January 12th:
Everything is tired from it, then adding onto it, i got two teeth pulled on Day 1 and I am in a world of pain still as one did not come out easy. They should also call it breaking teeth out of your fucking jawbone, because there is no pulling involved apparently. I don’t fit in a bathtub, lol, but the idea is nice. I went and saw “Ben is Back” last night in the theater after my meeting, then I went home and crashed.
Today I am just tired again even though I got 9 hours of sleep. I have work until 5pm and then I have a meeting at 7-8. This is a SMART meeting, gonna try everything out because I never really liked AA meetings except for that young peoples one the other day. My stomach feels so bloated and painful and I cant go to the bathroom, im just praying this all ends semi soon so I can just have to deal with the mental aspect of the cravings and not the physical also.
I am glad I am doing this, but I wish I had more support from the people I loved, at least after this I will know who my real friends are.
Sorry for getting long winded, this is really taking a toll on me physically and emotionally.
But I am grateful I am sober Day 3 heading into Day 4.
SIDE NOTE
I am also putting 13.00 a day (I figure I spend 90 a week on buying alcohol, not including going out to drink or Uber’s because I’m drinking) into another account and in a month I will make a lump payment (394.00) to a credit card, to help bring down my debt. I will probably up it another 10 bucks a day to cover going out and Uber’s also for next month making it 697 a month extra I pay.