I’m around mate. Nice to know someone, somewhere is thinking of me! 
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Glad you made that choice.
Absolutely right. You’re strength is inspiring. To abstain given your situation means you are becoming a better version of yourself. Can you have a talk with her about how her suggestions are the exact opposite of what you need? Maybe you’ve already had that conversation. I don’t know. Wish I could offer you more advice or some profound words. But you’re right that no one understands an addict like a fellow addict. But they can at least try to understand where you are coming from. Sending you a hug. 
Stay the course. One day at a time.
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Thank you @keiti and @anon17130000. All you wonderful people have made this possible for me. Your support is amazing! 
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Checking in on Day 158. Busy work around the house all day before I get down on some video games this evening. Gym in the a.m., followed by meal prep. Just the same ol same ol.
Have a strong day!!!
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Relapsed last night. Drank half a bottle of rum and I feel so guilty and in fear for my health. I’ve been drinking heavily for about 2.5 years. Every time I wake up from a night of heavy drinking I feel so guilty for a day then I’m right back at it. I have to convince myself that I WILL die if I keep on this path. 
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No need to convince yourself, you will. No better time to stop than right now. Dump it out, make a plan and stick around here for support. There are a lot of different ways to get sober, but you’re going to need support: AA, smart recovery, rehab, this site or all of them. Stay connected and learn from the others on this site who are doing it. Hope you find the strength to make that change.
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Fear of death was never really a motivator for me to get sober. In fact I pretty much welcomed death. I think what finally got me was the fear of not dying. The fear of continuing to live my life in active addiction. Death I could handle, life I could not.
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Just take your time sir. Good things are worth waiting for
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It’s been a crazy day but it’s a bit easier knowing people like you are out there.
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Checking in, day 180 today. I’m so thankful that I found this community, and grateful for it. Sober life = my best life, for sure 
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Woohoo! Congrats on 6 months and Thanks for sharing the accomplishment with us. It helps me tremendously to see others achieving what I want. 
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Go you! Well done.
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Wow @Pelicanitu Shane, you have done amazingly well and you have saved an incredible amount of money! Well done 
Somehow my savings don’t seem to increase on the app, it just stays the same…
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11 years is amazing. I am really struggling with nicotine cravings at the moment. I had hoped it would go away but it seems to be getting worse. Over 14 months nicotine free 
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Day 7 down.
Had a friend come down to make my kids cosplay outfits for the next anime expo.
Her man is my ex band mate and we used to drink obsessively. He asked why I went offline on Instagram and I had to tell him I’m done drinking and I struggle with messages of people inviting me out.
He understood. His wife said she’s trying to get him to stop too. He said she forgot her ID and they were planning to go out. I think she did it on purpose.
We had cheese, fancy cheese, but before y’all think I’m all show off, we turned on the Netflix fireplace show lol! To set the mood 
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At like 12 at night I noticed him just anxious and moving and moving… he asked if we had drinks, I told him I do but I won’t drink. He asked for a glass of whiskey and it kinda just made the room freeze.
His wife nodded and my wife watched me. I gave him a glass of a bottle I still had. And got myself a water. He calmed down but I felt bad…
Should I have done that?
They left at 3 am and we had a great sober time, well 3/4.
When they were leaving he told his wife, let’s get some beers… she sighed…
I felt bad, he told me of another band mate I havnt seen in years, how he’s begging for change for beers on the street corner…
Today I made it through a funeral, I was worried cause taking a shot is customary. I went to the restroom during this time. I made it through this Friday. The devil is testing me.
Attached is a picture of my sons cosplay suit, he’s Vivi from Final fantasy 9. Daughters is currently being made.
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14 months is incredible! I know how difficult it is to get there. Have you been craving all along? Or is this new? Are you taking in any nicotine?
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