100 days! Awesome! 
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@CR84 Congrats on 100 days, girl!!! 
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Itās been an emotional couple days. Going thru something I canāt even put into words, while my fatherās back in the hospital. The morning after he came home from his pacemaker surgery (Thanksgiving), he had a fall and layed in bed the rest of the day. When his physical therapist came yesterday afternoon, his blood pressure tanked, he blacked out for a bit, so they called an ambulance. Apparently he broke his ankle when he fell and didnāt even realize. Or didnāt verbalize how painful it was (just like when he didnāt know he had broken ribs and vertebrae). Also, his gallbladder drain has become infected again, so they transferred him back up to Buffalo today 
I didnāt go, as I had my daughter and I actually called into work for the 3rd time ever in 10 years. I really needed the day a rest anyway, but Iām feeling alright now. Weāll see what tomorrow brings. One day at a time 
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Day 2 sober from masturbation
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Picked up the wife from hospital, surgery went well, easy repair as it was so soon after she hurt it.
Sheās been sleeping most of the day off and on. Sheāll still be on crutches for 6weeks post op.
Went grocery shopping and then got home before the kids got dropped home. Just been chilling, cooking dinner and staying indoors on this rainy Sunday
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@Butterflymoonwoman Iām so happy for your son and you. I didnāt know what was going on with your kid, and never dared to ask. It took my breath away and I have no words, other than admiration, for your strength, resilience, and the care you so abundantly offer to everyone. Iām sure life has lots of good surprises in store for you moving forward.
@CR84 @Leveller Congratulations to both of you!
@Just_Laura Oh God ā¦it can become a domino effect at a certain point. Stay strong, there is really nothing you can do at this point if not just taking care of the basics and letting life run its course.
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29 months
Im gonna tell you something you maybe didnāt hear today yet (but probably you did 
). Ready? Ok, listen. Time flies! It fucking does. But donāt think about it too much cause if youāre like me, you would just get some mini anxiety attack and itās not worth it. Just let it fly. And donāt look in the mirror! (joking).
But there is good news too. Time is actually not slowing down when itās bad. It feels like that, but itās not. So if you struggle, remind yourself that it too shall pass.
Iām still in bed, drinking my morning coffee. Kids are still sleeping. I love this quiet mornings, I really do 
Soon wonāt be so quiet anymore. That would be disaster if I would be hungover. So happy my boys donāt know me drunk or hungover. I was such a wreckā¦
Iām 29 months sober and 29 months on TS. Coincidence? I donāt think so 
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Speedy recovery for your wife! Take good care of her and remember those crutches can be a dangerous weapon too
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Hello everyone!
DAY 94 - Check-in
I tried a weird food combination last night, I think, and around midnight, I got stomach cramps that kept me up for a few hours. They finally vanished around 4 a.m. I still woke up at 7 because thatās my biological alarm, and I knew I wouldnāt sleep longer anyway. So I got up, made myself a coffee, came here on TS to check my messages as usual, and Iām planning to get on with the day as planned. Iām not tired, and Iām also not going to skip my morning walk by the sea.
I bought some handmade Genovese pesto yesterday, and Iām going to buy fresh gnocchi as well from the āfresh pasta shopā and cook it for lunch. Yesterday, I made seafood fettuccine that was quite delicious. Iām the cook of the house, and I love cooking. It has saved me many times in awkward situations, and itās my way of thanking my family for the support Iām receiving at this point in my life.
My father is super engaged with his brother in outside activities, and itās so good to see him happy again. After my mother passed away, he went into a very bad depression, and itās actually a miracle that he managed to find a way out for himself. At 81, seeing him still so active with friends (only in the morning) is a relief, also because it stabilizes the mood at home, and I do my best to contribute with lunches.
Today I am grateful for:
ā¢ Coffee
ā¢ Physical activity
ā¢ The overall abundance around me (whatever abundance means for me)
Wishing everyone a solid 24 sober hours!
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Day 2 morning
Despite a restless night, listening to the neighbors arguing in the street likeā¦ 
, then quietly listening to the rain fall, I got up this morning as planned. Clear blue skies after the rain and fresh air: ideal for a jog, right? A beautiful serenity at the end of autumn.
First thing now: coffee.
Have a good day, everyone.
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First Sunday of Advent.
A time of quiet reflectionā¦ and apparently a time when I put a candle into my smoothie and call it āsymbolism.ā
But honestly, today hits differently. The first Advent candle is about hope, and Iām taking that seriously this year ā not in a heavy, dramatic way, but in a āletās try this again, but smarterā kind of way.
For me, this moment is a reminder that every new chapter starts with something small: a spark, a habit, a choiceā¦ or yes, even a candle balancing in a berry smoothie 
Iām using today as inspiration to start a new stage ā healthier, calmer, and a little more intentional. And if I can manage that with this level of coordination, anything is possible.
Hereās to a fresh beginning, one flame (and one smoothie) at a time.
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First Sunday in the Advent season. Going to light the first candle, the time of dreaming, resting, and waiting for the sun to be reborn.
Time for my weekly review, and lots of chilling. Also waiting for my hormones to settle down after the recent rollercoaster ride.
Peace and love always 
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Love this Mischa. You rock. 
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Honestly, Yeah this place is a pixelated tranquilizer for me, honestly. Even when some people feel down thereās a dozen others to lift them up again. Itās amazing what a community can do. Iād offer to give a hug if I was nearby, haha.
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Checking in from inside an mental health facility. I got myself admitted yesterday to have a safety net for the weekend because I felt very paranoid and unsafe in my own home. Iāll probably go home again on Monday or Tuesday. That thought scares me. I hope they can come up with a plan to give me a bit of perspective to work towards.
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4 months sober - most days I donāt look at this app unless Iām really struggling but I think I handled last night well considering my mum was enjoying a cold bottle of wine last night. Spent the entire night in my room with my long boy
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Im so sorry youre going thru it with your dads health struggles. Im glad you took a day for rest. Be kind to yourself. Nothing prepares us for our parents getting older
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Checking in 2391 days AF, 132 days THC free, 1758 days nictotine free, 47 days MO free, 3124 days free of meth and other illicit substances, 3224 days free of self harm, AND 302 days free of porn. I only share the ones that Iām truly working on right now. My Higher Power has set me free from alot of these that are up there in days. I donāt even think watching porn anymore. I thank my HP every day because I couldnāt have done it without Him.
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Checking in:
Sonās car was hit in a fender bender last night, of course Iām asleep (it was about 11pm) and I have notifications off as they buzz my watch. Luckily no one was hurt and wife was working in town so she could pick him and his girlfriend up to take back to her place.
Today we figure out what to do as heāll be without a ride and living an hour outside town will make it hard for him to get to his girlfriendās, but guess thatās the way it goes. Hopefully damage isnāt too long to fix.
Oy vey. But happy Iām not hung over trying to figure this out with him in his first bump in car.
Thankful for sobriety in this.
Have a good day folks.
Lotsa 
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Hey all, checking in on day 1995. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Checking in!
Went climbing, but unfortunately my back is problematic at the moment. Still found a solid 5C climb in me so happy with that! In more pain now but as I will always have back pain I refuse to let it stop me 
Calm Sunday. Looking forward to F1 in the evening. Feeling pretty content actually 
also much happyer with the add meds then I thought beforehand. Now need to find a balance of not abusing it and just following my prescription. I can do that, this has never been a problem before, but I do feel it differently now Iām sober so I will be whatchfull.
Have a great Sunday everyone
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