In the morning, I am going into detox.
After my 5 days of detox I’m hoping to go right away into a rehab facility.
I know this is something I need to do cause I have ruined way to much in my life to continue using.
That doesn’t mean I’m not terrified. Any advice?
It’s going to suck, prepare yourself for this inevitability!
Guess, that’s not really advice, but the mental acceptance is a good start.
I saw my self as two separate people. The person quitting and the person that wanted to use. The person that wanted to use would do everything in its power to trick and manipulate me to use one last time!
My body was on the person that wanted to uses side. I gave the user side power over my thoughts and body. I needed to take back my mind first, the body would later follow.
Once I took over my mind, the addiction side tried to use my body to convince me that the only way the pain would go away was for me to use again!!! That is a straight up lie, you can’t fall for that!
Every time I finally went to sleep. I woke up just a little bit stronger mentally and physically. Not nearly fast enough! Initially you can’t even notice the changes… just a struggle. I still sleep like crap, but I’m so much more mentally engaged.
Best of luck! Don’t be afraid to cry, pray and remember the pain you overcome daily until your thankful it’s gone and out of your life!!!
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@Colt14 I did the same thing you’re doing. I went from detox to rehab. I was 1200 miles from home. Scared to death and madder than hell at the whole world. I went in with an attitude to detox went from there to rehab with the same attitude. if I can give you in any advice I tell you to go in with an open mind. don’t hold back and be honest with yourself and with your counselors. And don’t have an attitude like I had it’s not worth it. That’s the only way that that’s going to work. And don’t be in a hurry to come home stay as long as your insurance will pay, because the longer you stay the better it will work. Good luck 
and I’ll pray for you. I know you’ll do good don’t be afraid. You will meet a lot of good people, people just like us.People that have made the same mistakes, that have walked the same roads, crawled down the same alley, use the same drugs and drink the same booze. We will be here when you get out will be praying for you:hugs:
and remember every time you want to go home, say no I’ve got to stay. This is the best thing I can do for me! I am doing this for me! and for a better a life for me! and for my future children wife family! And it is not a selfish thing to do!
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I like what lizak said. Keeping a positive attitude and being open minded is the key. It’s scary not knowing. But, from experience , the detox part is gonna suck. But rehab is awesome! Look forward to lots of support. And getting to know yourself in ways you’d never imagined. Gaining trust, and learning how to trust yourself again. You were given an opportunity. Don’t be afraid. And if you believe in God, give it all to Him.
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Congrats, keep your head up know that we have all been there and there are many to follow. Most of all know that you are not alone