Day 3
Not feeling 100% this morning, with the guilt, but definitely in a better space than before.
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I really hope this sponsor works out for you, she sounds sensible and understanding.
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- Morning my sober friends. Iām feeling amazing after a hardcore Kettlebell spin session. No one fainted today, no drama. Iām feeling my strength increase a lot, which is really encouraging, and these early morning classes have such an infectious vibe. Good vibes only for this gal these days.
Letās get it, whatever it is. Keep going troops. Peace 
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Good morning guys. We go again! 
Day 152 AF.
Nothing much to report, still plodding along with general sobriety. Steady is. No major triggers coming up. ODAAT.
Make it an awesome sober 24 and be kind to yourselves because you deserve it. 
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Checking in Day 5
I feelā¦ Everything. Not sure how I can express it really. There is a set of feelings moving inside me, emptiness, loss, anger, fear. It feels like something dislodged after my trip back to my parents. A large chunk of unresolved feelings and trauma that is now just here. Some memories are floating back up to the surface and I need to give them time and space to breathe. At the same time I need to look after myself. It feels rough, the urge to bury myself from these feelings is so strong but I am stronger.
This feels important, too important to throw away, too important to fight. Iām reaching out here as I have no idea what to do. Right now all I know is that in the time I was at home I felt my boundaries crossed and felt powerless to stop them being crossed. Even admitting that makes me feel raw.
I am grateful for this forum and for those who have read this far. I feel seen here.
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agree. As long as whatever youāre saying no to is going to be positive and healthy for you, those boundaries are essential. Iām estranged from my siblings and when people say ābut itās familyā or āyou should really make amends before itās too lateā it infuriates me. Iām not doing that because it will be damaging to me. Thatās a boundary Iām going to hold. I spent too much time being gaslit by them into thinking nothing was wrong and that they werenāt the problem. You do what you need to do to stay healthy and sane.
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itās the definition of strength that is important here I feel. True strength (I feel) is dealing with these emotions, feeling them through all the way, experiencing them, learning from how it feels to feel 'm, and learning lessons, how to overcome them.
Acknowledging this, knowing this, and again, feeling it and now reflecting on it and sharing about it is a big step in the right direction. You were in an environment where you boundaries have been overstepped and violated for many many years (right?). Youāre seeing now what is happening. Itās the beginning of truly dealing with it. How that dealing for you actually turns out, is for you to find out and decide. Thereās many options. Congrats on your progress and keep going friend.
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Day 17
Have a good day everyone 
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#197.
Oh man am I looking forward to a Good nights sleep. Weekend is here. No alarm tomorrow.
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Sorry @JasonFisher I hope I didnāt flag your post 
really donāt know what happened 
I just want to reassure you that I always apriciate your posts and photographs. Youāre really inspiring sirā
Thank you
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Day 68 checking in, another week down going to watch the footy relax and just enjoy not being at the workplace. walk to the library in the morning to print a few things off and maybe grab a book while Iām there. hope everyone is well 
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Day 270
A nice Friday planned with a posh lunch on the cards. Itās a place I have to drive to and Iāve never had a drink there so hopefully it wonāt be to triggering, It wasnāt last time.
They do this amazing dish called a nourish salad. Not quite has healthy as it sounds 
, but it is so tasty. You get loads of grilled chicken so Iāll definitely be taking a doggy bag home for my two.
Absolutely nothing else planned for today, I think I will lazy around, craft, play my viola and enjoy being sober.
Wishing everyone a wonderful sober day.
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Day 100.
Good day at work. We had dinner with my brother in law was awesome.
Much needed weekend starts now. Rest and relaxation is most of the plan.
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I didnāt see any flags. Thank you. Have a great day!
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Morning all,
Check-in day 21 I think 
.. my counter had reset but I havenāt 
Portugal was a success! No alcohol, weed, fags or vapes. Thatās for me who is used to turning up to the airport and getting on it until the very last moment of the holiday.
We both had really good time. It felt mindful and relaxed, there were times where tensions were a little high, like losing my phone, breaking my phone, losing my wallet, key for the room (numerous times) messed up the car rental reservation so was walking about on 2 hours sleep in the hot sun while Noah was whinging and saying he wants to go homeā
But I didnāt drink and we laughed, we chatted, we explored, we watched sunsets, we ate well, we slept and I returned without a hangover. I will always value that holiday with my little dudeā¦now back to the chaos 
Thanks for checking in on me @JazzyS, Iām really grateful for you friend! I hope you get a little rest from you pain and a sleep..Iām struggling to sort my sleep tooā¦so I feel for you
Hope youāre all well and soberā
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Good morning friends, day 274. Too much coffee at the meeting last night and slept terribly. Iāll shake off the cobwebs shortly and hit the day full of coin and commerce.
Have a great day!
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Thanks Mno, I agree. Iām in unfamiliar territory and the strength comes from acceptance of what actually happened, acceptance of my feelings and compassion for myself as I work through it.
It is a very alien concept to sit within a set of uncomfortable emotions and explore it.
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