Welcome back.. it took me 3 relapses to actually get it right and stay sober. What matters is just today. Today well lived puts more distance between us and that last drink or drug.
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Recovery dharma is a Buddhist based approach but doesnāt require any certain beliefs. I personally love it
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Checking in before I forget on day 104. Was able to maintain routine yesterday and feeling better. Made some sweet treats.
A HUGE HAPPY BIRTHDAY 
@Butterflymoonwoman
So happy for you @Lucalds I hope that these sales finalize and move you forward. Beautiful post and progress as always.
@StacyAnn I believe there will always be struggle, while less, still exists out of our control. However, when we are free from our demons itās āeasierā to handle such struggles. Congrats on 5 months beautiful 
Light & Love ALL 
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Wednesday morning check-in. Iām having a great day so far! I pushed through a big day yesterday on minimal sleep, and it was all worth it. We went out to look at Christmas lights at a light festival with friends last night, and I took my daughter on a carrousel for the first time. We got in line and rode it five times in a row. She was smiling and happy the whole time. It was dumping down snow, and spirits were high.
I hit my seven hour sleep target for the first time this week last night. The morning routine went perfectly this morning, and the garbage truck driver gave my daughter a colouring book when we were leaving the house this morning.
So many small wins so far today to be grateful for.
I hope you find lots to be happy about today.
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Checking in 135 days THC free and 50 days MO free! I made it to 50 days MO free this time! I relapsed on my 49th day last time. I kept having vivid sexual dreams and waking up feeling guilty. At the time, I figured if Iām going to stay feeling guilty about a dream then I might as wellā¦then I felt double guilty and I didnāt even enjoy it! Iāve learned my lesson, a dream is just a dream!
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Thank you! At a certain point, I will do it, now it feels a bit awkward 
@DanielaJ too 
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@Butterflymoonwoman HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! 
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Very well!!! 
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Not a problem, typing errors happen 
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Day 15. I feel like throwing up and my gut pushes me awake at night. I read iām in the second wave of withdrawal, where the endocannabinoid system is recalibratingā¦ my calm down reset system. Day 10 to 21 is the recalibration window. Damn. 2 to 5 more days. I thought there was no real physical withdrawal, iām 
wrong. Im supposed to stay away from coffee, force myself to eat bland food, heat on the stomach, avoid tomatoes, magnesium and ginger is good.
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Day 5
Theater night = no alcohol tonight.
Love according to an algorithm.
This should be fun.
Have a great evening, everyone.
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Checking in on day 362
Tired tired tired today. Iām taking the day to reset, go to the gym, do therapy, and throwing in a consultation with a dog trainer for poor, bad sulley. Iāve decided to be very nice to myself today because I feel very much like doing the opposite.
@Butterflymoonwoman happy birthday 
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@StacyAnn You rock girl! Way to go with your 5 months 
It does get easier. I donāt have a time line as we all have a different journey. 
So proud of you friend.
@Lucalds That is great news friend. Hope the sale goes through.
@DanielaJ Much love friend. Feeling a bit better but still struggling. At least moving in the right direction. How did the interview go? Hopefully you will hear back about it soon Enjoy the concertā¦ I love the saxophone! Sending love and hope all goes well with time spent with parents! Just saw the update - YEAH! A good sign that a 2nd interview is already scheduled ā will keep my fingers and toes crossed for you 
@DANNYBEAR92 Welcome to the community and a huge congrats on your sober journeyā¦ already part of the triple digits that is awesome work. This is a beautiful compassionate and loving community to be a part of ā¦ glad you have found us. Look forward to seeing you around 
@ceejayboi Glad you are back and working on the journey - aware of the beginning hurdles and ready to tackle them. Know that you are not alone. Take it one moment at a time and keep fighting the good fight 
@Jett Amazing! Great work on your 50 days! Keep up the great momentum
Checking in on Wednesday afternoon
Yesterday was a rough day. I am grateful for making it through and coming home to go straight to bed. Didnāt sleep much but still rested for like 13 hours. Still feel very fatigued. Did manage to go for a swim which helped with other symptoms. Gonna be a busy day but at least I can go at my own pace.
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day - sending you all so much love 
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72 no weed
167 no porn
374 AF
I want more snow so I can go XC skiing. Iām gonna buy myself a new set of boots and skis to reward myself for my hard work in the career.
Have an al-anon meeting tonight Iām looking forward to and then my son has his play performance on Friday. Followed by some basketball games on Saturday. I get to shuttle him around for that. Heās a confident young man and Iām proud of that despite the grief it brings as a parent to deal with that at times 
. I know itās gonna serve him well.
Surviving my first āpolar vortexā of the season. When I was a kid we just called it ācold as f#ckā and built our snow forts thicker.
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Day 45.
I know this may seem silly and trivial, but my hair looks healthier than it ever has before. I know itās only been 45 days, but it looks noticeably shinier and full of volume. I noticed it this morning. It may just be me seeing what I want to see, but Iām typically fairly judgemental of my appearance (so Iām chalking this up to a win).
Hubby and I went to a drive-in movie last night. It was dirt cheap and incredibly fun. We saw Home Alone and ate the most delicious, greasy cheeseburgersā¦ it was adorable. I canāt even tell you the last time I had a burger. Iāve been so hung-up on eating clean (and minimally), finishing that thing made my soul feel like it was able to take a breath.
Iāve been trying to find āfunā drinks to have when I would typically be drinking alcoholā¦ kombucha, unsweetened iced tea, coffeeā¦ but it really isnāt scratching that itch. Iām trying to avoid coke (specifically cherry coke) since my DOC was almost always a vodka coke. Iāve tried some of the Ollie Pops (those probiotic sodas) but it still feels lame.
Anywayā¦ today Iām planning on taking a nice long walk with hubs and the pup, working on finishing my French Translation project for the semester, and making myself a warm, delicious dinner. Maybe watch a movie this evening. Gonna stay off my phone today. Iām tired of notifications.
Hope everyone is having a nice day. 
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Checking in!
My spa visit and breakfast with my mom was excellent, we had a nice time! Breakfast was actually more of a brunch, I got all excited and asked for an omelette with everything they had in it! 
This afternoon I did the workout challenge + a 40-min punch bag session. After a chilled morning, I was ready for some cardio! Now, after a shower, I feel more zen then ever! 
Being on holiday makes things a lot easier!
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Checking in day 139. Evening rockweed tea from my friendās farm. It is so full of well-being, I always forget. Booking travel, meeting olā beauhunk at work so we can travel the last bit together. Ć demain.
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Day 1389
Thank you everyone for the birthday wishes! Being 41 isnt sooo bad My husband stayed home from work today so that we can have a family day. I really appreciated that and am loving spending time with my husband and son. I got some gifts, was able to get a workout in, and might even go for my free Starbucks coffee in a bit. Feeling really good today! I really loved reading all of your bday messages also. Thank u sooo much 
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Afternoon check-in. As if yesterdayās work day made me wanna drink today is the same. This project i am working on is driving me crazy and I am almost done but shit keeps happening to make it be prolonged. I know I wonāt pick up a drink today it just feels like I need one but I know I clearly donāt
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