Grattitude is my attitude!
I am very grateful my tummy is much better today. I even had some real food. Man was I hungry!
Yesterday I had this very weird experience of going on a side addiction track. I did not try to numb my feelings with food, but with work and other stuff. I only caught up with it in the evening and was really horrified. It was a total binge day, I had lost control, neglected my needs, snapped at family members, everything I was used to from abusing food. Seeing exactly the same reaction for exactly the same reasons but with another ‚substance‘ was really scary.
I am grateful I was able to see what was happening. Grateful to have caught myself and have done some selfcare.
I am very grateful to people here helping me understand what had happened, and finding a way to deal with this experience. @MrFantastik for giving it his great “that was some addict behavior bro” attitude. @SoberWalker for giving me a perspective how to move on without panicking 
I am grateful for sunshine today, moving in my body, finding a way to be at peace with myself, taking care of my needs, taking brakes.
I am grateful for my wonderful partner, my child, my mother, my family. Grateful for caring friends. For work I love. For my plants.
Hell I am grateful to be alive today!