I’m counting on it 
“this too shall pass” right?
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I’m taking life by the horns and making it my bitch. 209 days without a drop. Yeah, there were some struggles with cravings, but I didn’t cave in. Zero relapses! Ive got this! I can’t wait for my year mark!
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Thanks for that little spark of “go get em tiger”. You’re a legend and an inspiration!
Keep at it!
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It’s a shitty feeling falling off the wagon. I swear it’s worse than whatever it is that drives us NOT to drink.
I used to do competition shooting and there’s a bar with a row of (6) steel plates that you knock down one at a time. If I rushed and missed, I went back to pick up the one that I missed, which threw off my mind and I had to realign my sites. My coach used to tell me, on the range and as my life mentor, when ever I got bogged down on something I had done, he said, “The shot was fired. Move on.”
You can’t take back the shot, but hanging around on that one thing that already “happened” can distract you from running the rest of the course clean and focused.
He was a wise man. Lost him a few years ago, but his wisdoms are alive and well.
The shot was fired. It’s better to have a bunch of “Day 1’s”, than Day None. Fall off, wallow in it, screw it! Then figure out a different technique. You’ll find it! I am inspired by those that have done it, as well as those on Day 1…
I have faith in you…your honesty will carry you far. Good for you! Truth is freeing of the spirit to let us live guilt-free.
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You are a legend. Its 3.32am I’m gna try sleep again. And your words will resonate with me probably forever. You missed the shit move on. great respect for tour input thank you!
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Much love to you too Stacey. You are a sober soldier. Sober sergeant 
- wishing you a peaceful night tonight. Take a bath, rest, sit with yourself. You are enough 
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Thanks Matt. I managed to hop in bed at like 3am. 
tbh I feel like resetting my counter cause I use food and other stuff to compensate my no drug use. But I didnt use my DOC or abuse mg meds so I’m unsure if i should 
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Thank you so much for your encouragement. Have an awesome day!!!
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Don’t reset. Your brain is adjusting to life without the dopamine and highs and lows of using. Chocolate or cookies or whatever is just part of that reset. There are lots of other people in recovery here who have been through the same thing - I’ve seen people sharing about their cookies, their chips, their whatever. It’s ok. Be kind to yourself. Be forgiving. As addicts we tend to hold ourselves to these unrealistically high standards of behaviour (and this perfectionism feeds our addiction, feeds our sense of unworthiness and our desire to escape). Cut yourself some slack. It’s ok.
And who knows man. Do you like baking? Why not make yourself some cookies? Enjoy them, if you like. There’s nothing like some chocolate chip cookies and milk
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Awe, Stacey. I feel you upset girl. Don’t worry about eating etc. Just don’t use. Do whatever to take your mind off it. Even cleaning a in the early hours. 
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This morning its avocado toast…lots of avocado toast lol
I am actually diagnosed with a high perfectionism trait which makes life hard sometimes.
So I’m gna not reset and try to be kind to myself. I atleast put some washing on today 
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Yeah atleast I woke up and the house was so nice and tidy hahaha
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Thank you God for my life today. Its becoming a little easier I’m just well aware of what will happen if I don’t continue to do Alcoholics Anonymous. My life is very busy today and things do come up we’re I want to put blame on other things and not take responsibility but I can’t do that anymore I have to be responsible for my Sobriety my recovery my attitude my energy and be grateful that I’m even alive today and appreciate everything that is around and in me. I am one of those alcoholic addicts that should of been dead a hundred times but I’m not dead. I just stopped believing my old thoughts and beliefs because i couldn’t keep myself sober and I started practicing and living A.A. Everyday is a gift. We can help ourselves by being self-less. We can gain victory by surrendering. But I had to come to a point an understanding about what happens when I put That first drink or drug in my body after time sober. I lose complete control. And then making that insane decision from a sober state of Mind shows me its not the alcohol or drugs that’s the problem its my thinking. Sure it might make me feel good at first but my experience shows that I end up in alcoholic torture. I can’t keep doing that to myself or my loved ones. I hope everyone has a beautiful sober day
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Well done you’re amazing!!!
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Good! You’re perfectly imperfect Stacey. We don’t want you any other way
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It is so beautiful to be loved so unconditionally, with a connection purely devised out of mutual chaos! Thanks @Matt. Your support is actually like amazing.
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I’m probably gna be kn here most of the day…I am craving HARD!
Not gna gave but I want to
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Life is handing me some…not nice cards atm…
fighting hard for day 3. Really hard…
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don’t give up @swam. Don’t give up those 3 days. It’s easier to keep the heart clean than to clean it after it’s been defiled.
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I’ve had like 3 candycanes. God is handing me some intense things today. It’s making it much harder to deal with my cravings. 
pray for me…please.
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