Daily Gratitude, The Air Of Recovery #4

How can somebody be so tired like me?
I’m grateful I can nap and sleep whenever I want (as long as the basics are done and the cats are fed).
I can’t remember any sleep last night, it was so hot, I binge watched a series and was out in the garden by 5 a.m. I’m grateful I used the cooler morning hours for garden work. Continued mowing at my mum’s. Harvested the first two zucchini at home. Was happy to see the squash making his own arrangement with the climbing aid I offered. Plants are smart.

I’m grateful for adulting. Yesterday my ex had to tell me that he changed the grassland management last year. If I had not asked why the fuck the grassland is still not cut he never would have told me. I told him to see that this work gets done, I can’t clone myself and when he hides such essential information he fucking has to care about this year too.
Well, well, he called the people from last year and the neighbour and told me they don’t want to do it. Fuck, WANT? What does my ex ask them? If they WANT to cut the grassland??? 10 min. after this information I had called some professionals who will do the job. not want. DO. Jesus, I’m paying to get the work done, I don’t care if somebody wants :woman_facepalming:
I’m grateful that the epiphanies why I so deeply felt that I’m doing a lot of all the work alone and my ex is a nagging complicated egoistic man add up. I reached a stage where I’m grateful when I find out what’s going on and when I don’t … I just don’t bother anymore.
I’m grateful I had faith that a solution will appear and I’m grateful I do my best to manage and contribute.
I’m grateful for healthy boundaries.
I’m grateful I see my counsellor in half an hour.
I’m grateful afterwards I will go to bed and listen to mantras until I fall asleep. I’m sleep deprived from the heat and mentally and emotionally pretty weak and vulnerable.
Yes @M-be-free49 We climb the ladders up again quickly :hugs:

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I’m grateful for a short visit in Big D.
I’m grateful for my son.
I’m grateful for our new relationship we are forming. Father and son who’s a father now. I’m grateful it’s pretty cool. I’m grateful we can both be vulnerable together.
I’m grateful I made us stay a little bit later last night after baby was put to bed.
I’m grateful for my lobby coffee and the Nespresso that gets me down there in the morning.

I’m grateful a full weekend visit suits me and my son instead of extended family stays.
I’m grateful after my son crashed and burned on getting into a business school he is going to go back to doing therapy. He’s a natural at it. I’m grateful he realizes he’ll have more quality time at home with his new family.
I’m grateful we got a lot in common and I offered to listen and even talk to him if he wanted to.

I’m grateful my white hoodie came out unscathed after sitting next to baby eating meatballs or guacamole with her hands. I might have to start packing a different colored hoodie.
I’m grateful and so blessed to have so much fun with that baby girl.

I’m grateful I’m sober.
I’m grateful I didn’t come back to the hotel bar and drink myself wasted because I had so much fun with the kids. It use to sound like a good reason to drink. I’m grateful I savored it. Checked in here. Read my book and got a good nights sleep.

I’m grateful I’ll never know if Hudson’s has the coldest martinis on the planet as they advertise. And I don’t want to know.

I’m grateful the Gus Bus gets his 6 month chip today.
Grateful for my TS family and home thread.
:pray:t2::heart:

“Vulnerability is the birthplace of innovation, creativity and change.”
Brené Brown

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@rainy7 How are you doing today Roxanne?
@jwfletcher4792 what a great healthy outlet for you and lovely distraction from your DOC. Are you able to continue with coaching on the off months or do you have something else in mind? Do you have months off – I know a friend does in door coaching in winter learning drills and such.

WOW –So amazing! How cool it is to follow your heard and actually create something with your hands. I love this for you and wish you the best o luck at the Market.
@erntedank My goodness – I never knew that I had to care if the person I was paying to get a job done actually wanted to do the job. Mind blown right now. Sorry – for the sarcasm – this is absolute shit. Seems like you are and have been doing the adulting for the both of you. No wonder you are exhausted. With all that is going on you do need to take advantage of rest. Just think in a short (maybe not so short) time you will be moving on with your ex in the rear view, the court case and your mom’s estate solved and I’m sure I’m missing things …then you will be able to just have time for you. You are doing a fabulous job with it all – be proud and here’s to another day of adulting and living! :people_hugging: :people_hugging:

Thats impressive indeed. Smart to pack darker colors in the future - not sure if you can get that lucky again. :stuck_out_tongue_winking_eye: Grateful that you had a good weekend impromptu visit with your son and his family.

Its Monday my lovely sober companions - hope everyone is waking up to a beautiful day
I am so grateful to have awoken today. I’m not sure why but i didn’t feel right so went back to bed and well the mowers do start early enough so i was back up at 8:15. I am grateful to be able to sit in bed, do my gratitude’s with a lovely hot cup of coffee. I am grateful that i will keep my momentum going from past few days - i know that sometimes we do need a nudge.
I am so grateful that my aunt (V) and uncle (M) are now in town from Iran and will be at my Aunts (R) house for next few days (which is only a 20 min away). Grateful that my parents got to visit with them all day yesterday - my mom really is realizing how she needs more time with her siblings. My aunt (R) has her brother, my uncle (D) living with her and its his birthday tomorrow - WOW. Grateful that even if I can’t participate (drama and surrounding that flare up symptoms)—This year a lot of family gatherings are occurring.
I am so grateful that I may force myself to go to public library to see a few friends from knitting group for 1/2 hour. fingers crossed that i will be able to do so.
I am so grateful that i do have my appointment with my specialist tomorrow to discuss the results from my recent test and then discuss other tests with my doctor.
I am so grateful that I have a goal in mind to be moving about a bit more freely by the end of the year - it will be my 1 year of of sobriety, my 46th year on earth and by then a little over 2 year of no smoking - so by end of this year i will have a lot to celebrate and i am adding better health to the list of things to celebrate! If you see it you can make it happen or something like that - right?
I am so grateful that I because of the air quality being so bad i will find indoor activities to keep me moving and active. I was shocked how thick the air was when i went to get some groceries yesterday - please be safe everyone affected by this!
I am so grateful that i am practicing deep breathing while writing gratitude’s and it is helping me immensely. Grateful for self-care practices and getting oxygen to our brain and blood stream - oh how lively it is to be alive!
I am so grateful that I will now get some more coffee with an almond butter rice cake and then do light stretching to kick start the day.
I am so grateful for my loving and supportive family - can’t believe i have been given this opportunity to work on myself and care for myself and heal in a proper manner - didn’t realize how much healing i needed (not just form the ailments) - Thank God for each of them.
I am so grateful for my Higher power and my connections with Him through prayer / meditation and mindful living
I am so grateful for this amazing community - You all Rock! Love to all of you - sending much love :heart: :heart:

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Thanks for checking on me Jazz :face_holding_back_tears::heartpulse: I finally got 5 hours of sleep, which is huge. Today is a full week of sobriety and tbh it’s scary. Every day has been anxious ridden and scary. I’m staying busy and trying not to think of how I ended up here every couple minutes. But, I’m grateful I woke up conscious, not hungover, not still going from the night before, and not throwing up or sweating. I’m still grateful for hope.

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I feel extremely grateful for everyone here :blush:

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Thats lovely to hear Roxanne
The beginning is super difficult so do find ways to leepbyour mind and body occupied. Hopefully you have a good support system irl - this community is an amazing virtual support system.
This Gratitude thread and the Checking in daily to maintain focus #56 are my go to threads. Wishing you luck - deep breathes as you are stronger than your addiction!

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I am grateful for friendship and for being alive today. I realized how many times I could be dead

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@Sissychris39 yes!!! Work it’s really triggering for me, the Access to junk food its really easy

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Ohh. I haven’t worked in over a decade (I collect SSD) so I forgot about how tempting that shit is. You’re doing very well, so you’ve got this!

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Late,for moi,gratitude. I’m grateful for two Refuge Recovery meetings. One virtual and one in person. Grateful for my Sangha. I am grateful for another day in Paradise. I am grateful for your insights @JazzyS and the way you reach out to everyone. I’m grateful I had a video chat with my daughter and granddaughter. I’m grateful I am present for my family. You are giving Roxanne good advice Jasmine. I’m grateful for that.

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Thanks Billy - Appreciate being a part of this team!

Love technology and video chats - grateful you were able to connect with your daughter and granddaughter :slight_smile:
OIP (3)

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I am grateful for a new day :sun_behind_small_cloud::heart:

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Welcome to the community! This is a lovely community and you have chosen a great thread to start off with - Daily gratitude’s do help with our recovery. This community offers lovely support and advise - read around the threads and join in when you feel comfortable. Hope to see you around.

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Thanks :blush::hibiscus:
Have a nice day :blossom:

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Welcome Nony :pray:t2::heart:
What Jazzy said :hugs:

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I’m grateful to God for guiding me through today while helping me abstain from my addictions. I’m grateful for my family, friends, TS and the gratidudes. I’m grateful for a pretty good day at work. I’m grateful for a great turnout at NA Volleyball tonight we had about 14 people show up, was lots of fun. I’m grateful a homegroup member celebrated one year at the NA meeting, there was a speaker and other members got six months, three months, one month and always nice to see a few newcomers got their first keytag for day one. I’m grateful to be safe and warm in my bed ready for some sleep. I’m grateful for prayer and mediatation. I’m grateful for the twelve steps and the principles they instill. I’m grateful for music and creativity. I’m grateful for humor and laughter. I’m grateful for adorable memes

God bless us all. :v: & :heart:

p.s. You are awesome. Ya you!!

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I totally agree. The focus is money and booze right now

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Today I am grateful for…

My long walk.
Good music.
My mom keeping me accountable.
The new AA meeting I went to.
The woman who recommended the meeting and sat next to me.
The AA speaker, who was really funny and made us all laugh.
Good food.
My doggies.
My friend in Washington.
My dad and brother who say good luck and that they are proud of me.
The lovely weather.
Incense…I forgot how much I love the stuff.
My GP for helping me fix my prescription issue at the pharmacy, and actually giving a shit about how I’m doing.
My 16 Days and going to bed sober.

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Good morning sober fam,

Im so very greatful for…

My sobriety, 443 days free
Awoke before my alarm
Got a decent workout in
Boscoe greeting me when i got home like its been days lol
Great sleep
Boss wants to promote me…idk if i want to manage 6 people…atleast i get time to think about it
Pros and cons list
Good job candidates
Good interviews
Hubby tried to make dinner last night. I didnt tell him it tasted like dirt :confused:
Countdown and anticipation to go to the family reunion
Apps that help me track my progress: physical and mental
The blessings of sobriety
Low anxiety
Rain
This amazing community!

We can. Together.

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I’m grateful for my Starbucks espresso roast beans this morning. I’m grateful said beans were deliver by Amazon yesterday before I got home. I’m grateful for a killer cup of coffee of my own making this morning.

I’m grateful I found my AirPods.
I’m grateful the flight home was all so smooth.
I’m grateful for the funny pic I just took. I think it’s funny. I’ll post it on the pet thread for a laugh. I’m grateful for humor.

I’m grateful for boundaries. I’m not good at them. Oh I can make them. I can over think them. But keeping them. Fucken Ay! Not so much. I’m grateful todays boundary is going to be simple. Get Alice to the vet. Get my ass to my meeting. Sounds easy enough. We’ll see.
I’m grateful to get to my boundary I will take it one hour at a time.

I’m grateful for a lovely weekend with Chicky Chickie and fam. I’m grateful I miss her so much.

I’m grateful Benson did well at the vet boarding without his side kick :face_holding_back_tears: I’m grateful when he came out to see us he was going the wrong way. And when I called him he had those funny cartoon animal hind legs excitedly turning around without getting a grip on the floor and finally running to his daddy. I’m grateful he smelled so good after they bathed him.

I’m grateful for my 4 cats and all the love I get from them in groups and individually. I’m grateful I got to feed them all too early this morning.

I’m grateful for the strange desert sunset last night. The sun was setting behind me in the west but some how there was some reflecting going on and there was sun rays setting in the East behind me. I cannot explain the desert and just love being fascinated by it.

I’m grateful to get my next walk in.
I’m grateful for chanting Om Mani Padme Hum on my walk with Benson this morning. I’m grateful at times I was belting it out.

Grateful for y’all.
:pray:t2::coffee::cactus::heart:

I’m grateful my recovery remains as close as my next meeting.
Todays Hope

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