Wow @Pelicanitu Shane, you have done amazingly well and you have saved an incredible amount of money! Well done 
Somehow my savings donāt seem to increase on the app, it just stays the sameā¦
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11 years is amazing. I am really struggling with nicotine cravings at the moment. I had hoped it would go away but it seems to be getting worse. Over 14 months nicotine free 
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Day 7 down.
Had a friend come down to make my kids cosplay outfits for the next anime expo.
Her man is my ex band mate and we used to drink obsessively. He asked why I went offline on Instagram and I had to tell him Iām done drinking and I struggle with messages of people inviting me out.
He understood. His wife said sheās trying to get him to stop too. He said she forgot her ID and they were planning to go out. I think she did it on purpose.
We had cheese, fancy cheese, but before yāall think Iām all show off, we turned on the Netflix fireplace show lol! To set the mood 
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At like 12 at night I noticed him just anxious and moving and movingā¦ he asked if we had drinks, I told him I do but I wonāt drink. He asked for a glass of whiskey and it kinda just made the room freeze.
His wife nodded and my wife watched me. I gave him a glass of a bottle I still had. And got myself a water. He calmed down but I felt badā¦
Should I have done that?
They left at 3 am and we had a great sober time, well 3/4.
When they were leaving he told his wife, letās get some beersā¦ she sighedā¦
I felt bad, he told me of another band mate I havnt seen in years, how heās begging for change for beers on the street cornerā¦
Today I made it through a funeral, I was worried cause taking a shot is customary. I went to the restroom during this time. I made it through this Friday. The devil is testing me.
Attached is a picture of my sons cosplay suit, heās Vivi from Final fantasy 9. Daughters is currently being made.
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14 months is incredible! I know how difficult it is to get there. Have you been craving all along? Or is this new? Are you taking in any nicotine?
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Day 13 here. I usually check in first thing in the morning but today I was up and hit the ground running. Ive been reading on and off all day but havenāt had time to write until now. This is a good thing because it means Iām staying busy which for me is the key to staying sober. Hope everyone is having a happy sober Saturday. I hit 2 weeks tomorrow woo woo!!! 
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No nicotine at all in that time. I have had the odd pang here and there but in the last month or so itās really been on my mind a lot. I have been having drinking and smoking dreams, where I am disgusted with myself for drinking but fine with the smoking and basically carrying on and just smoking the odd cig here and there (just one wonāt hurt! Although I obvs just basically end up smoking).
I have a phone call scheduled with my GP next week to review my antidepressants, so will bring it up with him then. I think stopping smoking unleashed some mental health stuff and I am wondering if changing things up might help.
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This resonates with me. A lot.
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Day 266. Checking in. Still learning daily, working hard to keep my head on straight. All the best to everyone, safe and sober holidays!
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Interesting! Ask about Wellbutrin, if that is of a class you tolerate. I took it for about 6 or 7 months when I quit smoking and it helped me on both fronts. In the interim, walks and sugar free life savers.
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Will ask about it, thanks! And definitely need some sugar free lifesavers or some local equivalent.
Have not been very active recently either which Iām sure isnāt helping. Need to get some more walks in!
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I have every faith you will figure it out and move past this unsettling time.
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Day 47 checking in.
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Day 727
Itās almost 3am and I canāt sleep 
I think I ate something wrong, I was on the throne so often today that I have problems sitting 
And I might die tonight thanks to my bloated belly and the amounts of farts I produce
Still got my humor tho 
Yay
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Congrats on 
days too sober twin!!!
Feels awesome to get a bit of distance from active addiction. Keep running in the right direction!
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Thank you for your support @no-longer-a-victim Tony! No doubt I spent a lot of time and money on my addiction until both ran out but in order to get my life back and live the way I deserve, I had to keep my promise to myself and put the bottle down. It hasnāt been easy of course but the amount of energy that was put into my addiction had to be put into my sobriety, so far so good. I hope everyone with their addiction gets the strength and courage I did and leave it behind them, itās just something we used to do like picking our nose and eating our boogers, it did nothing for us and its grossš
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622/9. I had another really good day today with my kids. This Christmas break Iāve tried to stay in the present as much as possible. We went to the park, made slime, went to a coffee shop and sat outside looking at the clouds lol, scootering, skateboarding, hanging with family, watching Lost In Space in bed. Quality time.
Iām happy to be sober and have been for some time now. But I keep getting told that with the amount of sober days I have I āshould be less of a terrible personā. Tired of living in groundhogs day. I really never want to be trapped or controlled by anything ever again. Yay for new beginnings and staying sober and staying out of the addictive, toxic cycle drugs and alcohol brings.
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- Need to hurry so a quickie. Feeling a bit better. Was at a birthday party in a bar with an incredible amount of special beers on draught. Wasnāt tempted but felt a bit uneasy about asking for a soda (?). Stayed only shortly. Work now. Sober and clean. Have a good Sunday all! Love from Amsterdam.
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Checking in on day 48.
Tomorrow I head home from my parents houseā¦Which means, I made it through the whole Christmas holiday without drinking! Feeling really proud of myself and much stronger in my sobriety. (Practice makes perfect they say!) I was pretty tempted one day this week, when I was feeling particularly irritated with a family member, but I quickly realized that drinking would only make things worse in the long runā¦So glad I was able to see that clearly!
I just got back from a book club meeting tonight with three of my girlfriends, and it was fantastic as usual! Lots of yummy food and great conversation. (Two of them drank, and two of us didnāt)ā¦Bubbly water for the win!
Sooooooo looking forward to waking up tomorrow and heading home hangover free. I will need to do a little recovering over the next few days, (catching up on some sleep and unwinding from the busy, people filled holiday), but at least I wonāt be recovering from hangovers, drinking anxiety, and depression. So grateful to have this sober holiday season under my belt. 
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Fancy room! And nice view too, hope you have a great vacation!
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18 days! I know itās not a lot, but Iāve never been prouder of myself.
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