hey Jen it’s great you want to change your life and you won’t regret it if you do. It sounds like you need to ask yourself tho, are you willing to put in the work it takes? recovery is about learning what you are habitually hiding and escaping from through your use, facing your fears and changing your life such that you won’t feel the need to escape anymore. it’s a long term commitment and it won’t work to side-hustle it.
there are online meetings on the in the rooms app.
there are tons of resources and it’s kinda necessary to immerse yourself in recovery content and really start asking the hard questions and taking a long look at yourself, if you want your sobriety to prosper.
Resources for our recovery
this is a great community. use the opportunity to read 24/7 and learn from others as well as to share your own story and progress. all these are vital elements of recovery, they have benefitted everyone on here w long time sobriety.
Your #1 tip for sobriety (over 2 years sober)
it can be done, but only if you do it.
best of luck!