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Quickly checking in. More of an update tomorrow 
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Working weekend. A bit of a toothache but my mind hurts more, knowing the
will be gone this Monday. I knew this was going to happen and thereās more to follow but regret comes after the deed right. Well. It canāt be helped. Time is linear for us humans and all I can do is move forward one day at a time.
On we go. Going to make today as good a day as I possibly can and hope you will all do the same. Sober and clean of course. Much love from the (fast moving) waiting line for the best bread in town. I can still chew with the left side 
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Still ongoingā¦.its a lot of effort and patienceā¦.Im spending a lot of time in a loft full of spiders and if you donāt hear from me in the next 24hrs please send helpā¦.
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@Leveller Congratulations!!!
@JasonFisher I find Grock4 great! It sounds like Elon Musk, though ahahaha ā¦ You should watch The Age of Disclosure ā¦we will have soon zero point energy. Well, not that soon, but they will have to cause is there and available.
@Dilettante as the saying goes: work smarter, not harder!
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Hello everyone!
DAY 93 - Check-In
ā¦ and 60 days without smoking today!
One day at a time without cigarettes. I really hope this will be a long run this time. I am an intermittent smoker, but truly, itās a bad habit I want to get rid of forever.
Things are slow and very easy here, drama-free simple days, and I canāt tell you enough how much I am appreciating this quiet period. I know I go to extremes sometimes, wanting to leave, then being okay with staying here. But the unpolarized me is the addicted me, not the real one. The real me is the one who can sit quietly, watching my life evolve for the best.
Recently, something has shifted inside me, like a new level of surrender. Now, I feel protected by it, as if I know everything is going to be okay. Itās not a false hope, but rather a sort of certainty I feel deep inside me. Here at home, things are very good as well, and I feel much calmer than I ever have in my life. For this, I am very grateful.
Slow and steady wins the race!
Today I am grateful for:
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Transition to winter
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Sunny, chilly days
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Clean water
Wishing everyone a solid 24 sober hours!
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Day 1 sober across my addictive patterns.
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Glad you are back, Christophe and wanting better for yourself and the people around you. Take an honest look: what was causing you to be careless? Why did you choose to procede? Those insights will help you to chose differently once you get to that very same spot next time. 
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Thanks @JazzyS. Just got home from hospital, sheāll be in overnight. By all accounts the surgery was a success and she was recovering comfortably when I left
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Had a blast at yesterdayās game night. A bit groggy this morning though. The usual weekend chores today, a visit from a friend later.
Peace and love always 
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Day 4 and the demon is whispering again
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Hi @Pandita
I found the time too long, alcohol is a stimulant and Iām addicted to it. Iām starting a fitness program today: jogging and gym. A 1 + 1 month program (December and January).
If alcohol gives me the illusion of being alive and my addiction prevents me from living fully, my choice is to live fully without alcohol.
I am lucky to have the desire to succeed. I am not going to see my current situation as a failure. I need to take control of my life, and that need is the only thing that matters. Itās not vanity. And even if it is, itās beneficial to embellish my reality and therefore also that of the people around me, inevitably.
The power of life is like boxing 
: move forward, take the hits, dodge, progress.
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Omgā¦that got my skin crawling. Hope it gets better and easier. Have sos lines ready if neededā:hugs:
@Lucalds way to go with 2 months no smoking 
love that internal shift.
@MrFantastik oh thatās lovely to hear. Glad all went well and wishing her a quick/ painless recovery
@scaredsmol day 4 is fantasticā¦that demon will keep rearing itās ugly headā¦you just have to push past its urges and lies. This is what makes it weaker. Stay connected and keep busy. ODAAT 
Checking in on Saturday morning
Slept well enough last night. Still not great but feel less dead today. The pool should helpā¦it always does. Not much else going onā¦getting ready for the major snow storm. A foot of snow by tomorrow.
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day. Sending so much love 
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Hey lovely people,
41 days smoke free, 21 days binge eating free, back to zero days sugar free.
Yesterday I had cookies after dinner and I did reset my timer. I want to quit added sugar radically because I know I can not eat just a little sugar. Sugar is an all-or-nothing thing for me. Not mad at myself, tho. It did not lead to binge eating and it was not much. But enough to reset the timer.
I am running on very little sleep today and have a long day ahead of me, with lots of travelling and then a birthday party tonight. My sister will also be there and I will practice keeping my distance since she`s still snappy and not willing to talk it out or to just behave friendly again.
All this would usually have led to heavy, constant binge eating all day long to manage the stress and fatigue. But I can use other tools:
- some sleep and / or meditation on my train ride
- look back on the lovely memories of the last days
- connecting with my higher power (just started working with Her again)
Have a peaceful and great day!
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@JazzyS Have a great time at the pool and enjoy recharging! And what a great idea to play games to win a gift. I love that I I would totally enjoy to be part of this!
@Aedan Welcome to the community! Glad you found us! I will look out for more posts and I wish you a great start fĆ¼r your journey. Feel free to reach out!
@Lucalds Congrats! Its such a relieve to be cigarette free, isn`t it?
@Tragicfarinelli Spiders??? Oh boyā¦ Are you okay??
@Mno That looks like a very fine bakery! I hope you enjoyed the fresh bread.
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Hey all, checking in on day 1994. I hope everybody has a good one 
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Morning check in.
All timers intact.
My son and I did a lot of traveling yesterday. Saw Cirque Du Soleilās āTwas the Night Before Christmas. The lights and the dancing and the physical feats were astounding. Then we visited friends and I took all the kids to a movie. Safe to say Iām spoiling the kid, but I want to make as many memories as Ican with this young man before he doesnāt want to do anything with me anymore 
Going to hang out with family at my brotherās house today. Iām gonna have to plan ways to get out of the house. All these days with minimal exercise is resulting in me feeling a bit stir crazy. Iāve got the dog to walk and I have a plan to do some shopping. Definitely nothing to get between me and the search for serenity.
Have a great weekend everyone!
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Day 11 no weed.
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Day 127ā¦ No Lust.
Had some dreams, or nightmares, of lust.
Woke up, its all mental, men.
Talked with Jesus, cleared my head.
Over and over, quickly clearing the mind.
For we have thoughts, but do not sit in them, if you wish to dwell, dwell with God.
But, forever itās a battle, and all we can do as men, is run. Thatās it.
Even for the men who do not believe, even in the Bible it talks about that this is the only time to run. Its when the mind is in lust, the corruption of the heart.
There is more joy in giving glory to God, it will be better than any of our undoings. It keeps us from shame, guilt. Or our own cycles that we known to well.
And, over time, the feeling to self-destruct feels no more..
In God, to dwell and be. To relax, to feel free. No chains.
No despair, no anger, nor guilt nor resentments, no growing bitterness.
In Jesus name, i thank you. A mild attack is nothing compared to your grace and strength.
Thank you TS, for this as well.
For just letting me openly write.
I feel clear headed.
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Romans 12:2
And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.
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Good morning friends, day 23! Slept better. Today should be a good day. Some drama from my drinking bad behavior was brought up at Thanksgiving dinner so that was fun. Weāll survive it but it gets tiring as heck to keep putting out fires.
I know the solution, but have had trouble all my life staying the course.
Praying hard that this one sticks.
Have a great day!
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Good Job! Keep going
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