Alright! Here I am.
I am 7 years sober from alchohol in December. I decided yesterday that I was going to sign up to somewhere like this. A lot of hard work has rendered me feeling like I am āvery safe in my sobrietyā. I felt like chances of relapse get less each day, until recently. I feel like I have reached a realisation of a point where I feel so safe, that it makes me wonder, at what point could come complacency. When could that knock on my door? When could it render me moving back towards the more vulnerable edge of the scale.
So upon that realisation, I decided that I would shore up my defences, and start to do some āserviceā work. Service work, I believe may help me just as much as I hope it may help someone else. Itās a bi-directional process right?
Iām not sure what I can offer. Perhaps my offerings might not be so compatible, but iād like to think that sharing some wisdom about my journey at times, may pique someones interest and influence them to make a good decision somehow. Surely, I have to think that!
I have done pretty much f**k all service in my 6 and a bit years of sobriety. I want to give back somehow, to the ācommunityā. At the beginning, AA helped me out massively I believe. And then because of a number of reasons that would be explanations and not excuses, I stopped going, and I donāt think iāve been for 4 years. I WAS living in Iceland for the majority of my sobriety. Iceland was a solace that iām sure helped my sobriety massively, though the AA meetings in Icelandic in the small fishing town I lived in, didnāt lure me in. Again, an explanation, and not an excuse. I could have learnt more icelandic when I was there, or even sought meetings online (especially over covid).
So now comes a change for me. I will see how I can positively affect my own defences with regards to relapsing, build an attack towards taking on life, and start coming to places like this, and go backt o weekly meetings again. I will go to a meeting tomorrow night! I will let you know how it goes.
There is s much more to my story, though I will only share this for now, and only divulge as i go.
I send my bestest and warmest wishes to you all. I sincerely do. No matter who you are. I like to think I can be as non-judgemental, open minded and as potentially helpful as anyone, so please, I am here if you fancy a chat. About anything!
Big Love to all!
Tom