Day 3 Checking in
I’ve been the opposite of grateful today. Really struggled with bitterness and resentment about a problem I cannot fix. Ended up in a heated discussion with my other half who is just telling me to let it go and let the problem I see coming happen as it doesn’t matter how much I point it out, people won’t make changes until it affects them. Its sound advice but it just taps into some deeper feelings of mistrust in leaving things to other people as it feels like the problems just comes back to me in the end.
The positive I am going to try and take from this that things need to change. The stress has been affecting my physical and mental health and I’ve been putting everything into this piece of work with an outcome that I was counting on. It hasn’t happened so I need to realign myself with what I want my life to be. That sounds dramatic when I read it back but I need to put my health first, not to get caught up in things.
Tomorrow is another day, I get to go again and try and find gratitude again.