Such a regal lady your Lady is. Thoughts and love your way. 
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did it, actually stood up at the bar all the time and didn’t touch a drop, had fun (for a funeral), nice to catch up with old friends. Wouldn’t want to make a habit of it incase I become complacent but now I know if needs must just what I’m capable of. Happy days.
How’s your head, I want to meet you and give you a good shake 
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Day 227. No Arnold this weekend, but I still took the day off. Hit three PRs at the gym, and scored some new kicks.
Jett keeping an eye on the gym today:
Have a strong day!!!
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Totally bought those Vans today!!!
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On day 62 now
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Maybe try watching a less annoying film? 
Seriously though, you got this. Remember it’s ok to just go to bed. Friday is just another day of the week.
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Day 101. Traveling, which used to be a big trigger to self medicate, but I realize now that I was constantly making jet lag worse with alcohol. Feel tired but pretty good too
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Day 76
My husband is driving me nuts. He is a real old lady, loves his coupons and pointcards. I don’t care, but when I go shopping and come back it is like the Spanish Inquisition, did I use the coupon, I didn’t forget the point card, did I? I just don’t care, what tiny money is saved in a whole year could be saved by not eating out once, but because I am a people-pleaser I try to do what he wants, but because I myself don’t care often forget, then get nagged at and feel bad. Just hate feeling guilty for not doing something I don’t care about! And I know the solution is he do all the shopping but I have more time. Such a trivial thing but almost everyday and it drives me nuts.
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the TS Community in times of adversity.
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Keep at it Beard… I mean Tallman.
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remember the quote on your photo. It doesn’t matter how long that journey takes mate, just make sure you’ve got a ticket.
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The brains are fragile my friend LOL… They might fall out with a shake hahahaa…
Sounds like you nailed it, but way to go not getting cocky. That can be killer. Shall I say, you nailed it? I would really give yourself a pat on the back for doing so well, it’s deserved.
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You made me chuckle and on the edge of my seat in one post, well done! LOL… You definitely have this… It helps me a bit to play the tape all the way through, how I would feel during and after. During has actually just become awful. After, beyond awful. I never want to withdraw again, ever. But I feel Brittany in there trying to get me to drink again. Whore.
Definitely keep on checking in here. It helps me a lot. And true that, wine is bad bad bad bad… Plus it makes your skin smell funky 
You can do this!!! 
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That’s what’s up!!!
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169 Days. I went into work today and discussed my license issue with my manager. Had to just come clean. I lied and said I got my DUI leaving a wedding last summer rather than the truth that I went out at lunch during work (old job) and totalled my car after drinking a bottle of vodka. She was ok with it and said we’ll just have someone drive you to client meetings. Phew!! She even went on to say she doesn’t know how she’s managed not to get caught drinking and driving. She could actually relate. Then we talked about nights we couldn’t remember driving home. Now I’m thinking she may need help. 
I was able to reschedule my IRDC class that I missed, for April. Hopefully the judge will be lenient since I’m taking action and not ignoring my court orders. I’ll find out on Tuesday. My attorney isn’t giving me any info on possible consequences yet. He said we’ll talk tomorrow. I just wanna know what I’m facing.
I got a used car today and love it. Things are looking a little brighter. I’m gonna stay positive and rely on my HP. I have said the serenity prayer countless times over the past few weeks. It’s really getting me thru all this shit.
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… And 2nd check in… You seriously cannot make this shit up. I quit “PTSD” therapy today because they said they were going in a different direction with my treatment. For weeks we have been going through a timeline of my trauma. I have PTSD from abuse, but also from something the cops did to me. The PTSD from the cops, which I feel, is the worst, and is what I wanted to focus on first, did not fit in there checkboxes. They said, that since it’s not Domestic Violence related (it 100% is, long story, called them for help in violent crisis, they did the opposite), that they are just going to give me Domestic Violence educational therapy and some other crap for 12 weeks. II’m pretty versed in domestic violence ,but thanks. UGH.
I’m too annoyed and pissed off to “even” right now. I told them to take me off the calendar and I’ll let this shit marinate for a bit. This comes after my original therapist never showed up for our sessions. It’s free through the county, so you get what you pay for I guess. It’s almost funny at this point. I’m putting all my trauma back where it belongs. Ignored in my back pocket. I was somewhat fine before I had to start talking about all this crap. What a waste of time. I was flat out uncontrolably sobbing as she walked me out of the building. Thanks lady!
Not tempted to drink at all, I was for a second, but not now. I have been looking at apartments out of the country and/or warmer climates here in the states though LOL… Running away sounds groovy.
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So great to read all of this! What a difference a day makes xoxoxo
Glad it’s all looking up, you really deserve it <3
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Thanks Beth. I thought I was gonna lose it last night but I kept playing that tape. If I went in there hungover this morning, I would have never been able to communicate it properly.
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Wtf?! This is crazy! How the hell do they get away with this is beyond me. They’re basically putting you out. I’m sorry you’re going thru this. Just when you’re dealing with all this trauma, they close the f**king door on you. It’s just not right!!
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