 parties, one for my partners company and one for mine 
both are in the next few weeks
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