Checking in 2732 days alcohol, 9 days caffeine.
Didnāt sleep too long. Went to bed to early. Iāll be in the office early to get some things done I hope because yesterday was like in a post office. Tok Tok. Nooooooooooooooo, noone is there. No, I like my colleagues really but I didnāt get anything done. Fritz wonāt be happy we me.
Iām back to work today, it will be interesting to see what I can and canāt do with my stitched up finger. I still got my brain. And nine functional fingers. I feel it will be alright.
Had a long walk yesterday morning, visiting some of the citywide garage sales going on. Which was nice enough, even though I didnāt buy any stuff. Iām not that much of a hoarder. Also it made me feel a bit lonely at times, too many folks around, which made me feel skittish and shy. Some of my old social anxiety playing up.
Was back at home around noon and decided not to go out no more. Read a book instead, and felt glad to be away from it all. I did realize -again- I want some new friends in my own vicinity. Made some great friends online, here in particular, but would like some to meet and befriend some new folks in my own town as well. Still not sure how to tackle that. Not going to meet them sitting here.
But work first. Iām going to make today as good a day as I possibly can and hope you will all do too. Sober and clean or nothing will come of it. Much love form my hood.
Good morning everyone. It is a somewhat special morning today since I achieved my first full year sober. Oh wow. It feels not so long time when I joined this community but on the other hand it feels that I have been sober very long time. I am 43 years old and oh boy I had tried to control my drinking but also had tried to quit drinking so many times that I cannot even remember. Blackouts, losing phone and even wallet, arguments, sickleaves from work, missing my duties, cheating and so much more, you know the shit. I was probably also close to damage my liver etc badly. I was a heavy drinker. Could drink all and not passing out. It was awful. Or of course iy was āgreatā (f*ck it aint any great) and my brain desired the first drink (as it sometimes still does). But to drink endlessly and not shutting downā¦you wll be a total jerk. Totallly different person.
But now it has been something very different., thanks to you all. I would not have made this alone without you. I am grateful and this community is very important cause it can help all of us but also ones that are not yet here. Letās keep the positive spirit and encourage each other. You are all great just like as you are, your ownselves and unique stories.
Even with 365 days itās still one day at a time. So nothing has changed on that matter. Not getting too proud but staying humble - of course I am happy and grateful. Also feeling much better and things are more in control.
Have a great day everyone and sober of course! Let the Sun shine
I am so happy to be sober. I wouldnāt exchange this version of myself for any of the previous ones!
The days are becoming longer, and at 5:30 it is already quite bright. I like waking up at dawn, but thatās enough for now. I will see it again after the summer solstice, going toward autumn, so for now letās enjoy summer. I spent an hour at the beach yesterday after my hike, and the sun already burns. I had my high-level sun protection on my face, but the skin on my body felt quite cooked afterward.
Itās a bit too early to swim in the ocean (I will wait another couple of weeks for that), but this is my new routine. I have been waking up an hour earlier since the end of March in anticipation of this, so that I can get my time at the beach in the morning this year without having to change my afternoon routine.
Previously, I used to go in the afternoon, and often with boozeā¦ itās a good idea to change habits. This way, I will just bump into early-morning ladies walking by the beach and seafood fishermen rather than youngsters with beers and wine. Not that I am tempted, but I like the energy of the morning more, and it suits my needs for now.
Iām not going to overthink what is already obvious to me and will keep moving on, if not physically, then mentally and energetically. I am not going to invest any more of my energy in empowering other peopleās behaviors and neuroses.
I didnāt get any feedback for a seasonal work, but I am not arguing with what the environment is offering nor selfsabotaging my intuition.
Today I am grateful for:
a clear mind
a sober body
comfortable training shoes (I switched to the summer version)
Day 11 - Im feeling a bit less enthusiastic today , not sure why . Iām very aware that day 12 was when I relapsed last time for I think I just need to jump that hurdle and il probably feel a bit better .
Still feeling confident I can do it just not as up beat about it today . I supposed every day canāt be rainbows and sunshine lol .
Hope you all have a fabulous day . Il check in again this evening and see if my mind frame has shifted .
Sunshine today. Was a bit of a headache day yesterday. Coffee helped. Prepping for class, going to do the groceries later, some prep for our weekend trip.
Settling into the new place. Put together a nice new TV unit tonight and just waiting on our new couch to be made/delivered in around 8 weeks. So peaceful and quiet here
About to climb into bed and read around here a bit.
Been listening to alot of recovery elevator podcasts on my drives to and from work. The episodes are pretty much equal in length to my commute time so been working out really well.
AF 7690 Checking in from the road. We have a stop at my sonās alma mater midday, will be home by evening. Zero thoughts of the booze and for that I am grateful.
