Daily Gratitude, The Air Of Recovery #3

[Jeannie0915]

There is a small park with a pond in our town. We got there every Saturday morning for breakfast. Spring is in the air. We see lots of mommy and daddy geese with their babies. There is also a pair of musk rats that we see swimming across the pond. Lots of turtles, squirrels, and even saw a snake. We love our “nature” weekend mornings. Thanks for the photo!

I am grateful
118 Days sober
It’s Friday
The rain held off till I got to work today
Only a week till our Colorado vacation and I get to see my daughter and son-in-law. House rented with a pool table and hot tub. I am so excited.
I was able to donate blood yesterday. Even though blood squirted out and got on my new shirt. The tech was so upset and so apologetic. I told her it was no big deal. She said a lot of people would get really mad at her… I shouldn’t have worn a new shirt…just sayin.
Healthy kids and grandkids.
I searched AA meetings and found one in our town. I told my husband I was thinking about going. He said “you don’t drink, why do you need to go to AA”. I said, so I can continue to not drink.
Hope everyone has a great Friday!!

[Dazercat]

I’m grateful
I’m grateful I woke up in a funk and thought I better think of gratitude. I’m grateful I’m finding it hard to be grateful today and the past couple of days. But I just have so much to be grateful for.

I’m grateful I recognize my ungratitude and it’s because I can’t get out of the fear of todays future problems that might not even happen. I’m grateful I realize how fucken sic am I?

I’m grateful for my wife.
I’m grateful she asked me to wake her up so we can walk the dogs early.
I’m grateful she handled everything at home while I was gone yesterday.
I’m grateful for all the laundry she does.
I’m grateful I wanted to come home yesterday to the pets and her when I didn’t have to. Im grateful I’m sad it’s in that order. I’m grateful I felt lonely without all of them. I miss the pets more. I’m grateful for the big week or ten days I just had.

I’m grateful when I recognized I use to pass out drunk at night and not go to bed. I’m grateful I don’t do that anymore. I’m grateful I slept so hard last night. I’m grateful I realized I can’t stop judging her. I didn’t think I did. But I must be. I’m grateful today I realize the alcoholic loved one in my life is still dominating my thoughts. I’m grateful maybe I can just leave that shit here now and go about my day.
I’m grateful for y’all.

Accepting that she lives her life differently, and accepting that “different” does not mean “bad” was a big part in my recovery. My action part was to give her back her “remote control,” to take my “remote control” back, and to pray:

“God, grant me the serenity to accept that I cannot control her life,
The courage to only use my remote control to change my life,
And the wisdom to know what remote control I have every morning before I start my day.”
Can’t remember who to credit that too.
I’m thinking The Recovery Show podcast.

[JazzyS]

@Dazercat i totally understand the not being able to come up with gratitude when you yourself are not in the right head space. Glad to see that gratitude was first thing on your mind and you dug deep to make your list - and what a lovely list that was. Ive always heard how listing your gratitudes daily can be uplifting but man oh man its absolutely magical and the right doze needed to get us out of our funk. Happy Friday my friend!

Good morning my beautiful sober friends

What a glorious day! I am hopeful today that all ive been telling mysekf about becoming healthy and energized from sobriety is actually true.

I am so grateful for a lovely night of sleep (was short spurts throughout the night but felt like i released a lot in those short periods )
I am so grateful for a little relief from all my physical symptoms. Oh how amazing its going to feel when i finally finish with my detox of all the years of damage.
I am so grateful for my lovely mother who made me freshly squeezed white pumpkin juice this morning. So many healing properties
I am so grateful that im putting myself first and learning to say no (knowing when my tasks at handvare becoming overwhelming and backing off)
I am so grateful for my daily morning affirmations
I an so grateful for my higher power for ever staying by my side
I am so grateful for this loving and supportive TS community
Happy Friday everyone - sending much love

[Frazzetta]

Grateful for a good time out on the motorcycle last night, with much less anxiety than I expected. I remembered how the machine works and remembered how much fun it is. I had a nice time with the man, a success overall 10/10 would do again. I’m grateful for a quiet day at work finally so I can catch up on all the little things that get left by the wayside when sh** hits the fan. I’m grateful for plans with my BFF, my bro, my dogs, my craft room that needs to be reorganized , and hopefully a haircut. I’m grateful the Bf is going to go on mini trip overnight with his buddies and I know he’ll have fun and see folks he’s been missing. I’m grateful he and I can do our own things and our together things. I’m grateful we’re making plans and have fun things to look forward to this summer. Happy Friday y’all let’s get to it!

[Dazercat]

I’m grateful I still had hot coffee sitting in my Ember Cup after my dog walk. I’m grateful for that last slug when it’s still hot.

I’m grateful I feel like such a doofus.

I’m grateful I figured out what’s really bothering me. I’m grateful I got my cholesterol levels down into good normal numbers. I’m grateful my fear is actually going to the doctor Tuesday because she still wants to put me on statins. And I don’t want to take them. I’m grateful my fear is confronting my doctor. I don’t confront. I don’t even like the word confront. I didn’t go to medical school. There’s no way a regular uneducated guy like me is going to change her mind after all the years of medical school she must have gone to. I’m grateful I’m going to continue reading. Finding more research. I’ve never gotten a second opinion before in my life. I’m grateful maybe I will try and do that. I’m grateful Tuesday I can listen to her. Really listen to her. I’m grateful I can always pull the Ol explain it to me like I’m a 2 year old if I have too. I’m grateful I can listen to her. Accept what she’s saying. Accept her opinion. And I’m grateful I can still do nothing if that is what I choose. And continue to figure it out. I’m grateful one of my biggest fears is interpreting what I’ve comprehended and getting my point across verbally to someone else and I just freeze. And then I go blaming my lack of education, because I didn’t go to college. And that’s ok. Because I’m wicked smart and grateful for my common sense, practically, and life skills and from living on my own when I left home a million years ago as a teenager to be stranded in Texas.
I’m grateful I feel better.
I’m grateful for a good dump right here on my home thread.
I’m grateful it’s ridiculous how much better I feel. And it’s not even 7:15 am.
Thanks Jazzy
Thanks you guys.

[anon74766472]

I am grateful for a long weekend coming up.
I’ll celebrate the end of WW2. I think it’s a good day to celebrate and hopefully the war in Ukraine will come to an end soon.
I am grateful that my new colleague is asking me some questions although he knows my difficulties in French. But he seems to understand and is patient. Which is surprising bc I am not.
I am grateful for nice colleagues. I fact I often have nice colleagues.
I am grateful to be sober.
I am grateful, super grateful and happy that finally my mom got a room for my grandmother in a nursing home. I can only guess how relieved she must be. She will move her next Tuesday. I am so grateful.
I am grateful I have enough.

[I.cant.We.can]

I’m grateful to God please help guide me through today while helping me abstain from my addictions.
I’m grateful for all my family, friends, TS and the gratidudes. I’m grateful for music and creativity. I’m grateful for quit lit. I’m grateful for prayer and meditation. I’m grateful for humor and laughter.

May our higher powers restore us to sanity.

p.s. Don’t forget to smile and breathe, it feels good and looks great on you. Ya you!!

[Cjp]

Good morning sober fam,

Im so very greatful for…

My sobriety, 369 days free
A successful, adventure filled vacation
Got to the airport in time to drop off rental car, ride the air train, checkin bags, wonder around, buy some prickly pear chocolate for the hubby, with time to spare
Im greatful im not drinking rn
Get home and get some peace and quiet
Our safety
I get to see hubby before he goes to work
I get to cuddle Boscoe soon
Getting back to routine
I get to people watch
Boarding the plane

[Its_me_Stella]

@Dazercat

I’m grateful one of my biggest fears is interpreting what I’ve comprehended and getting my point across verbally to someone else and I just freeze.

How about you take a little note pad with you and after shes explained everything just say " Thats great, thanks for all of the information. I am going to take this home and go over it, I will get back to you if I have anymore questions."

You could send her an email or give her a call…

One thing I am learning with my child is I do not need to give her an answer when she wants it. I have the right to think about things, within a reasonable time, not to leave her hanging. I have found this so empowering and its so helpful to me with my fibro brain. Most times its hard for me to pull things out of my head so having a little time to think gives us both a better chance at me being openminded and willing. When i cant think I am automatically defensive and closed off.

[CueBall8n9]

@Bootz It is

[JazzyS]

I’m glad you were able to get to the bottom of what’s bothering you and are feeling somewhat better. Yes, doctors have gone to school for their specialty but remember they are only human and know only what they are taught - meaning, some only focus on what the hospitals and medical system allow them to - others may venture out to holistic means or alternative medicines. Regardless - they do not know your body – only you know your body. Once we start healing, we tend to listen to our bodies more. You are doing great in getting your levels down and with determination and hard work you can continue to do so. Feel free to ask for a 2nd opinion or take what they’ve said and ask for time to review as mentioned by @Its_me_Stella. Many times, I’ll take the prescription because I know it’s a losing battle to try and refuse but then if my research and gut tell me otherwise, I will not fill the prescription.
This is your life and your body - do not feel compelled to put something into it that you are not sure is needed. I too have been battling this and found that the meds that were given to me worked for a very short time and then were actually causing harm and the cherry on top is that the side effects were even worse. I had to go to a doctor out of my network that would actually listen to me and still I have to to be forceful in my decisions with her to not put me on any more meds.

[quote=“Dazercat, post:2558, topic:157997”]
Because I’m wicked smart and grateful for my common sense, practically, and life skills
[/quote] YES!!! rely on your instincts.

Deep breathes my friend - your appointment will go smoothly on Tuesday. Try not to dread it now and enjoy the weeknd.

[Gotno]

I am grateful for the mountains just a 30 minute drive away… so beautiful and a great way to get some excercise.

[erntedank]

Wow, too much to catch up

Today I’m grateful for a day planned for myself

I’m grateful for

• doing office work from 5 to 8 am
• handing in documents the tax office requested for the heritage of my late mother
• a lovely mutual birthday breakfast with a lifelong friend
• doing shopping with her and we BOTH found really nice clothings
• for her reminding me to take the fresh eggs out of the birthday bag and put them into the fridge. it is an absolute blessing to have people who know me so well, better than i know myself. I would have forgotten it until evening, I was already on the couch doozing off for a lunchtime rest
• for therapy, I brought issues and went home not rembering anything we talked. this indicates I’m on a new to discover path and I’m feeling mixed but overall fine to be on a step further.
• for hairdresser
• for having my legs waxed
• for short & longer talks on the phone with friends in the evening in privacy on my deck as the fence is rebuilt
• for living free, in peace, being still able to pay my bills (a horror strugle with all what’s still not settled)
• for being ok with myself and appreciating all the babysteps
• for all the babysteps adding up to show me I’m capable to run life on life terms
• for being me

I’m grateful for freedom, my life, the blessings I have in my life and that just for today I AM ME

Edit to add: I’m grateful my little garden and all the neighbour gardens are habit to my beloved hedgehogs. I really try to have a habitat where they find food, can transit and feel save. Yes, this is not the concept of a decent garden but I love to provide habitat for wildlife, in particular insects in the middle of an urban setting with brainless construction building.

[Irisees919]

Today I am grateful to read such support for one another - I think there is always support on this thread, just today it struck me even more.

I am grateful for conversations with my son. I am grateful he accepted my apology for a stupid statement I made, that was meant to be a joke, but was not received that way and I absolutely should have known better.

I am grateful for his later comments about his dad and I being at the age we are, and I told him that if he is to have kids when he is older, my intent is to be able to really play with them (I may just be able to throw a spiral after raising a boy) and be as much help as I can. I am grateful he is grateful.

I am grateful for being able to help my mom with her appointment and errands today and that she is having dinner with us tonight. I am grateful for the fact that I think she is a little worried about me. I can see it in her face. She has been incredible self absorbed most of my life (she was an active alcoholic until about 10 years ago, suprise?), so turning her compassion outward is a change and I appreciate seeing that.

I am grateful for my friend who has a son my age and is giving me tips and support about emotional health at this time in my life when my son will be leaving. I am grateful for my other friend who jumped at the chance to stay overnight when we drop my son off at college (in August!), to have a shoulder to cry on. I am grateful to be letting people in. I’m grateful to be thought of and cared about.

Wishing each of you a wonderful day.

[LAB]

Good morning from Wisconsin, where spring is really here!

I’m grateful the cold winter weather is behind us. I like living where there are lots of changes in weather. I’m writing this from my “summer” comfy chair on our enclosed front porch. The birds are singing like mad and their is a light sprinkle of rain.

I’m grateful for this beautiful porch. It was a work of love that my husband took the 130 year old porch and carefully stripped the carpet up and painted it in beach blues to remind us of our favorite porch on Tybee Island. It’s a wonderful spot to read, write, and enjoy my restorative beverages like coffee and tea.

I’m grateful to have worked hard through another week of classes and some hard times for some of my students. There was a lot of upset and emotion as they dealt with the departure of one of their classmates. My refugee students carry a lot of hard trauma and their upset isn’t easy to manage as their emotions and coping strategies are kind of all over the place.

I’m grateful to have been sober this week as I needed all my emotional strength and compassion and capacity to love them. Doing that with a perpetual hangover in the past was super upsetting and hard to manage. I’m grateful to be sober.

I’m grateful that I’m strong enough in my sobriety to have had a very terrible incident this week with one of my refugee students and to have been able to decompress at home that evening without turning to alcohol. It was definitely the type of work day that “in the before times” would have brought out a lot of drinking.

I’m grateful to be sober and able to get up early and get to the swimming pool to exercise and while swimming meditate on what to do next to support my students and myself through the hard times.

I’m grateful to be approaching the end of the school year. This is winding down 36 years in public education and I’m grateful to have meaningful work and meaningful breaks from work.

I’m grateful to be living in a safe and loving home and to have the means to take the summer break.

I’m grateful for my loving marriage and the partnership and romance that continues to grow as we move through the journey of our lives together.

I’m grateful we have both found sobriety to be an improvement for our individual lives and in our marriage.

I’m grateful to be starting a weekend where I do not intend to do any school work. This is rare for me and I’m grateful to have been able to get enough done to be at this point.

I’m grateful to have a weekend that looks promising for some bike riding and hiking. Heck, I may even break out the kayak!

I’m grateful for this sober community and all that I’ve gained by finding it and participating. I hope you are all getting to joy. Peace!

[Cjp]

Good morning sober fam,

Im so very greatful for…

My sobriety, 370 days free
Boscoe cuddles
Our lovely new bed i just melt into
Being close to my hubby, my best friend
Sleep meditations on Insight Timer
Back to routine
The love here
Joy
Hubby got me flowers and balloons
Time to shop for new glasses, get a pedicure, and make a healthy southwest chicken detox soup today
All of you

Peace, light, and love on your journies

[JazzyS]

And a great Saturday morning to all my sober friends

I am so grateful to be waking up today. Waking up before the alarm and waking up sober and somewhat clear headed (my headaches still fog the mind but so much better than a hangover)
I am so grateful that im looking forward to the day ahead and all that it will bring. Work will go smoothly today (feel it in my bones)
I am so grateful that ive figured out a better cheaper way to handle the business accounts (now some self teaching over the weekend and hopefully ill be able to implement everything by next week).
I am so grateful for the spring like feel in the air. Am goung to soak it in as who knows if the colder weather is gone for the season. I love the blooms and the greenery - hopefully this weather yoyo didnt shock the plants too harshly
I am
so grateful that im going to be sipping on some espresso shortly (decided to take out my machine for a special treat this morning)
I am so grateful for the healing powers of laughter. I do tend to go to the same comic lately whenever i need a boost and no lie ive seen the you tube routines umpteen times and still have me rolling…sarah mcmillan
I am so grateful that my parents are on the way for morning meditation (this is now becoming a routine again)
I am so grateful for my loving family.
I am so grateful for my higher power.
I am so grateful to be blessed with this wonderful TS community…thank you all.

Have a wonderful Saturday sending much love

[Dazercat]

I’m grateful for all the support I get on this forum.
I’m especially, extra grateful, for all the support I get from you. Ya you
I’m grateful I can air out my laundry here and figure things out.
I’m grateful the vet had a cancellation right before I called and we got Minnie in yesterday morning. I’m grateful we don’t think she has a bladder infection or UTI but we are doing lab work and culture to rule it out or get started on antibiotics.
I’m grateful the doctor said Minnie looks really good for almost 17 and complimented us on how well we are doing taking care of her. It felt good. I’m grateful the vet put my quality of life anxious, thoughts, about Minnie to rest for awhile, currently.
I’m grateful the old dog girl still got it.
I’m grateful I can hear Alice purring on wifey’s lap in her chair.
I’m grateful for Dr Perlmutter’s book Grain Brain.
I’m grateful it’s not that I hate pharmaceuticals, I do. And I know they have their purpose. But I’m grateful I have legitimate concerns for my health and whether or not I start taking a drug for the rest of my life. I’m grateful my concerns are valid.
I’m going to step in my own “Should” here. But I’m grateful I’m learning I shouldn’t worry about what the doctor might think. Especially what the doctor might think of me. When I express my legitimate valid health concerns.
I’m grateful to get rid of the notion that I’m confronting my doctor. I’m grateful I will be expressing my concerns and they are real.

Im grateful I’m learning how to act, as a real sober human being, even thought it took me until my 60’s. Im grateful and envious of some of you younger people on here going for sobriety. You guys are warriors! Do stop! Don’t let this fucking disease run your life. Or even kill you. I’m grateful I’m taking my life back before it’s too late.

Im grateful it’s going to be a lazy Saturday.
Im grateful I’m looking forward to sitting around the pool on my deck with my pets. Healthy lunch home and a teriyaki sirloin at the Keg for dinner.
Grateful

"I feel a very unusual sensation, if it’s not
indigestion, I think it must be
gratitude.“
BENJAMIN DISRAELI

[Its_me_Stella]

I am grateful for the strong coffee I get to drink while listening to mantras bellow through my house speakers. I am grateful to start my day connecting to the universe.

I am grateful my twinnie graciously listens to my unsolicited suggestions. I am also grateful he knows they are doused im love.

I am grateful for the soundbath I attended last night and to be at peace with the fact they arent my thing. I have tried 4 now and I was thinking my inability to center and ground was due to the company I had with me, or the artist who was playing… nope its just not my thing. Grateful to be able to use what works and leave the rest.

I heard from a friend who I had been out of touch with for a couple of years. She is struggling with addiction too and has just bypassed the part where we substitute one for another. I am grateful that because I know her so well I was able to share my story in such a way that all she could do would be to see the similarilities. She said she diddnt want to call herself an addict because that would mean she couldnt stop drinking and she could!!! My response to her was, “Have you ever stayed stopped?” I am grateful that I know that all I can do is carry a message of recovery and hope.

I am grateful to be able to support my girlfriend that has lost both her sons in the last two years to this disease. We are going to check out a RD meeting, she is 15 years clean but her faith has been shook. I am grateful we are both open-minded.