I’m grateful to be clean and sober.
It’s rainy today. It’s keeping me from working on my boat. I woke up feeling ambitious. Mother nature changed my plans.
Instead of feeling frustrated, I’m rolling with it. I’ve been prepping all my action cameras for a time-lapse extravaganza Idea I’ve had for a while. The rain is going to stop this evening and all the signs are pointing for an epic sunset and a almost full moon.
I’m grateful to be so in tuned with the weather and moon.
I’ve been listening to YouTube in the background. About the fentanyl crisis and how hard it is to buy any drugs off the street that don’t have fentanyl in it now.
We recently had a fentanyl overdose in my small town.
Drug cartels press it into exact replicas of prescription drugs. Oxys were my go to drug to get through crab season. I bought them off the street. I’m lucky and grateful I don’t do that anymore.
Also watching/listening to how bad it is in the homeless communities in Portland, Seattle and Vancouver BC. The interviews with all the damaged and broken people. I’ve been damaged and broken in similar ways. I somehow managed to land on my feet. Clean and sober. I am grateful.
I’ve been homeless. I’m grateful for a warm dry place to sleep. And I’m grateful for the luxury items that I have. Mostly my cameras. Its the addiction that I love and has been good for me.
I have luxury problems today. Things I sometimes give my serenity away for, but they are trivial in comparison to problems I use to have.
My YouTube channel keeps growing. Slow and steady. Just like me. I’m grateful!
I’ve been filming boats launch when I’m down at the dock. It has attracted some paid photography/filming work. I am grateful for a dream becoming reality. I am grateful!
Today I’m grateful to feel humble without humiliation. That’s the only way I felt it before. I had to humiliate myself to get humbled. It didn’t last long. Just long enough for me to get loaded again. I’m grateful for recovery!
I’m grateful to see all these milestones! Congrats!
If you haven’t used today, congrats! I’m grateful I’m not using today.