Cola addict


#21

Ten days is awesome!


#22

MADE IT TO DAY 15!!!
I had a dream the other day I drank a large coke and I was really frustrated with myself and knew I would have to reset my clock. I am really proud of myseld not having any soda period for 15 days. I am very inspired by all of your stories and it gives me strength.


#23

Woooooo hooooooo!!! Way to go!


#24

Time to get real. I am on day 16… halleluja. I talk to my therapist every other week and he encouraged me to share some deeper reasons why I have used food and cola as coping.
As with any relationship, marriage and being a mother hasnt been easy. Whenever I would feel frustrated with anything… I would go to the pantry and get a cola. Then when that was empty, Id have another whenever I became thirsty. Basically some days I wouldnt drink water… because I had coke. Along with the coke and stress I would eat handfuls od chocolate. Any kind. If neither of these were at home… I would go out to eat. I would get extras for later…which always ended up being the same day.
My husband confessed about a year ago about using porn to cope with stress. We had steadily been growing distant and he kept lying to me and we would fight… so to the pantry I would turn. Or fast food.
As he has been trying to figurout his own steps for recovery I have found myself falling deeper into my own food addiction…and I shot up 25 lbs in less than 6 months. I was already over weight…but this made me even fatter… which made me more depressed…and I felt the lack of connection…and shame of gaining weight and people asking if i was pregnant…but I just kept drinking and eating more. I found myseld no longer enjoying coke… but drinking pop because I had to. It was my new water.
Then… my husband relapsed. And I decided if he has to work on recovery… I needed to too. Because we are both depressed and ashamed…and hurting ourselved, each other, and our sweet sweet little girls.
So here I am. 16 days later. I stood on the scale today. I have lost 5 lbs… just from not drinking soda… because it has been my gateway to whatever I want to drown feeling sad.
I super love this app. i am so grateful to have access to it. Even though I dont know anyone I know I can be accountable and understood and empathised with.


#25

Day 17!
Like I have said before… I have struggled with my weight… for 5 years I was about 25 lbs over weight… and now I’m 50.
I used to be a ballet dancer. I started as a young kid… and began teaching at the age of 15. I graduated college at 20 and never danced again. I watched a video just now of a beautiful dancer. I would love to loose weight and gain strength just to feel the way I used to feel when I danced. I didnt dance for excercise. It wad the way I moved and I loved it. I have avoided watching ballet and dancing because it was such a huge part of my life. I had a positive thought though… I just realized for the first time I dont have to remove it from my life… I can have it as a goal to try again.


#26

Congratulations on Day 17!! You’re kicking ass and feeling better and better each day!!


#27

day 19. today was really rough. I am afraid if I had access to soda today I would have drank it. :frowning: but… i didnt.


#28

made it 21 days without cola or pop… however I drank a no sugar drink called ice drink… which is something I didnt want to do because it is my gateway. I am recommiting to not having any sweetened drink because thats where Instart.


#29

Thank you for sharing your story. How did yesterday go? Are you and your husband checking with each other, or is that too much right now?


#30

Im on day 25! We somewhat check in…he could do better with that. I dont want to be the one asking all the time! But so far I think he is doing alright. He is seeing a councelor regularly now which he hasnt done on his own ever before…
and hes had 3 sessions so far. a really good start!
thanks for checking up!


#31

I am on day 25! I am more surprised than like thrilled. I wish I was more like motivated like I didnt want pop. The annoying fact is that I still do. We are going camping and my life long tradition has been tp get a giant pepsi from the gas station for my road trip and we are camping so a nice cold coke or pepsi would hit the spot. I cant let myself though… because I will find a way to justify it every day. So… here is to my first trip/outing in my life (literally since i was like 7 years old) where I am not going to have a pop.


#32

day 29. I made it through the trip without pop. I have to admit I thought I was on a roll when I lost 5 lbs… but now its only 2 lbs. My cola addict brain says why would I keep resisting pop when my reward is 2lbs for 29 days?
I am still wanting to drink it. All the time! Any chance I could have a chance I still want it. And so I tell myself no. I wish I didnt want it. I keep comparing myself to other women who drink pop or diet pop and are still skinny… I gotta stop comparing myself. So here I am admitting it.
It is silly that I can think so much and be preoccupied so much by one thing. thats my checkin.


#33

I mix grapefruit la croix 50/50 with organic orange juice if I need a sweet refreshing fix. I had to give up caffeine due to anxiety so this is my go to morning drink. I also enjoy lemon, cucumber, or mint in my water for an extra kick. Unsweetened tea is always a good choice too.


#34

31 days. On our way back from camping we stopped at mcdonalds, i tried a tiny tiny sip of root beer… I dont like root beer. It was haed not to get a coke. It was free slurpee day and I took my kids. The nice man handed me a slurpee cup. I filled it with water.


#35

Good for you! I quit soda of any kind a couple decades ago. I seriously only drink water (and RO or distilled at that). Tea maybe on a very rare occasion. Maybe a sip of cranberry juice or almond milk once in a while. If someone has a juicer and they’re handing out free carrot juice, I’ll take a big glass of that. Once or twice a year I treat myself to a half-decaf soy latte. I have always felt that soda pretty much eats you from the inside out (especially the colas and the diet sodas). You must be feeling a lot better without it!


#36

I have noticed my physical anxiety symptoms have decreased a good bit. Less racing heart!
I’m on day 35!
I could use extra support this week. i am going to visit my mother in law and she actually introduced me to cocacola as like a primary drink. she drinks it every day every meal. she always wants to split one with me. i havent told her i am quitting it. it will be very hard being in her house with tons of cola go spare.