Hi and a warm welcome for you here!
At first congratulations with a baby on the way! That is so special!
Consistency, good question!
I can only look to myself and my recovery proces. In the awareness period I quit for a few days, maybe a week not more.
Like I was not wanting it enough. Like I was aware of the problem and trying to cope with it by balancing with not drinking for a while and then drinking because I stayed sober for a few days and deserved some.
It finally clicked in when things really got over the line for me. Then I really, really wanted it!
I found this app and decided to stay and put in the effort every day. I also made a plan for myself how to become and stay sober. Just something practical to give my recovery hands and feet.2 years sober and what helped me to get there: Maybe you see something in it you can use too. I would alse reccoment to read this tread: What's YOUR plan? Put the time you did drinking in reading recoverybooks, ore podcasts about it. It’s like building a new house brick by brick, day by day.
I’m sorry it isn’t going well @SolarEclipse , I was worried when I read your replies. Open for pm as well.