Me too! I think the history of it is so cool!
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Totally. Old mining town turned arts communityā¦my now husband and I were trying to elope and we tried to get married there and the clerk at the courthouse had to break it to us that weād have to go to Phx instead 
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It would have been a very cool wedding spot!
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Sending hugs your way 
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Iām grateful to God thank you for giving me the strength to remain clean and sober. Iām grateful that I have some experience with digging down for gratitude on good or bad days. Iām grateful that I know doing some gratitude on the hard days works really well for this guy. Iām grateful that I know I could go on another rant and maybe get some relief and that this is the safest space to do so, in my opinion, on this app. Iām grateful that it isnāt necessary to go into detail at this stage of my recovery, but maybe it could help someone else (and being honest its helped me before)soā¦ fair warning this will be at risk of partly being a list of issues rather than gratitude so I apologise in advance but I donāt participate on the check in thread anymore, soā¦here goes this will be very longā¦
Iām grateful that I can admit I have been struggling with feeling lonely a lot lately, particularly at days end, large parts of my life I had a girlfriend, wife, or even just a pet to cuddle with and talk to. Iām still very grateful that these last 4+ years single have allowed me to grow and change and get a few years sober, practicing patience on the relationship bit is tough at the moment. Iām grateful that I am talking with Kelley but it is not often and she live hours away, and, as the saying goes, she is an ex for a reason. Iām grateful to realise that some of my struggles lately stem from me trying to do too much and not working on my patience and probably a few other principles. I am volunteering time in the treatment center kitchen, working with sponsees, building relationship with my parents and sisters, doing service work with NA and AA being a greeter, key holder and back up treasurer, writing and attempting to pass an online food safety course, applying for a two year college program, attempting to participate regularly with you gratidudes, whom I love. Throughout all this there is some stress added that my sponsor has not been answering me for days. Two of my very close supports started drinking again within the past couple weeks, one was calling me all kinds of names, partly for attempting to hold him accountable which he had requested, (ahhhh) The other is a housemate and one of my closest friends for the year and a half that I have been here. I am fielding questions from staff and mutual friends about him, yet again, for weeks now. Iām grateful that I realize I can let these things go, give them to God and stop trying to control everything, but it does affect me and is harder to do than I care to admit at times. Iām grateful to be going to my parents this Saturday for Thanksgiving but am scared since my neices will be there and they donāt know me, at one time my sister literally sheltered them from me like she was scared for them to be around me (a resentment I have been working on) I am also nervous because their dad, my brother in law is still stuck in his own drinking, which could be triggering, my parents have been asking me to help with that, since they are very aware ( and gratefully believe me because my actions reflect it , not just hollow words any more) that I am doing much better and have quit drinking for years. Iām grateful that they asked but I feel it is probably not appropriate for me to get involved. Iām grateful that I still am clean and sober but can admit through being honest, open minded and willing that I really am all over the place schedule wise, sleeping weird hours, not cleaning up the house, procrastinating with getting my high school transcript for Thursdays college meeting, it is almost Wednesday now, talk about fearing my own self sabbotage. Now, instead of going to bed I am writing this. Recently I stayed up almost all night obsessing about all the places I have lived and jobs I have had, even started trying to remember my sexual encounters like wow thatās hard for a blacked out alcoholic and addict to remember, emabarising to admit I lost track, I was at one time, one of those guys competing with their friends on who could score the most, so immature,i guess that was twenty years ago I rationalize, meh, fucking obsessive compulsive addictive thinking and actions are hard to deal with, (I used to drown them out with drugs and booze) Sooo . I figured out that I have had approximately eighty different jobs (some good, some bad) as well as eighty different apartments, houses, and or crash spots, talk about first step stuff of life becoming unmanagable. Iām grateful to understand that all this is possibly necessary for me to accept and move past but damn it if isnāt hard to do. Iām grateful that alot of this uncovering my past and planning for the future is necessary as I want a future for one, and am working on fixing the wreckage of the past for two. Iām grateful I have been asked to speak my story at a meeting soon and that is also why I have been ruminating trying to piece together my āstoryā so here you guys got to hear quite a bit of it. Iām grateful I havenāt smoked a cigarette for a year and no nicotine for 316 day. Iām grateful no drugs have entered my system for 627 fucking days in a row a major miracle right there. Iām grateful for 781 days without any alcohol. Iām grateful that I can admit that I started doing drugs before smoking or drinking hence it being such a big deal to me. Iām very grateful that I finally came to the realization back on Nov. 8, 2019 that I couldnāt successfully quit or chnge on my on. Iām grateful that after that realization it only took until November 10th 2019 for me to check into detox under my own power. Iām grateful I remember these dates and well as January 17 2020 my drug clean date. Iām grateful I can admit that when I heard people share specific dates in there recovery stories I didntāt belive them. Iām very grateful to have reached a stage where I believe them now. Iām grateful to get all this out and to have some hope for myself again. Iām grateful I can pray to God to help me accomplish my goals and to accept that If I donāt reach them it wasnāt meant to be.
God bless you all. 
& 
p.s. I really appreciate all of you and btw @eph-M-eral your ps earlier totally made my day. Iām so grateful for whoever reads all that and I appoligize for the length and it being a little all over the place but I needed to get some of it out.
p.p.s. Donāt forget you rock. Ya you!!
p.p.p.s Iām grateful I cried today it feels good to feel. Just saw the length of my own rant Lmao
Edit. for the purpose of making it easier to tell my story later. I realize I didnāt mention my different traumas. Sadly my Dad passed when I was nine, Wife passed when I was 39, Three of my closest friends died from overdoses in 2018. I broke my back resulting in needing a wheelchair for a time. Poor hygenie from drug use and drinking caused me to lose every single tooth I had.
On a happier note, I have a smile back thanks to successful dental surgery and dentures, I can walk again thanks to back surgery, I can discuss my father and wife thanks to therapy. I only did all those things once God helped me get clean and sober. and apply a program of recovery not just talk about it, gratitude is an action word.
One more time. God bless you all.
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I am so damn grateful for you, your presence on this thread and on this planet. For your honesty, your frankness, your strength and your willingness to be fragile too, because sometimes thatās what we need to be. Iām grateful for your example, your days!, and how youāve turned your addiction into a gift that gives daily to my and othersā recoveries.
God bless, dear one. 
edit: ps, no one ever need apologize for the length (or brevity) of a post, ya no one!
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Iām so grateful you felt comfortable sharing all your shit with us Brian. Every single word and thought. I really hope it helped and that you get to sleep well tonight now that you got it off your chest.
Some great guy on here told me something about it being ok to be selfish sometimes when working on your sobriety. Or thatās how I took it. With all that is going on with you right now donāt forget to do that when you have to. And protect those beautiful dates of yours.
In my life, Iāve always found it hard to say no 
I still do. But when I do. It feels great that I did. After feeling a little guilty at first. But it was worth it.
Please make time for Brian. And only Brian. Ya you. 
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Iām grateful Iāve lasted 37 days straight alcohol free through a break up, threats of violence, horrible anxiety, job loss, job gain, health issues, joyous days and sad days, times when Iāve wanted to celebrate and reward myself and times Iāve wanted to escape and pain myself, moments with friends and moments of relaxation. 
Aiming for 38 tomorrow. Good night and for those just waking, have a beautiful day 
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Today I am so very grateful to catch up on this thread and a few others. I have a lot of reading to do and am very much looking forward to it. I am so grateful for all of the shares, no matter what the tone, length, or depthā¦it is all important!! I am grateful for a new workbook I found for looking deeper into my healing as well as another sobriety program. I am grateful for the opportunity to learn and work on getting better and feeling better ever day.
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Iām in same place with a cold but Iām grateful Iāve allowed myself a couple of days rest to get over it 
Iām grateful that even though Iām immunosuppressed and o went on a massive slip on Friday and wrecked my body that Iām actually starting to feel better and hopefully wonāt have to come off my arthritis meds to get rid of the cold.
Iām grateful Iāve had a lovely nap this morning on the sofa under a blanket with my two dogs snuggled in asleep at my feet.
Iām grateful for the love of my family and the joy they bring.
Iām grateful for being able to learn from my slip on Friday and hopefully knowing where Iāve gone wrong this last 8 months or so. Looking after ourselves mentally is so very important .
God bless all
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Good morning Brian, I hope you rested well. Thank you for sharing your story. Thank you for sharing your struggles. Thank you for still being one of the gratidudes, even with everything you have going on! I echo what Eric said- please take time for you. You are an inspiration with all that you do and give, but donāt give so much that you leave yourself on empty. I say that like I have anything figured out lol- I donāt. Iām grateful that you are here Brianā¤ļø
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For me and my recovery I have to make a gratitude list every single morning. I drive an hour everyday to work very early in the morning. Thatās when I meditate pray sing cry scream do whatever it is I need to do but one thing that I ALWAYS do no matter what is just start naming all kinds of things and names of people that im grateful for. And pray for my God to continue to keep me grateful for e ery single thing that has happened in the past and keeping me clean for almost 3 years because Iāve been thru all the bad things of my past let go and forgave no it was not easy and still is hard sometimes. But I agree that remaining teachable and having gratitude keeps me sober one day at a time! Bless you all!!
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Iām grateful for another day hangover free and sober.
I was grateful for so many things when I woke up this morning, while doing my little pet chores and prayers and devotionals. And like most mornings Iām sitting here thinking, āwhat was I grateful for again?ā
Iām grateful for my attitude of gratitude before I even get to list my gratitude. And especially the fact that this gratitude practice has been established in me involuntarily now.
Iām grateful I got my phone call today with the cardiologist and I havenāt been worried about it. After all, I got chipped this summer and hopefully if my ticker was fucked they would have let me know by now.
Iām grateful the car shop finally called me about my car. Itās been 3 days 
and I still donāt have an estimate. But Iām sober and I donāt give a fuck because Iām blessed to have the other car to drive.
Im grateful for the sneeze attack I had this morning. It always reminds me of my mom. I guess itās something I inherited from her. And I had the sneeze attack while reading my devotional that has my momās funeral book mark in it. So I gladly felt her presence this morning 
She use to get so angry when that happened. It isnāt fun but I donāt see the point in getting angry about it. Im grateful it stopped. Eventually.
Iām grateful my daughter will get here tomorrow.
Im grateful her matching cashmere hoodie came in yesterday and I got us both cashmere gloves. And mine actually fit my big mitts. We are always the cold ones in the house.
Iām grateful for my relationship with my daughter and that I never gave up on her and she is still clean a shit load of years. As bad as things might have got all my memories are good. Even the not so good memories. And there were plenty.
Im grateful for yāall and how comfortable I feel sharing here and how comfortable many other people feel sharing here. Itās truly a special thread with special people. And it works.
Concern is the loving caring interest, that helps other people find their own answers.
Believing In Myself
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Grateful being sober. Another day. Amazing it is. Grateful I managed my morning ritual and another vinyasa session just now.
Grateful I got the appointment some months ago at the endocrinologist. I need to find why my motivation is declining more and more. I have to put so much force in everything.
Grateful for so good people here all over the world. We come here for not using and learning to grow, to let go, to accept. Facing challenges. Go through them and not avoiding them again and again.
Das Leben ist kein Ponyhof.
My Mantra for todayās yoga was āI will go onā.
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Iām grateful to God please help me be better today than I was yesterday and to remain clean and sober. Iām grateful for my recovery and all its challenges and rewards. Iām grateful for all my family and friends. Iām grateful for professional support. Iām grateful for all of you gratidudes, new comers and long timers, we all matter. Iām grateful to be comfortable enough to share openly here and if someone judges that, as someone else mentioned that isnāt on me. Iām grateful that my āstoryā has a whole lot of good in it that I left out of my rant yesterday. I have a family that loved and loves me, made lots of good friends and had meaningful relationships with significant others. I am grateful for this community that has stood by me for over a year, teaching, living, loving, crying, caring and sharing. Iām grateful to have rested well and have lots of things to do. Iām grateful that I can accept that I donāt have to get everything done, try my best and give away the rest. Iām grateful for music, excersise and laughter.
God bless you all. &
p.s. You are a star, shine bright. Ya you!!
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Iām grateful today for early morning cooking to take the edge off of my anxiety and be ready for a doctorās visit. Iām grateful that I can recognize what I am feeling is anxiety and that it is a pattern that I have worked through and will work through again. Iām grateful that my doctor knows me well enough now that my elevated blood pressure will be recognized as part of the anxiety response. Iām grateful for access to medical care and also for the hope I have that we can try a new method of preventing and/or mitigating migraines that seem to be getting worse. Iām grateful for the beautiful weather and that I can have my windows open and hear all the birds chirping away, especially my favorite little chickadee that had been visiting my feeder singing itās heart out and taking one seed at a time back to the neighborās tree. Iām grateful for my love of nature and that my parents instilled it in me. Always grateful to you all, amigos. 
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I am grateful to be sober and hangover free.
I am grateful to be tucked into bed early watching movies.
I am grateful to be going back to work tomorrow.
I am grateful to have food, water, clothes, a house, and a car.
I am grateful for my family. 
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I am so grateful that I took some time to read all your messages. I am laying here so filled up right now. I started my day motivated and got knocked down right away. But I kept going and got everything I needed to do done today. While out I was in two different areas I used to frequent while using. And I felt some butterflies just seeing some places I havenāt been in so long. One was close to an Ex and the other in a terrible neighborhood. But I was thinking about how much I appreciate being sober. My heart was filled with gratitude because that day when I left the house feeling mad, disrespected, uncomfortable in my sober house. My phone rang and it was one of my only friends that I have left. Then my mom. Some guys from treatment txt me. Then even my ex-wife contacted me. So on a day when I started in a vulnerable place I was surrounded by support.
I just know this is the only path for me. I am willing to do whatever it takes.
I really do love coming here seeing all the strength and courage. Thank you all for being exactly what youāre supposed to be.
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Crikey, this week! But Iām grateful for it. Itās a busy one - cuckoo on the work front, but good all the same.
Iām grateful Iām all tucked in, so that I can give tomorrow a solid effort. Iām so grateful Iām not uncorking wine (bottle two by this point?) to ādecompress from my dayā.
Iām grateful Iām learning to ease off the throttle a bit, to actually aim to do less sometimes. Who knew it was a thing?
Iām grateful for the little chat I had with my Mom tonight. She seemed to be in good spirits and full of her old zest for life.
Iām grateful for all of you gratidudes, whether brand new or old hat. (Iām grateful āmy tickerās not fuckedā either!) For the shares and chuckles and tough stuff and always, your place in my day.
Iām grateful we just had another one of those 
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Today I am grateful to have a had a great night of sleep and plan for a shortened work day today. Why did I take a few hours of PTO off todayā¦just because. I am grateful Iāll have that extra time to make necessary phone calls and ājust be aroundā and not working when my son gets home from school. I am grateful for extra moments with him when he has a lot to say. They arenāt as plentiful as when he was 6, so I embrace each one. I am grateful for reading about tue Soberful podcast (thanks @Bootz) and look forward to listening today at the gym. I am grateful for my newfound time for cooking in the evenings and how much more love I can put into our dinners and the time we can spend talking. I have taken that for granted so much over the years and when I was drinking, cooking dinner felt like such a chore. Now that I have learned how little quality sleep I was actually getting (not sure how I even tied my shoes), it is no wonder I dreaded it. I am so grateful to read and learn about new members of the community and fighting fighting good fight, enjoying the triumphs and working through the challenges. I am still pretty new as well and find it comforting and inspiring to come here to learn and feel supported when I need to drop some things off at the coffee maker. 
Thanks everyone for being here and being you.
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