I’m so grateful I just don’t know where to begin. On one hand I’m so grateful we got the house and my life is seriously about to change for whatever gods will has in mind of me. And on the other hand I got this gorgeous creature, Alice, meeting me every morning at the microwave where I put together my coffee, and I scoop her and my cup up to sit in darkness and she warmly snuggles in a purrs on my lap. I’m really grateful for Alice my little hp in the morning granting me the serenity I love, if I let her.
I’m grateful we have a contract on the house in Cali
I’m grateful, although my mind gets on that hamster wheel,
One Dat At A Time.
First Things First.
And today, and tomorrow, with a holiday that means I got nothing that can be done. And grateful I get to help take care of my poor wife and her arthritic knee. With love and compassion.
I’m grateful for my recoveries as usually it’s the other way around; where I’m laid up with a back or hip issue or hernia or appendix or heart problems. Torn meniscus. Fuck I been a mess And she always takes care of me. I’m grateful at the end of the day it’s not about more me. I’m not the victim here. And I don’t have to make it about me and get trashed drunk because I have to do everything around here because it hurts her to walk. And she’s laid up.
I’m grateful I get to be present and take care of her and not make any of this about me. I’m grateful recovery is an unselfish blessing we can treasure. And I’m grateful I’ll wake up without a hangover and I’ll do it again!
I’m grateful I know how uncomfortable it feels to have people wait on me and not want to ask for help.
I’m so grateful for my health. Today.
I’m grateful I’m kind of shell shocked we are in a contract for this house. I’m grateful I know I can do this. I feel like I move for a living. I’m grateful I get to look at this house as not a stopping ground in my life until we figure out where we are going next. I’m grateful I get to have the attitude that this is going to be my home. Fuck! I started in Boston and I’m going to be 20 minutes from the Pacific. I can’t possibly go any further west. Hawaii No fucking way. I’m grateful it’s time to settle down. I’m grateful for the education I’ve gotten living in so many different cities and towns and even a different country once.
I’m grateful it’s always been kind of a little dream of mine, getting a one story Spanish style house. God willing we close, and I get to live that dream at the end of my bronze years and not have any steps to fall over.
I’m grateful I get to share all this with you all. It means a lot to me.
When life brings
Big winds of change that almost
Blow you over,
Close your eyes,
Hold on tight, and believe.
LISA LIEBERMAN- WANG