inspirational 
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kinda going strong still, but somehow this phase of having trouble staying clean gives me a totally other perspective again on accepting the ‘addict label’ for myself and the powerless. feeling. LIke awkwardly singing the monty phyton “ALways Look On The Bright Side of Life…” pffff 
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Day 3…checking in friends😊
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Congrats @anon89892515, I’m so happy to hear you’re a father now! Wish everything will go well with your wife and baby 
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Checking in…Day 3! 
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wow a year that is fantastic… Inspire to do this 
Well done
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Second check in.
Day 0,81
Today I went to work. It was not easy, hangover from the drink and use binge. I was not motivated all day, and had that “leave me alone” mood.
Just finished with cleaning my house… it was a mess after my last relapse…
I treated myself with a pizza
go to bed early tonight… tomorrow a new day
hopefully with more energy and motivation!
Stay strong 
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A quick check-in at Day 43. Working backwards on posts for the last 24 hrs. A very busy day went to a recruiter fair where I live and made some contacts. London was OK yesterday, all I did was register with Agency (could have done this online) and said what work I was looking for, but did a bit of sightseeing as well. It was a change from gym and home.
Wishing everyone a great day or night
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you will feel better tomorrow I am sure
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Now that is much better
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Checking in on day 153 at the end of the day. Long exhausting day. Tired. Annoyed. Annoyed at hubby. Kids. Glad they are sleeping now and hubby is gone doing some sports. In serious need of some me time. I’m glad I am sober. I learned to feel shitty while sober sometimes too. But all these feelings are so much better when being sober. Life is not always great but a sober life is every second worth it… Have a good evening or afternoon or morning everyone 
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Love this thanks!!!
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HMS Belfast. The old girl’s still there.
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My friendly mushroom man! You are truly an inspiration, the depths that you have gone in your journey is amazing.
I read your posts to see where you have gone today, and although I don’t conciously work anything near what you do, I know that, subconsciously, it is being worked through.
I know this because it has happened that I have woken up thinking about why you have said before.
So thanks.
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Don’t be so hard on yourself. We are all a work in progress. Try giving some of that compassion to yourself. I truly found in my journey that once I was healthier and feeling more positive about my self, I was more able to have compassion for where others are in their journey.
FWIW, I have a couple of people on ignore as well. It keeps me sane and focused on what I can control. 
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I am glad to hear you are compassionate to yourself. Such a positive step for all of us. Like lovingkindess, compassion and empathy can help heal our world.
I know we can easily go down the reactive path with posts and views we disagree with or find offensive. It costs us nothing to be kind and reflective, especially here where so many of us are suffering and fragile. A little kindness goes a long way. We are all humans, doing our best.
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- I failed my driving test. I’m seriously annoyed about it because the examiner took action when he didnt need to. I was slowing to stop at a “Give way” line…no more than 5mph about 15ft away. A car came hurtling past on the wrong side of the road before I even got to the give way line and he slammed his feet on the brake and clutch. He was visibly surprised when he realised I’d already taken action. I questioned him immediately - “Why did you do that?” He got pretty sheepish and said “I just didnt think you were going to stop” I explained to him that I was slowing to stop behind the give way line, the car in front could turn right into the road I was turning out of - the silver car was in the wrong for over-taking at high speed on a single carriageway with no overtake lines in the road. But by this point, hes already failed me. About 3 minutes out of the test centre. I told the examiner that I was done and didnt want to continue with the test. He explained it was my decision… I then explained to him “No, you already decided that half a mile back before I even had the opportunity to make the judgement myself so let’s not waste anymore of eachothers day, hmm?”
I feel pretty robbed to be honest - £62 for a test and £200ish for the instructors time and car for the hour. More so, I’m fucking angry that the examiner didnt actually examine my driving. I understand that he acted upon his own instincts and he did what he wouldve done had he have been driving. If I made a mistake to him as the examiner, then I made a mistake but given his manner afterwards when I called him out, he clearly knew he had.
I’m not going to stay angry at a 70 year old driving examiner whose probably been doing it for 40 or so years. I get that as a new driver, I’m going to make mistakes and if I look back, it probably would be me in the wrong… I cant see it though, I’ve played the tape over and over back and I simply cannot see it.
Anyways… The Chinese horoscope said I was going to have 9 shit months this year and I’ll end up broke. Only another 6 to go
I did actually ask the examiner if he would drive back because I was seething. He told me “I cant, I’m not insured.” Which is funny actually…hes not insured to drive the car but he is allowed to ultimately be in control of it…
Motherfucker.
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Can someone please tell @SassyRocks to take me off ignore?
I know she won’t see this, but I’m a changed person!
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