Hey everyone thank you so much for spurring me on! Sorry I’ve been quiet I’ve been lazy with checking in. No excuse. So mu ex and o decided to use the rest of Feb to say goodbye to pirnromaric feelings and then we are gna have a break and be strictly friends. We don’t wanna be out of each others lives. I’m gna struggle heaps being on my own and dealing with what comes with that. I finally got my book and have read page one haha but no step work yet but u want to move forward and try .
Glad to hear from you @Swam and that you are OK. Sounds like a healthy decision regarding your ex but also a difficult one. We’re here to encourage you as you navigate that path. Reach out when you need to.
Hey team checking in on day 47 I finally built up the courage to start on my step one and I’ve managed to do 2 questions. My sponsor seems like she wants to bail, I dont think she knows how to handle my mental health and the struggles i face but i guess I’m still in it so thats something. I dont know if she is gna bail or not shes been ignoring my messages. I have to take responsibility because I let mybfear get in the way and it came across to her like I wasn’t really in it, but I hope knowing I’ve started my questions reassures her that I mean business. I hope you are all doing okay. I’m pretty…I dna…unstable at the moment but atleast I have managed to stay away from weed so that’s something. All the love darlings.
Happy to hear you’re starting the steps. I finally put my fears aside and started too. Maybe you can just text your sponsor and let her know you’re serious about this and ask her if she’s on board. Communication is key since this is a relationship so to speak. If she’s not, then you can move on and find someone else. You wanna keep this momentum going so don’t let anyone waste your time. Always thinking about you Stacey and happy when I see you post.
She would really be getting you and guiding you through working the steps. I’m sorry that your in a bad place right now Stacey I hope that things start to look up for you soon. We are always thinking of and routing for you m8.
Checking in on DAY 50 who knew. Who friggin knew. I’m starting to feel more comfortable without my DOC and that’s neat. I’m tryna do little bits of step work now. I realised I’m obsessed with not having to sit with myself and that’s probably why I use or cling so desperately to my ex. It’s a sad thing to learn but my Higher Power is helping me everyday. I want to be different and it’s tough. The struggle is real. But working the program has shown me change is possible and if I hold onto my HP and keep at it, I can keep my days under my belt. I’m struggling with my pain meds still. Not so much abusing them but I realised recently I am dependent on them and that’s scary, I know I’ll have to come off them eventually once my pain gets sorted but it is going to be tough. So here’s to another clean and sober day. Sending prayers and love to you all x
Yay! Congrats on 50 days! Look at you growing and flourishing. You’re really working your program hard and I’m so proud of you. Pls be careful with the pain meds and keep following dr orders. I thought I had them under control until it was time to wean off after back surgery. I found I couldn’t reduce the dosage and before I knew it I was running out and buying them on the streets. I spiraled out of control and ended up in detox. I’m only telling you this bc I thought it could never happen to me. Sorry, I’m not trying to scare you. As long as you follow dr orders, you’ll be fine. Just stay vigilant. Sending you lots of hugs and keep up the good work.
Yeah 100% got the same warning from the pharmacist. I’m a little nervous but I’m gna ask my doctor to wean me off super slow so it’s a success . I dont need another battle on my hands haha
This is great to hear Stacey.
Basically, that’s the main things we need to do, become comfortable without our doc and become comfortable with ourselves.
After that, all else will drop into place.
Happy for you! 
How insane is that