Full trip around the sun! 
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Eight months!
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Checking in: day 45.
Tiny space reorganised, new washing machine installed and I end up with more storage space then I had before. How?? Anyway, I am not complaining 
. Not having to do my laundry somewhere else or by hand is such a timesaver!
This afternoon I will work on preperations for group therapy that starts in a few weeks. I have the same feeling I had when starting a new schoolyear (as a teacher). I like to start fully prepared but you never know what to expect. But instead of students, parents and co-workers, itās the other group members, therapists and the therapy itself. Somethings you just cannot prepare for. This is something that is difficult for me. I like to be in control of things. So I notice my stress and anxiety are building up. But the fact that I know this, means I can act on it.
Stay safe and sober everyone 
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Day 148
Hey TS family!!! Been busy the past weekend and havenāt posted in a few days. Work has been keeping me busy, we are super busy which I love. I took Nitro out for the day on Sunday he made a new friend. Played for hours and was all tuckered out when we got home. Tilly my female cat is still not happy with me as yesterday she pissed on my sandals. I guess its time for new ones lol. I havenāt been sleeping much due to making sure Nitro goes out to do his business but thatās ok. Weekends are great for that. I have made a plan to go to recovery church on Saturday and Sunday nights. Then I will continue meetings every second Monday. I am doing well and have been enjoying life 
have a great sober day
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Six years, five months, and 23 days since my final relapse.
Im feeling a bit blue today. Newest new guy quit and another guy met at the boat. He is experienced. We will see.
My coworker who is recovering from the meth monster got a draw yesterday(cash advance) and bought some Jack Daniels.
I guess he has more lessons to learn.
It makes me feel sad. For him, for me, for the boat.
Cap was pretty miserable to be around. I get that he is stressed. So am I.
I felt mean and I wanted to lash out on him yesterday. A bridge burning lash outā¦ but I didnāt.
Im feeling my pity pot a bit today. Poor me, pour meā¦ if you pour me a drink i will punch you right in the face.
I have to work in the engine room today. Maintenance with Cap. Not looking forward to it.
I dont know how many shitty comments I can take without losing my shit.
Im disgusted with my coworker, and im tired of new guysā¦
And im not making money. Not enough to deal with all this BS.
Not gonna drink over it cuz theres no solution in that.
Edited to add. I was able to visit the egrets yesterday and that was nice.
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The constant change sounds tough to deal with man. Takes a mental toll I can imagine, but thank you for making me laugh. āPour me a drink and Iāll punch you in the faceā. I need to say that to myself.
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Congratulations on a year! 
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Woohoo for 8mo! Keep it going!
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Hello friends, day 173. Work is draining me today. Iāll be OK.
Have a great day.
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A few days ago my oldest nephew made a comment to me about how me and his dad, my brother in law, act together. He said āyou guys act like brothersā. This helped me appreciate the relationship his dad and I have, and appreciate how amazing it is that my sister found such a great guy to build a family with. Iām thankful for every chance I get to see them, which lately has been seven days a week 
Iām grateful for cooperative online multiplayer games, for some space to display important trinkets, and for the smell of honeysuckle around my home 
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- Tonight is a test. Iāll pass but Iām going to come and complain because you all know what itās like. Im going to dinner with a friend through business who loves to drink. Weāve spent so many nights together all over the world for 20+ years and I have great memories. He lives on another continent and we only get together a couple of times per year. I wonāt drink, but Iām angry about it because of course I want to chase that high. You all get it.
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Just donāt take the first drink. It really aint worth it. Soda, lemon etc. You wont need alcohol to enjoy and let loose.
You can do it.
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Tuesday lunch check-in. Iām in a blur right now. Life is lifing. I ended up with only complicated work files on the go the last couple of weeks, and it will be like this until sometime in June. Morale is low on my work team at the moment. Everyone is burnt out, and the social chatter is 5% of average. Iām doing what I can to keep the team energy positive, but also be diligent and professional.
My daughter who just turned three couple of weeks ago is lots of fun and the joy of my life, but also extra challenging many hours every day and night these days.
At a weaker time of life, right now I would coast through work, go home and drink beer, and sit on the couch browsing Reddit, or scrolling other nonsense on my phone.
Today Iām gonna continue my push through, and embrace the suck. Excuse my low-energy self-pity! Back at it we go.. 
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I bet being open about your sobriety will help that guy too. You can reminisce about the old days but you CANāT relive them. Frame it like, man those were crazy times but Iām trying to be health conscious these days. I just canāt/wonāt/donāt do that stuff any more.
Most importantly. Donāt drink.
Yesterday someone at work confessed they were dealing with anorexia and I got to confess that I am an addict. I donāt tell anyone at my job that. Your sobriety is your super power. Walk out clear headed with only memories of drinking.
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It only takes a moment to take that drink. It gets really attractive if its in the kind of scenario you are entering.
Keep your guard up. And dont fall for the temptation. Its a trap!
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We all can totally relate!
I had dinner with an old friend Saturday night, they didnāt care about me not drinking. It was actually really nice and nice to see how our friendships has evolved.
Itās ok to feel how you are feeling. I often feel the same. Like why the hell canāt I just have one drink?! Well because I canāt, so now I have my one soda or mocktail and then itās water. Still had a great time with my friend Saturday. Hope you enjoy your time tonight.
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Quick check in before hitting the hay. I felt annoyed at work over some things but stopped myself before getting heated and told itās just work, no point ruining my day because of that. It is what it is. Acceptance brought calmness.
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Day 0
Hard reset. Lost my job yesterday. This brings on more stress than we need right now. One take away from this is i know I definitely dont want to do this again.
Some tough times ahead just need to work out some things that I can and cant do financially till I have another job.
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Day 11 sober and clean 
Today was a bit of a curve ball to be honest . A friend at work came to me begging me to go to a concert with her as she had 2 tickets and no one to go with, all free she was even going to pay my train fair for me . I sat there for a while and thought about it and thought I could definitely do that at some point in my sober journey but today was not that day !
Itās too soon soft me , one hint of a bar and I think Iād fall like a house of cards . So I had to put my foot down and say sorry but noā¦
I think I did the right thing but felt a bit embarrassed that I couldnāt seize the opportunity 
Did I do the right thing or have I just missed out on a good night ? 
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