Daily Gratitude, The Air Of Recovery #5

[Dazercat]

Grateful you checked in Binx

@Binx

Remember a while back when I said I didn’t feel like talking because it would bring everyone down… ? It’s still the case. I just don’t know where to start at times.

I read your posts.
Your struggle sounds overwhelmingly difficult.
I cannot imagine.

I started here on the gratitude thread because it was just a place for me to put out my thoughts just as gratitude. Long, short, sometimes I write a novel, sometimes I get too personal. Or sometimes I just try to be funny. Whatever. I think of this thread as a one way street for me. If I want to engage. Fine. If I don’t I know all the grateful people here understand that. But the thing is I always feel better after I leave this thread.

I hope you get to sort things out.
Hope to see you around when your comfortable.
Big hugs to you

[Chiron]

I’m grateful I live 500 miles away from my family.

[Binx]

Your words are always so soothing and reassuring Eric. Like a warm hug : ) While I am here, I will drop in a little gratitude

I am grateful for you, and I am grateful for everyone in this community. The people here are the backbone of my sobriety, ever present, unwaivering support. I feel like my sobriety is almost under constant threat, but TS is my safe place.

While there is currently a lot of stress around this, I am grateful that we have found a new home to purchase. If all goes well, we could be in our new home by Christmas, or shortly after.

I am grateful for my husband and children. Yesterday my husband booked a Halloween outing for them, and when they found out they were going again, their eyes lit up. They have so much fun at this place. It’s wonderful to see that despite a lot of stress around at the moment, that our kids are having a nice childhood and they are happy little things. I’m am truly blessed

[LAB]

It was a beautiful wedding and we all had a lovely time.

In the evening, my sister shared with me that she is starting her sober journey too.

My siblings and I grew up in a very abusive and unhealthy home. We grew up and got out and made amazing lives. And we all became involved with way too much alcohol.

And now all 3 of us are in our recovery journey. In our 50s, and we are working in getting better. I love my sister so much. She is one of my favorite people in my life. So I’m so happy to see her learning about this with me.

I wish you all peace.

[Cjp]

Gonna try a pre and post workout gratitude today…

Pre workout:

Greatful for…

My sobriety, 525.25 days
Love my numbers
Hubby
Our love and growing communication
Boscoe his royal highness
Looking forward to a good run
A day to rest and relax only appointment is the gym and a fancy dinner for hubbys birthday

[Dazercat]

I’m struggling big time with gratitude this morning my friends so I went over here.

!Show me a sunset/sunrise pic!

Really struggling with gratitude this morning. Just fucking struggling. Thought I’d come out and watch the sunrise because I know I can find gratitude here. So I’m grateful for this. [IMG_6486] And this. [IMG_6487] I’m grateful for this wonderful TS app and this beautiful community. I’m grateful for my coffee. I’m grateful for the smell of fresh coffee beans when you open a brand new bag. Stumptown Hairbender. I’m grateful I get to live in the desert. I’m grateful for the addict in my l…

Love you guys.

[Dazercat]

Grateful for your attitude and spice of life Billy.

But chocolate hummus

But I did find and “everything bagel seasoned” hummus. I just posted it the other day on the foodie thread. That’s what I’m talking about!

Love you buddy.

[JazzyS]

@binx lovely to see you on the Gratitude thread. So grateful to see you back with us on the TS site. Congrats on the new home – hope everything goes smoothly! Yeah to having a Halloween night out with the kids – so many beautiful memories
@lab OMG how beautiful that all three of you will be on a sober journey together and find new bonds in your sobriety. This was so beautiful to read!
@cjp love those numbers CJ !! Boscoe looking so cute with his fresh haircut – hope you and hubby have a wonderful time celebrating today
@dazercat Oh friend – thank you for sharing your gratitude’s with lovely pictures. I am sending you so much love and comfort today – I do wish that you are able to find peace within yourself to deal with the addict in your life. I can’t even imagine all that you go through daily with setting boundaries and having to second guess yourself on those boundaries. You are right – You have done nothing wrong. I am sorry my friend. I do hope you are able to find a Al Anon sponsor for nothing more than to have someone in real life to bounce your frustrations off of. So much love for you my friend
@soberbilly Chocolate hummus I’ve seen this but am leery of trying. I do love my hummus! So creamy and delicious

For all my beautiful friends

[Cjp]

Post workout gratitude

Watching the leaves change
Protein shakes
Decent effort at the gym today
Feeling freer today
Sunshine
Progress
Time
Love
Hope
Nature
Papabudda @Soberbilly
My friend @JazzyS
All of you mfs who make this place a safe space for recovery

[Its_me_Stella]

Good morning.

I am grateful that I stuck to a boundary yesterday I had made with my mom, years ago. She even got quite upset with me and shed some tears. I am grateful that even though I felt a pang of guilt, I did not back down. I am grateful that the wiser part of myself was able to sit with that people pleasing part and keep her calm reminding her of the healthy boundary. I am grateful that my mom eventually got over it and that we both had beautiful days yesterday doing different things. I am grateful for the compassion I could feel for myself and my mom in the heat of that moment. It was like I was parenting us both… I know exactly why she felt so disappointed and it was not only because of her strong co-dependance but because her people pleasing had backfired on her and cost her thanksgiving dinner with me. I am grateful for clarity.

I am grateful for the extremely busy, loooong day I had with G, his daughter and my kiddo yesterday. We went to have our tea leaves read out of town. I am grateful for humor and light hearted teasing coated in honesty. I am grateful that I drove most of the day. I am grateful that G just finished a 4 week job out of town and decided to treat us all. I am grateful that the kids (26&18) connected on the long drive. And I am grateful that the special ring that I made for G’s daugher fit her perfectly and that she loves it.

I am grateful for the beautiful weather and the gorgeous skies. I am grateful that they make me feel connected to people that I love no matter how far away they are. I am grateful for the days when the pain gets so bad you cant hide it anymore, when your rock bottom gets unbearable. I am grateful for those days because they are awakenings of the spirit, even though they sure dont feel like it,they are. Those are the days when we finally start to surrender, sometimes surrender again. I am grateful that we can never surrender too much, or too many times, and that everytime we surrender our hearts just become more open to God. We are able to give God more of the burden, which is none of our business to be holding. Sometimes when i think about it in relation to electrical energy it helps me. If I hold onto too much, or more of that than my body can handle my limbs blow off. Its the same for human energy that is not ours to hold… hand that shit over. I am grateful for my morbid mind.

I love you.

[erntedank]

I’m grateful I took time to catch up here. My evening gratitude routine got messed up lately, I always fall asleep before I even start to write I’m grateful I never forget to be grateful

@M-be-free49

We’re human beings, not human doings

I have to put this quote where I see it multiple times a day

@Dazercat

I CANNOT go on like this anymore. I

@Dazercat

I’m so fucking happy when she is not drinking.

Dear friend I feel with you. I admire your strength. Your work. And I’m a bit envious your wife listens and talks to you. Oh God how I wish my ex would have done that. I’m grateful you make me see ways to work on problems. When you’re not the only one working. I have a lot of work to do to reach forgiveness

@Cjp

Should do this. Shoulda said this. Im greatful i just realized thats me living in the future or past and not in the now.

I’m grateful I stopped doing this. And that the nagging voice in my head is silent atm It was a long way detaching from it.

Early evening gratitude today.
I’m grateful I proceed in making the house organized and cozy. Little steps. I’m grateful I was ready to tackle some tasks this weekend. Organizing, reviewing routines, think a bit further what’s to do, seeking help, discussing problems with people with lots of experience. I’m grateful I have faith that everything will turn out how it’s supposed to be. I’m grateful I work on what I myself can do in the meantime.

I’m grateful I woke up well rested today. I’m grateful I fumbled around and got some chores done. I’m grateful for laughter when I startet the learning routine of the roomba again, the cats were not amused

I’m grateful sitting on the balcony, listening to the sounds of nature is beautiful.

I’m grateful I took good care of my friend’s flowers, she’ll return tonight.

I’m grateful I start to look at the farm, not only the house. I need a lot of time to accomodate and settle. I’m grateful the way I look down from the balcony changed. I slowly and carefully start thinking. Hesitant and cautious because I fear to feel overwhelmed quickly. Again babysteps. I informed me about figs that possibly grow at this place. Just an idea I will chew on for long.

I’m grateful for freedom, peace, my wonderful house and farm, my funny lovely purring cats, for friends, homecooked food, veggis from the farmers market, all the useful stuff making life easy, for service on radio, an overcast day, for putting up candles on the balcony as the first anniversary of mum’s death is coming up.
I’m grateful I had a good weekend. ODAAT

[Lisa07]

It’s been a while since I posted some gratitude (about a week), but I’ve been enjoying reading everyone else’s.

I’m grateful I met my maid of honor for dinner Thurs night. I’m grateful no matter how long it’s been we pick up right where we left off. I think it’s been 2.5 years since our last get together. She still can’t believe hubby and I are still sober but she’s happy for us. I’m grateful she asked if she could have wine with dinner. Of course she can, it doesn’t affect me. We always split the bill and I’m grateful I turned down her offer to pay more because she drank and I didn’t. I’m grateful I don’t allow my recovery to interfere with our friendship.

I’m grateful for AA and the fellowship. More importantly, I’m grateful for the ladies only meetings. I’m grateful I can say what’s on my mind with no judgement at all.

I’m grateful for nature. My daughter had meltdowns both Friday and Saturday night when I was on my way out to a meeting. I’m also in 4th quarter hell at work. All this stress is taking a toll on me. I’m grateful I took advantage of an extra few minutes before the meeting last night and went to a scenic overlook to mediate and take in all the sights. It was only 5 minutes but that was an extremely needed 5 minutes of self care. I’m going back when the fall foliage is in full swing.

I’m grateful we’re going to attempt to go to NYC today and visit the 911 memorial. I’m grateful we’ll have family time together no matter what happens. The ferry isn’t running and the path train is shut down on weekends for repairs. We’ll drive in and pray we can find a parking garage nearby. My daughter doesn’t do well with a lot of walking. I’m grateful I have patience and I’ll do whatever I can to make this a good trip for her.

I have to run because another meltdown is starting and she’s freaking out. Ugh! Praying this is not an all day event. Hopefully, I’ll be back later for some more gratitude.

[erntedank]

@Its_me_Stella

Its the same for human energy that is not ours to hold… hand that shit over.

Thank you Stella, I needed to read that today

[Dazercat]

@Its_me_Stella

I am grateful for the beautiful weather and the gorgeous skies. I am grateful that they make me feel connected to people that I love no matter how far away they are. I am grateful for the days when the pain gets so bad you cant hide it anymore, when your rock bottom gets unbearable. I am grateful for those days because they are awakenings of the spirit, even though they sure dont feel like it,they are. Those are the days when we finally start to surrender, sometimes surrender again. I am grateful that we can never surrender too much, or too many times, and that everytime we surrender our hearts just become more open to God. We are able to give God more of the burden, which is none of our business to be holding. Sometimes when i think about it in relation to electrical energy it helps me. If I hold onto too much, or more of that than my body can handle my limbs blow off. Its the same for human energy that is not ours to hold… hand that shit over. I am grateful for my morbid mind.

I’m not crying
You’re crying

It’s a long quote for TS but it’s worth reading many times.

I’m grateful I feel like this was meant just for me Twinnie
Love you

[Dakotahjae]

I am grateful to read all of these beautiful gratitudes. Im grateful to have been working overtime these past few months, it really has helped our financial situation. Grateful that this past week was really …hard and i was even kind of in a panic thinking whats wrong with me, wheres my joy, im literally living in the middle of things that used to be desperate prayer pleas but im struggling mentally and emotionally. Grateful to return to gratitide and feel the peace of expressing gratitude and sorting troubles all in one. Grateful that i found this thread in my very first months of recovery in my very first clean and sober house. Grateful for many a mornings sorting through my newly drug free mind and discovering it could be soothed here. Grateful to remember again this morning and know where to go. Even my in person homegroup…it just doesnt offer the same soul searching and clearing benefits as this does. Grateful theres something special here.
Grateful to have celebrated my newly 19 year olds birthday over the weekend. Grateful for birthday weekend blowouts. Grateful were finally getting a couch this weekend and put up loft beds for both girls already. Grateful, every moment for a home that houses just the three of us. Grateful i have figured out and am physically able to make this work. Im very grateful its not even as bad of a financial crunch as i thought it was going to be.
Grateful for the watern lantern festuval this weekend and for an exceptional plum village meditation last night. Grateful for things that feed my hungry soul. Grateful to be able to admit to myself right now that the NA group in my area just isnt doing it for me. I know that ive given NA 100% for 18 months and im grateful that there is NO HARM NO FOUL in adding perhaps some Buddhism recovery into my daily repertoire, im definitely searching for something different.
Grateful for our now TWO feline lovebugs. They have made my girls SO happy. I sure dont mind either. Grateful for all these blessings, realizations, and options that recovery and staying clean (and sober) bring.

[Its_me_Stella]

@Dazercat

You’re crying

Yes youre right… its that twin connection.

[Dakotahjae]

This. Billy. This. I needed to read this right now, OMG. “Suffering or happiness is created through ones relationship to experience not by experience itself.” I am resetting my eyes and my heart to see only what is truly in front of me right now. I feel like ive just been able to hit the reset button. Thank you for this.

[JazzyS]

Sunday gratitude’s – oh yes - i am super grateful!!

I am so grateful that i do have energy today despite crappy night sleep. Grateful that i didn’t feel guilty about scrolling insta for 3 hours watching videos when i couldn’t sleep.
I am so grateful for my lovely morning coffee with my mom. She is so amazing!
I am so grateful that i was able to spend some humorous time with my brother.
I am so grateful that my sis and bil came over to watch the game today. My goodness - thank goodness that i don’t drink anymore. Grateful that i no longer have the alcoholic facial swelling and redness. Grateful that i no longer plan my day(s) around drinking. It hurts seeing them looking so unhealthy but i know my words will not register so its a waste of time.
I am so grateful that I had time to make our morning detox juice for my brother and myself.
I am so grateful that my brother brought me some Alkaline water.
I am so grateful for comfy cloths and cooler weather.
I am so grateful almond yogurt cause i do enjoy sauerkraut mixed with yogurt and pumpkin seeds (so grateful to be able to enjoy without actually yogurt). I know a weird combo but i find it so comforting.
I am so grateful for family and friends that accept me for me and are now understanding what i have been going through. I am so grateful that i am not taking shit or lack of compassion from friends. I no longer accept a one way street. I am fully there for my friends and i do believe its justified that i receive comfort from my friends in a time of need (not to be fair weather friends).
I am so grateful for meditation and prayer! Grateful for my connections with God and so grateful for @Its_me_Stella words - letting go of my shit to God - surrendering myself wholeheartedly and without reservation. I felt connection with all your words and am grateful that you were able to articulate them so well.
I am so grateful for a OCTOBER - i love this month and all that it holds. I am so grateful that i can still enjoy the spookiness and Halloween fun even if i can’t decorate or do my haunted houses / orchard runs this year. I feel content that I know if i don’t push myself I will heal and get better and next year I can go ALL OUT again.
I am so grateful that i was able to catch up here and on the check in thread - will now go and join the fun watching the game. Grateful to be fully sober and able to enjoy the day with a clear mind.
I am so grateful for this community and all you wonderful souls that make this place to welcoming and loving… what a comfort it is to know you are always around to lend a ear / shoulder. Thank you!!! You guys are amazing

Wishing you all a wonderful addiction free day! Sending you all so much love

Edit- to add I am so grateful for not sweating alcohol…for not omitting such foul odor. Grateful I don’t drink! Can’t stress this enough today

[Sasxoxo]

Today I am grateful for my oldest niece. It’s her birthday and we are going to have a little celebration

[Lisa07]

Checking in grateful with 1481 days.

I’m grateful for waking up hangover free and refreshed for the start of another work week. I used to despise Mondays, now I don’t mind them at all.

I’m grateful we went to the 911 memorial yesterday. What a beautiful place of remembrance. I’m grateful we were able to locate the names of our friends at the pool. I’m grateful the 3 of us said a prayer together while placing a rose in their engraved names. I’m grateful for all the tears we shed. I’m grateful my husband agreed to leave before finishing the entire museum. I’m grateful I know my emotional limits. I’m grateful I didn’t consider the admission fee to be a loss, since we didn’t stay long but rather a contribution to a great cause. I’m grateful we reflected on that day as a family during the drive in to the city. I’m grateful my daughter was a trooper with all the walking we had done.

I’m grateful to be on this journey with each and everyone of you.