@Dilettante glad to hear that the training is going well. Yes, I am working on self care. The recent socializing triggered a fatigue attack and it caught me off guard. Doing a bit better each day
@DANNYBEAR92 thatās the beauty of this community that we can understand the addiction and the struggles. Keep showing up and fighting the good fight
@BriCrowe so excited for your 5 month milestone. The back and forth is a struggle but it does get easier so do keep pushing through. Fir me personally I find that if I occupy myself physically and mentally then the urges go away. A sure fire way is to come here and read and engage. The milestones make me feel like I need to reach my next one and the newcomers remind me of what I went through just to get to day 1 and I know I donāt want that again. In helping others I find that Iām helping myself solidify my own sobriety
@Kareness sorry to read about your cat ..hope everything is ok . Good luck with your review today
I canāt imagine all that you have to juggle as a single parent and then having this fear would make it so much harder. Wish I had insight on how to set boundaries. Just have love for you and hope that something will work out. Your son is still so young but possibly activities with community center may be a good thing to limit time with Grandpa?
@SimplyMe welcome back and congratulations on starting your journey. ODAAT hope to see you posting more as the community really has helped me stay sobe
@BlancheDuBois I know it feels like failure but in reality you are succeeding. We tend to set unrealistic goals for ourselves and then beat ourselves for not meeting them or kill ourselves in making them happen. Should be proud of yourself for taking a step back and asking for the extension. I hope you receive them. Early sobriety my main focus was staying sober and a lot of things fell through the cracks. This was completely unlike me but I knew my self care and ME in general were more important. It took a long time to retrain my mind cause I used to think that if I was awake then I had to be productive. Not realizing that resting and self care is also productive and necessary. Hugs to you friend
@Chevy55 best of luck manā¦sure you will crush it. Look forward to celebrating your 700 days with you tomorrow
@Jette for sure itās expensive and a bit sweet too ā¦I hardly drink the. Now but they did help me get through the early days if sobriety. It was the step after my ice cream binge phase lol. Literally anything to keep me from drinking nothing wrong with you friendā¦it takes time for us to heal and move past the hurt. Keep working your recovery and connecting with Godā¦it does get easier
@CR84 thanks Cass. Grateful for the swimming. Really does help. Still working on catching up on rest.
Checking in on Thursday morningā¦
Got some work done and a good swim in. Now waiting for someone for a scheduled meeting and then back more work. Luckily not much driving today. Iām still struggling but feel a bit more aware of my surroundings today. Had to take yesterday off and just āsleepā.
Have a wonderful addiction free dayā¦sending you all so much love
Had a doctors appointment yesterday. My cold was only getting worse. He did a covid test and it came back positive. That explains a lot of the symptoms Iām having.
So Iām resting as much as I can. Got some vitamine D and C supplements. Hope that helps in the future.
Itās been almost a month off of SSRIs. I think Iām doing mostly OK. Rage crops up from time to time every couple of weeks but I think thatās just my factory setting from my childhood. Itās not like I break stuff, just feel it in my body and feel like I gotta get big and loud to be heard. I can continue to work on the pause and utilizing my protocol when my emotions run high.
I did a thing and asked a girl out. I did it over text. Maybe it was a dumb idea. Not sure quite yet. I did consult with my HP before I did it. I have done a lot of work on myself in the last couple of years and ramped it up to hard mode in the last 6 months. I have a good social network. I have improved my mental/physical health, my career, my outlets for creativity and am engaged in several communities (this one included) that keep wind under my wings. I felt ready.
I also felt like I just needed to know if there was anything mutual there for the sake of my own sanity. So I can just move past it one way or another. I asked myself if I could handle a āNoā and I really felt I could. Gonna accept rejection as data that informs my next move and pat myself on the back for trying.
Weāll see what I hear back.
Iām gonna go to the gym and run before yoga class. And I might hit the sauna if thereās time.
Checking in! Iām Richard, new here. I have 50 days sober. Iām in rehab and doing well. My wife and I are going through legal separation and Iām just super lonely and feel like Iām losing my best friend. Just trying to not be in my head too much or take too much on but itās easier said than done. The self sabotage is real and thank God Iām aware of it. Just doing everything I can to walk the walk rather than talk the talk. Iām plugging in with my sponsor and the program and want to get a better understanding of her point of view and while Iām validating her, Iām working on validating myself. I hope Iām not sounding like Iām whining, I just needed to share so it doesnāt fester. Thank you all, Iāll be checking in daily!
Quick check-in. I am exhausteddd but in the best way! Super fun day going to an art museum and then the science center. Had some good food and even better conversation.
Cant wait to celebrate 5 months tomorrow!
Iāve been thinking, and I need to get more involved in my community. Iām just so afraid to put myself out there.
Welcome to the community Richard. Look forward to seeing your daily check ins
Congrats on your 50 days! Glad you are working with a sponsor. The early days in sobriety are hard enough and itās a lot harder to deal with a separation as well.. sorry friend. Keep working on your recoveryā¦it does get easier.
You for sure are not whiningā¦glad you didnāt let things fester. This is a safe space to connect with fellows who understand the struggles of sobriety. ODAAT
Anxiety has been kicking my butt. Overthinking and sleepless nights.
My drunken days still haunt me. I canāt let go. I thought everything would be smooth now after 4 yrs of sobriety, but it feels like Iām trapped in my own mind.
Anyway, I hope everyoneās doing well. Not a whole lot to report.
nothing wrong with you friendā¦it takes time for us to heal and move past the hurt. Keep working your recovery and connecting with Godā¦it does get easier 
