I am having one of those nights that feels like it will never end. I’m having trouble processing appreciation and resentment. I miss how alcohol makes me feel. It’s only been a day or two. This feels impossible. I want to give up, give in. But I wont.
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Look for HALT and some distraction. Funny videos, a book, a late night hot shower, light scented candles. Sending kindness and hugs 
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Hi Kay. Hang in there, the cravings will pass, I promise. Sitting with difficult emotions is something we just start learning, when the sobriety journey starts. Coming here and writing it down is an excellent way to deal with it. Just hang in there a little longer. Read around, get involved. This will help.
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Hi Kay, I know it feels like trying to herd cats, thoughts racing around and obsessing over it. That’s the addiction trying to push itself back into your life.
Stay connected with other people in recovery (here on Talking Sober is good; visiting recovery meetings is good too - there’s a list here: Resources for our recovery), do some self-care at home: comfort food, a warm bath, peaceful music.
It will pass, and then you’ll have another sober healthy day.
Welcome to Talking Sober! 
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Distract yourself as much as you need to not use. You can deal with other stuff later but right now the only goal is staying sober.
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@Kaysgoals Welcome Kay to Talking Sober.
You’re in the right place, good job for reaching out. Cravings will pass even if they seem overwhelming, go for a walk or find a distraction until it passes. You could also start tracking your cravings, believe it or not writing it down on paper will help it pass more quickly. Remember that resentment is just hurting yourself, if you want to be happy you need to let that stuff go. It doesn’t really matter who’s right and who’s wrong. Try and see your part in the situation, what could you have done to avoid it altogether?
I hope you are doing better now and congratulations on making it through day 1.
Another thing that would help a lot is an AA meeting, look online for times/locations of meetings in your area and go to one.
I can relate I’m on day three and rather grumpy, my mantra is to sit in my discomfort because this isn’t easy.
Just wanted to check in on you. How are you doing @Kaysgoals?