So is today 100 @Swam??
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I think we can celebrate?
Would you like tiramisu Stacey? 
Congratulations with your 
days!!
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101 and counting!!! Congrats on that you Beaut 
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I love Tiramisu! @Swam congrats on your 100, and if it’s ok with you I’ll bring some cheesecake to the party:
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Hey team,
Checking in at 102 days today 
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You guys are so silly hehehehe I love it!!! I hadn’t checked in been pretty tired the last couple days. But I just came to check in and saw all this cake!!! Hahahaha
You guys are amazing!
I feel so loved!
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Hey everyone,
Checking in on day 104. I have been SO co contructive the last few days. My house is finally organized from my room to my bathroom. I even organized my bathroom cupboards and all my make up. I’m so excited. I’ve got step work to do tonight still and maybe a meeting before bed. I’m also working on some bible assignments for the class I’m doing plus trying to improve my touch typing skills. So it’s been a productive few days and now I can do my routine and be ontop of things. I’ve been struggling to figure out who I am, but i cant figure that out…while I wait i am focussing on doing stuff…so i color in now and then study do step work attend meetings do my daily routine…soon I will incorporate daily walks and karate training. So things are going well in terms of what I’m doing. I’m not just waiting for time to pass anymore so maybe it’s a step forward.
I hope you are all doing well on your journey. It would be cool to get and update from each person who follows my thread.
Love you guys
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Hi Stacey,
Congratulations on your great progress, you’ve done really well!
It is a life long process to learn to accept oneself, warts and all. We can be so harsh on ourselves, so self critical and sensitive.
We’re in this together so keep moving forward, keep smiling and go well!
P. S. I’ve hit 276 days no booze, but keep giving in to OCD DOC 
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What are OCD and DOC if I may ask. Sorry if that’s a stupid question. But congratulation on abstaining from alcohol for that long. That’s huge!!!
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OCD = obsessive compulsion disorder
DOC = drug of choice
“SHUT UUUUUP!” 
"You STUPID USELESS piece of S@#$!"
"Please stop yelling at me…
:
"YELLING?? Do you want to see F@#%ING YELLING you WORTHLESS NOTHING!!! 
NOOOOTHING!!!"
“I’m sorry…I’ll try harder…
”
"PFFT!"
“I swear I’ll be better…
”
“You suck at EVERYTHING. YOU F@#$ everything up!”
“I’ll try harder I swear…
”
And then I realise there is only one voice
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Sorry guys just an artistic piece. Needed to get it out.
Sorry if my last post was abit aggressive. It was meant to be an artistic expression if the anger I have towards myself while still being vulnerable and afraid. I hope it didnt upset anyone.
I am happy to take it down if it’s too hard to see. I am a bully to myself and this was the best way I knew how to express how I can abuse myself internally.
Sorry again team.
Not too aggressive at all. I liked it a lot. We’ve all been there at some point and that’s the beauty of this site, let your thoughts and feelings out so they don’t eat you up being held inside.
So happy to see all the sober days you’ve been able to build! Keep up the amazing work and give yourself a pat on the back. You deserve it!
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I don’t see any reason to take it down. You’re expressing yourself and there’s absolutely nothing wrong with that. You’re doing great Stacey, 4 months is right around the corner.
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Thanks so much love
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Thanks so much for the support.
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Hey everyone,
Checking in…feeling vulnerable and under some pressure…abit…not okay. I know itll pass. But it’s still something I’m experiencing.
2.45am…cant sleep.step work done. Memorizing done. Maybe time for some medically induced sleep and fingers crossed. Prayers to you all.
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122 days my friends. Today is a good day. Bright sunny warm. I’m grateful for another day as a clean bean. Grateful for good friends @DuncanNZ. Grateful for food and water. Grateful I am alive and learning about my Higher Power. I love you all.
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